Imaginary light (a Josh Ramsay fan fiction) -Done with this part of chapters-

Broken

Amy's POV
Ever since Josh left for the last crusade the house has just been lonely. I gotta wonder was this like him every night I was gone for? Anyways Veronica has been sick with the flu for a week but she's not vomiting she's just tired. So I called Josh up asking him what is it that she's sick with.
"Hey babe..."
"Hey is my little princess still sick?"
"Yeah I have no idea what's going on with her. She's just tired but today she started loosing her colour."
His face just went pale like this has happened before.
"Babe?"
"Get her to Derek it's my disease if she starts coughing blood it's too late she wouldn't be able to be saved. So go and I'll fly over with Matt."
My stomach just sank knowing that my daughter would die...I need to be strong for her it's not my sister.
"Alright I'll see you then I'll text you with updates."
"Love you and tell her to get better for me..."
"Love you too..."
I hanged up and ran to Veronica getting her into her soft pink onesie.
"Come on darling let's get you feeling better okay? You'll get to see daddy."
She just brightened up. Man she has a strong relationship with Josh. So I put her in the car seat grabbing her things and my phone buckling her up and driving to the hospital checking every time that she coughed. I'm just afraid for the worse. I have to wonder if he's the same way. Once we got there they did a full body scan on her and of course she had a tiny tumor on her kidney.
"Miss did you know this was your husbands disease?"
"Not till now..."
Then I saw Josh and Matt walk in with their suitcases.
"There you are!"
I hugged him crying into his shoulder.
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Josh's POV
The plane ride over was just anxiety driven. Well Matt got some sleep at least as I couldn't sleep.
"What's the tumor? I know the drill I have it myself."
"Stage 2 kidney cancer but we're lucky to catch it early. Since it's only on one kidney she would only have to get the left one removed."
We both sighed of relief but knowing that she would be alright.
"But Derek what about the disease? Because I don't know if she can have my cure."
He sighed.
"Josh I have to talk to you. Amy go snuggle Veronica..."
She wiped her tears as I let her go to Veronica's room in the icu.
"Alright what is it?"
"Ever since you got pierced in the throat I was planning to talk to you about the cure on the day that you left but you were in such a big rush."
"Let me guess it stopped working?"
"You guessed right but I'm working on another one a more updated one."
I stood there in silence.
"You could've just stopped me and told me what was going on before I went home to my now dying kid and before I went across fucking Canada! You should've just told me back then!"
"I'm so–"
"You don't get to be sorry! Your wife is alive and you have three healthy kids and nothing stopping your path! You have no idea what I've been through to get to where I am!"
I just completely broke in front of the entire hospital and Amy just looked at me and I ran into a storage room breaking into tears. Then the door opened behind me.
"I'm not in the mood to be lectured Derek..."
"Uh it's not Derek it's just me Matt. Look just because you might get another tumor that doesn't mean you can't beat it."
"Matt look my kid is sick with cancer while I gave it to her. It's genetic Matt so if he can cure it all my kids would have it. I can't escape it Matt...it will always haunt me. And if Veronica dies I have nothing left..."
"That's...not true Josh you have me the band and Amy by your side."
He hugged me.
"You can be a mess I can take it but you're not alone..."
I hugged back not really crying but just I had it bottled up for so long.
"I should go see Veronica before well she goes into surgery."
I walked out of the supply closet and said sorry to Derek and walked into her room.
"What was that about?"
"It's nothing how's she doing?"
I brushed her hair out of her face as she smiled at me and coughed.
"She's a trooper this little one."
I picked her up as I saw the stretcher to take her to the or.
"Okay sweet pea you're going to be alright...mommy and daddy love you no matter what..."
She looked at me and played with my hair.
"I know but you have to get better..."
I put her down in the crib as they let Amy talk to her as they took her to the or.
"I would sleep when your kid is sleeping but I can't. I'm just too scared."
Then Matt walked into the room.
"I'm here for support or someone to run for food and drinks or for a shoulder to cry on I'm here."
"Thank you Matt."
As Amy hugged Matt I sat down in the chair eventually falling asleep.
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About a couple hours later I felt someone poking my arm.
"Josh babe wake up..."
I snapped awake.
"I'm up what is it?"
I looked at Meredith since she's the head of general.
"Matt I would want to step out of the room for now..."
As Matt walked out I could just tell by my heart as I held Amy in my arms.
"Josh Amy despite my best efforts once I got in there the tumor spread to both kidneys she would need to either have Amy be tested for a match or go onto the donor list."
"What about me? I'm a suitable candidate!"
"You have her disease Josh so that would just cause it to re grow."
"Fine then test me...I'll do anything for her."
I got up and ran outside into the rain just feeling the cold wet water run down my face as half of her doctors ran into her room. So I ran back in as I saw that she broke her incision open and loosing a lot of blood. While I was holding Amy back I saw the flatline on the monitor. She's dead...there's no going back.
"No...NO!"
"Amy...I have to go back for another week or two..."
"Josh you can't just up and leave when your kid just died!"
"I have to this is my job! Now just I'll see you when I get home."
I took the first flight out of Vancouver not looking back as I walked into the bus.
"Hey Matt told us about Veronica is she alright?"
I just stood there frozen not able to move.
"Veronica is dead."
"What sorry I didn't hear you."
As Ian stopped the music.
"Veronica is dead...."
As I just collapsed from tiredness and just dehydration.