Naylene's Book Of Poems

I Wish I Was A Better Friend To You

You could sit there and name everything you loved about me and how perfect I am but, 

The truth is, I'm not as perfect as you make me out to me.
I'm a bad friend who is quite selfish despite feeling everything from love to hate in her body,

I always wish I could a better person,

A better friend than what I am now. I don't reply as much as I used to,

I don't talk as much as I used to, and it's my fault.

You say it's fine but believe me, I know those lies,

So don't lie to me,

Tell me everything even if it hurts me.

I deserve to be hurt, I'd rather take all your pain and deal with everything instead of you dealing with all this.

You have a good heart,

You have pure intentions,

You deserve nothing but the best. I've hurt you and I don't understand why you still stick around,

I don't know why you do but I'm glad you have.

You sit there, sulking and absorbing the pain

, And oh god,

I think to myself,

What can I do?

What if I say something wrong?
How can I help?
My mind goes through what I could and can do,
And I don't know what conclusion it comes to,
All i know is that you are the one person in this world who doesn't deserve the shit you're given.
And I think,
I wish,
That there was a way I could take it all away.