Random Rambles - Poems

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Love Doesn't Seem to Exist Anymore

Love is unconditional. In our world, barely everything is unconditional. We all seem to take each other for granted - your friends, your family, your love interest , whatever.

It could be your friends only need you because they feel the satisfaction of having you around. Because you give them what they need. No matter if it is friendly love, or whatever, they just need you to be there for them when they're sad, they just need you to be there to make them happy.

It could be your family only needs you because of how much they've got you so academically-well-invested. You're smart, you know what is happening, you know things they don't know. Everytime I come home from my college hostel I get bombarded with "Ai Ning! Help me on this!", "Ai Ning, help me with something else please!" and in turn when I do something I like - play Dota 2 or even just game or watch youtube for that matter - "You're such an addict!", "Stop playing that game! Come help me!"

Don't you ever stop for a second and think about my feelings? I know I do game a lot whenever I'm home but that's because I don't get to as often at the hostel!

But whatever. Love doesn't seem to exist anymore.

When you cried at my side about how stressed you are with everything when I gamed with my headphones on, they slightly empathy coursed through my veins and I wanted to turn to you and listen - but you'd only rant on so much more further, and I'm sick. You said that I'm so cold - that I don't care about you, that you were crying at my side when I gamed and I didn't care - heck! Where were you in my growing up years - when I needed you. Where were you when I needed you as emotional scars formed on my heart? It no longer seems to have true blood in it, dead cells and no love.

Love interests? If they know you like them, they play you for a while - or at least they give the excuse to themselves that they are waiting it out to see what kind of person you truly are.

We all yearn for someone who doesn't feel the same about us. Or at least had.

I'm just so tired of making myself cry over boys who don't even give a cent of thought about me. Sure, I fall easily - but no one catches me every single time.

Prft. I couldn't even catch a boy who had fallen for me. I just simply wasn't interested.

That one phrase "I'm not interested sorry" could turn your whole world around - especially when your crush is your world.

Love doesn't seem to exist anymore in this world. Can someone, anyone, please, for the love of God prove it wrong?