I started to open my eyes and I could see that I'm in a room. I panned my eyes around and saw Derek sitting at my bedside as he was my father figure at this point.
"Hey Josh can you try to say something? What's this?"
He grabbed a cup from the counter.
"A...c-c..."
"It's alright Josh you just had major surgery so you'll be a little foggy."
"It's a....cup..."
"Good that's good now can you wiggle your toes for me please."
I wiggled my toes as I didn't really know what went on.
"Derek...what were my injuries?"
"A very bad bleed in the frontal lobe and a broken arm and a cut deep in your leg from some glass that actually re broke it from last time."
I thought about it as I saw Amy outside my room.
"Why is she just standing out there? Or is it because I took her off as my emergency contact?"
"She's kinda scared to come in because of what happened with Veronica."
At that point I just pressed the morphine button falling asleep. The next time I woke up my leg was stinging. Which is odd.
"Derek?"
"Josh it's alright its the wound healing and its Matt."
I sat up in the bed tired of laying down and I looked at it.
"Have I been getting anti biotics for this? Because its red and puffy..."
"Uh I'll go and get Derek..."
He ran into the hall grabbing Derek to see if it's an infection forming. If he has to remove it then no I can't loose this leg. It's what I jump and walk with and just I need this leg to be alright.
"Alright let me see and I'll see if ortho wants to give you the heavy anti biotics." "Just please...don't take my leg please you know that I need it for my job...."
"I don't promise anything but I will try my hardest alright but if I do have to amputate it well you will get a prosetic."
"No! I don't want a fake leg that will fucking ruin my career! Think of that next time when you want to take a body part!" I just completely snapped at Derek as he walked out. But I am right it would ruin my whole life...I live to perform music and if they take the leg then I'm done. I am done. --A couple weeks later--- Amy's POV I was seeing Josh everyday since he came in and then Derek walked in and pulled me into the hall. "He's not doing anything Amy he didn't take his medications since I told him that we have to amputate the infected part." "So you're basically saying that he's mentally unstable?! He has constant depression Derek you know that and I know that!" Then I looked over at him grabbing a needle and not for his anxiety. "JOSH STOP!" Josh's POV I saw Derek pulling Amy into the hall and I just thought what was the point of even trying? My life is over...so I reached over to the epi needle out of the medicine drawer and held it to my chest near where the iv in my chest is. "JOSH STOP!" "I know if I inject this into my iv line I would die right?" "Just hand me the needle Josh you're going to be alright..." For a split second I thought I could be with my mother and daughter screw this but half of me needed Amy and I've been putting her through hell. "I'm Sorry..." I stuck the needle into my chest and injected it. And everything just stopped. (A/N: so sorry that I haven't updated I've been kinda busy with life and I SAW TRENCH AT THE STAMPEDE)
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