Naylene's Book Of Poems

Just Because You've Never Dated Someone, Doesn't Mean It Was Never Real

I know you said you never meant to do this to me,

I told you about what's going on and you said you're busy,

You told him you don't hate me,

I understand that you have stuff to do dealing with school,

But it feels like you're lying.

It feels like we're growing apart,
And I hate it.

He mentioned something about how you'd fight for him jokingly,

But I have a feeling,

It wasn't a joke.

You would, wouldn't you?

I'd rather slit my throat than have to fight with you over someone,

But I was here first.

You said "We're practically dating"

I felt my heart drop to my feet,
Felt the wind go through my bones,

I ended up crying,
You said,
Sorry, I didn't mean to,

"I fell in love with him"

You typed those words months ago

Yet it still hurts me just the same.

But I can't say anything,

I'm not in a position where I can date anyone,

It breaks my fucking heart,

But at least someone is treating him right.

I'll keep my mouth shut about this to you,

I know you wouldn't want to hear about it anyways,

I've seen you tag him in things,
And he's called you baby,

Maybe jokingly but,

It stings.

It's not anyone's fault,

We just happen to love the same person.

I get so god damn jealous some days,

But it's okay,

Heartbreak is my middle name.