Change of Plans

30|Impulsivity

Friday, February 3rd

Impulsivity has seemed to be one of the bigger forces in mine and Aidan's lives at the moment, which is a very big change for me. Planning, and schedules, and being prepared are some of the best things in the world, yet I find myself being more impulsive as the days go on...

To start, I cut my once very long, light brown hair to about mid neck nearing my jaw which brings out the darker side of my hair up by the roots. I decided to cut my hair on the last day in January when Aidan and I started filling out college applications. The haircut is supposed to make me look more mature and I hope it's doing it's job. I let my mom cut it which was definitely a risk, but it turned out really well (we don't have to tell her that I got it styled a little more the day after at a salon...). Anyways, I love it even though it's quite the difference.

Another act of impulse came on Aidan's birthday. I stayed that night at his house after we surprised him, which was already a big risk, and we woke up just before 10 o'clock on Saturday. We spent breakfast in his room watching a movie and he opened my present which was tickets to this local band that he absolutely loves and I decided to take him ice skating.

Needless to say we both need some work in that category but we had a great time. It was full of laughter and teasing and forehead kisses and it was amazing.

We finished at the rink around five and we had time to kill so, as if we hadn't already taken some big steps in our relationship, we decided to go to the tattoo parlor next door.

I know what you're thinking but it's not as bad as it sounds. We didn't get matching tattoos or tattoos of each other so don't worry. We both thought it would be a cool experience if we got our first tattoos with each other.

Aidan decided on two Chinese characters that stand for a Chinese proverb. The proverb says, the journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step. Aidan saw it and wanted it immediately. I have an idea of why now but I hope he can explain it to me more in depth later on. Aidan decided to get the tattoo on the inside of his arm under his bicep.

As for my tattoo, I decided to get it at the top of my spine in the center of my shoulders where only I would know where it is because of my long hair. Little did I know, a couple days later I would chop all my locks off.

The tattoo is in small lettering and it says, love always and forever. It's a family saying and it's  engraved on the wedding rings of the couples in my family. I just like the message whether it's romantic or not.

A couple days after getting the tattoo, my mom cut my hair and spotted the tattoo and dragged me by my ear to my father in his room. He was actually impressed that I got my first ink when I was sober and that it was meaningful. Neither of my parents were angry but my mom was a little shocked.

They aren't too innocent themselves though as both of them have small tattoos here and there.

Lastly, college applications. I originally planned on applying to UCLA, U of U, and several other colleges in Utah. I also did some other colleges for fun like Yale and Harvard. God knows if I'll get into them. I still applied to those but I also applied to one more...

Juilliard.

The process for them is you fill out an application form, a tryout form, and send in a pre-screening recording of you playing a piece so they can pick students to come in for live auditions. For both the pre-screening and the live performances, they pick students based on commitment, exceptional talent, discipline, interest, competitiveness, and a long list of other attributes.

To say I'm nervous would be an understatement. A lot of the required pieces for live auditions I've played in previous years but there are about two I have to learn. I just hope that my best will stun the judges enough to accept me.

The only reason Aidan and my mom were able to convince me to apply is because I haven't wanted this my whole life, so if I don't get in I'll be upset, of course, but it won't be my life's work put to waste. Also I was already feeling spontaneous because of my hair.

I sigh and look down at my desk and see my note pad where I've written down all of my spontaneous acts lately. Yes, I made a list.

Saturday the 28th: Aidan and I got our first tattoos and I spent the night...
Tuesday the 31st: I cut my hair and applied to 5 colleges (JUILLIARD!!)
Friday the 3rd (todayyyy): Aidan and I are celebrating our two month anniversary!

It has officially been two months since Aidan almost kind of asked me to be his girlfriend without the label. Honestly, I don't mind not labeling anything. We both know that we're dating each other, and only each other, and that's good enough for me.  It's not a huge deal anyways, so we're just going on a small date but I'm really excited. Maybe a little scared, but only because I had only hoped it would last this long but I'm shocked it did because of our major difference. Maybe we aren't all that different anymore though...

I know Aidan has changed a lot. It's been months since his last fight, and I can't even remember the last time he got completely wasted. I've also changed a lot to though and I realize now that sometimes planning, and schedules, and being prepared, aren't always the best things in the world. It's ok to let loose and go with the flow...sometimes. 

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The cold weather provides the perfect opportunity for an easy date so Aidan and I are going to the movie theater to see a new movie that just came out. I'm not exactly sure what it's called but I don't mind, as long as I can spend some time with Aidan.

Before Aidan comes to pick me up, I put on black ripped jeans, a white sweater and some ankle snow boots. The doorbell rings and I hurriedly grab my phone off the counter and answer the bell.

The door swings open to reveal Aidan wearing Khaki pants and a plain grey button up.

"I still can't get used to how beautiful you look with your new hair cut." He says thoughtfully as he wraps his arm around my waist and kisses my forehead. I close my eyes and set my hands on his biceps and let out a sigh, enjoying his soft lips against my skin.

"Happy two months Aidan." I breath out.

"Happy two months Harper."

A.N.
I KNOW I KNOW! Seven years later and I FINALLY post another chapter. Here it is so please enjoy and give me thoughts on her hair and the tattoos.

Also WTH...Harper applied to Juilliard!! Big things are coming their way so keep reading thank you guys tonsssss<3