Imaginary light (a Josh Ramsay fan fiction) -Done with this part of chapters-

Recovery

When I woke up I could see Amy yelling at Derek about something. I had a button that could give me morphine and put me back under. Wait? Amy is alive? This has to be the morphine. I pressed the button and I fell back asleep.

The next time I woke up I felt something sharp like braces. I put my fingers in there and to see that my jaw is wired shut. Its better than having no jaw. Then I saw Amy at my bedside holding my hand. She said something but I STILL CAN'T HEAR! I pointed to my ears and she hugged me. How is she alive? Then I saw the scans. They broke my jaw, Broken Ribs, Fucked up vocal cords, and a broken leg. I pressed the same button again falling back asleep.

This time I snapped awake from a nightmare crying but I still can't hear the crying. I want to die! Why did they even save me?! Then Amy held me close to her.

"Shh everything is going to be alright. You have a lot of snot Josh."

I smiled at her because I can hear as she passed me a tissue. I wiped my nose and she snapped her fingers.

"Wait can you hear me?"

"Mhm"

"That's amazing."

I smiled and grabbed her hand and since I can't talk that well I can't ask her how the hell is she alive. I grabbed a white board and wrote down: How are you alive?

"I'm an angel Josh so I'm alive."

That's when the drug kicked in and I fell back asleep. The next day I was up on crutches trying to walk to the door.

"You got it Josh now let's just try to get to the door."

I nodded starting to walk to the door and I made it. I looked outside of my room and it was just a normal ward.

"I think that's enough for today Josh wanna try some vocal exercises?"

"Sure...."

My vocal cords have to be trained to get back to where I was. Imparently they got torn from where the wire was.

"Now just say your name and where you are."

"My name is...Josh and I'm at the Vancouver general hospital. Can we try something else?"

"Okay let's try some singing exercises. Like the warm ups you do before any shows."

I tried one and my voice gave out. I expected that at least.

"That's normal for the damage that you have."

Yeah but I might not be able to play again and that's a problem! This is gonna be a long recovery process....
Then Amy came in with Veronica.

"Veronica come to daddy."

She started to cry when she was in my arms. Then Amy put her back in her arms.

"I think she got scared by the wires Josh. I'm gonna go put her down I'll be back. Everything will be okay."

I faked a smile and when she left I couldn't breathe from an anxiety attack. Then Meredith came in telling me to do something and she ran over.

"I can't breathe!"

"It's okay I'm gonna take the wires out you're going to be alright."

She clipped the wires out and my mouth opened and I could finally breathe holding onto the chair and my neck. I can breathe.