Imaginary light (a Josh Ramsay fan fiction) -Done with this part of chapters-

Flying back

I woke up in my bunk in like a daze as my phone rang. I grabbed my phone and it was Amy.
"Hey..."
"You have to come home Josh please we can't do this alone."
"I'm not alone...I have the band and yeah about it."
"But I am alone..."
I heard one of the guys walking to the back to check on me so I hung up.
"Hey you alright?"
"Besides the collapsing on the floor and a headache I'm okay."
I said getting up as Amy called back.
"Look if you have to go home to fix things..."
"I'm not going home yet until this tour is over."
I grabbed a water bottle taking some aspirin as I put on my shoes to walk down to tims.
"Don't push yourself..."
"I'm just getting something to eat Ian."
"Oh can you bring coffee back for the band?"
"Sure just come on I'll need your help."
I walked outside waiting for Ian to put his shoes on.
"Come on Ian we don't have all day!"
He ran out of the bus and walked down to tims with me.
"So you wanna talk about it?"
"No I don't want to talk about my dead daughter I just wish she was here...alive and not dead in the morgue..."
I said as I threw some snow at a car on accident.
"SORRY! Oops?"
"Take your anger out on the snow it's less harmful to you and poor car."
He said laughing as I threw some snowballs at the wall and we continued walking to tims.
"That fucking works man...."
"I know and you wanna have a snowball fight?"
I just laughed at that and we had a mini snowball fight. Ian won that one from me getting hit in the nose. After that I just forgot about what happened and then all the emotions just came flooding in at once and I just broke into tears.
"Hey it's okay you don't have to do this tour...they will understand."
Then he hugged me and I hugged back. I was thinking last night when I was sleeping no one will ever understand why you've been close to suicide about three to four times. Or why you fake the smile. So I've decided what is the point of all of this? Is it supposed to make me stronger. It's just breaking me instead of making me stronger.
"No one will ever understand...I want to die Ian..."
"Josh....don't even try commuting. Look things might not be all happy and bubbly but ending your life will make things worse. And I know you just lost a loved one and yeah that's taking a toll on you mentally but we all care about you Josh. You're not alone..."
"I just feel like I am alone..."
I pulled away and went to grab the coffee with tears running down my face. Maybe I should go home and just try to figure my life out I don't know. I let Ian carry one of the things of coffee as I walked on the mostly empty road back to the bus with earbuds in. I heard my phone going off and it was Amy texting me
Amy: hey you okay?
Me: nope but I am thinking of coming home I don't know
Amy: please just come home we could try and figure this out.
Me: I'll think about-
All out of the blue a truck honks it's horn and before I could run out of the way it tried to stop but it was too late. I got hit flying into our bus just laying there limp.
Amy: Josh?!
Amy: Respond to me!
All the guys came running to my side same with the truck driver as I tried to stay awake as I pulled a shard of glass out of my leg as it was bleeding like crazy. Then Amy called and I tried to reach for my phone but then I just passed out from all the trauma in my body as I just felt like I was drifting away.
Amy's POV
After that last night in the hospital I went home and binged on ice cream and cuddling up on the couch just waiting for Josh to call or for him to text me. Later that day I was in the middle of texting him and he just sent this weird text that got cut off. This is very odd because he usually finishes his texts. So like the frantic wife I am I called his cell and no one picked up and it just went to voice mail which was odd.
"Josh please call me back."

Then not even a half an hour later Matt called my cellphone which is odd he would only call when Josh was in shit. SHIT HOW DID I NOT CATCH THIS?!

"Matt what's going on?! Fill me in right now."

"So Josh accidentally got hit by a semi and got flown back into the bus and well now he's being air lifted to a hospital in Regina."

"What the fuck?! It was not an accident Matt he was probably wanting to die but I'm on my way."

"No it was just an accident. Him and Ian were just grabbing coffee for the crew and us and Ian told me that he had headphones in his ears and yeah. I have no idea how he didn't hear the horn. Anyways I'll see you there Amy."

Then he hung up as I sank to the floor alone and tired. I got so used to not being alone because of Veronica but since she's passed nothing has been the same. 

"Its alright Amy just breathe and go and pack and go to the hospital in Regina." 

Ugh why was I talking to myself? Must be the feeling of being alone. I got off of the floor and grabbed my duffel bag and an airport pass since I've been flying from NYC to Vancouver while working on the new Evanescence album. I ran out the door and locked it and flew to Regina. Everything was going through my mind. What if he has a brain injury or he doesn't wake up or he doesn't remember anything? Chill I wont be there for a couple hours. I guess I should get some sleep...As I fell asleep in my chair. Someone next to me woke me up when we landed in Regina. When I looked around for a taxi service I saw Matt. 

"Hey Amy come on!"

I ran over to Matt and hugged him tight. 

"Thank you and how's Josh?"

"Since before I went to get you he was heading into surgery to stop a brain bleed but his leg is pretty broken and so are some ribs."

"Alright let's get going...."