When we got off of the bus while evanescence was blasting in my ears it was raining. Well it fits the mood of my music. Then I saw the fans all standing there for VIP and soundcheck and I sit backstage and I call Amy.
"Hey Josh you doing alright?"
I want to say I want to die. I hate this life I hate this world.
"I'm ok."
"I got my ultrasound today it's still a little jelly bean."
"Can you send me the photo please I want to see our little jelly bean."
I say trying to sound like nothing went on last night.
"Of course I can and you don't sound alright. What happened?"
"I-I snapped at Matt."
"It's ok did you at least apologize?"
"Yeah I just...got a little too worried"
"You apologized and it's ok not to be happy all the time."
"I have to go love you."
I hanged up and went to the VIP thing. Everyone there was so happy to meet us but I just faked being alright and smiling. I just want to scream all of my thoughts out. So after soundcheck I walked into the woods looking out onto a cliff.
"I hate myself! Why does everyone I loved dies or leaves?!"
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Imaginary light (a Josh Ramsay fan fiction) -Done with this part of chapters-
Teen FictionJosh is a singer and songwriter for marianas trench until this someone comes into his life how will he handle it? Read to find out
