Naylene's Book Of Poems

Confused Feelings

This is all so confusing,

My heart is broken and it's pieces are in two different directions,

Which one do i follow?

How do i know which choice is right and which is wrong?

All these thoughts are in my head and i'm going insane,

I wanted to make someone happy but doing that will break a commitment to the one i'm close to,

Oh, What do i do?

I didn't want to hurt anyone and i ended up hurting him and myself in the process,

My heart won't make up it's mind but i'm gonna choose what i think is best even if it might hurt

I'm just a poor soul who wants people to be happy and when-

when you want to so bad but you can't.

It hurts because you wish you could

and you go insane wondering will this end on a bad note?

Will it end on a good note?

All i wanted was for you to be okay

but.

maybe i made it worse.

Two different lovers,

One who broke my heart,

The other my best friend.

I try to reach to his but in the end,
We both ended up cutting ourselves on the sharp edges of ourselves.

It's painful and i want to help fix it, I want to help fix the broken but it's making me go insane

So i can't.

I can't fix this broken heart.

Sometimes you can't fix what you want to,

Sometimes you don't get to do what you want,

Sometimes you can't have what you want.

We can understand each other and we can say we love each other but that won't change me,

I can't change my heart that pulses and decides the way to go,

It's gonna hurt,

Tears are gonna slip,

But i'm gonna try my best,

Not to break all the way.

The thoughts in my head just swim around till they prod the wrong one,

One,

Two,

Three,

Tears are slipping through the eyes.

Four,

Five,

Six,

You're breaking again.

Seven,

Eight,

Nine,

You feel the need to kill yourself,

Ten,

Eleven,

Twelve,

You still hurt but,

You know,

That's what feeling is like,

You're alive.

And it's okay to cry.

It's okay not to know what to do,

You'll figure it out soon enough.

Don't fret,

You can do it.