Naylene's Book Of Poems

I Know The Truth But I Don't Think My Heart Will Accept It

I know it's not my fault but,
I still think back to what happened,

"Where did I mess up?"

"Where did I go wrong?"

You say you were being selfish,

But you were just being honest, dear.

It still hurts,
And I miss you like crazy and it's hard to deal with sometimes.

It would be so much easier if i saw you as an asshole,

So much easier to move on if you made me hate you,

But you didn't.

Now your someone else's baby,

Yes I know,

And it still hurts,

It still breaks my heart,

But I'll be okay,

It'll take me longer to get over this,

But if anything,
I am strong.

I cry a river,

Cut across my skin,

Forms of coping aren't always healthy,

But at least it gets me through.

I'm getting someone to get me something to drink next week,

I know you won't approve of this,

But I need it.

Things right now are okay i guess,

But there's been a lot going on and cutting myself isn't exactly something i can do,

I could do it,

But I know,
Everyone would worry.

So,

Dear,

When we're talking and this is brought up,

or if you're thinking about me,
remember I won't let go for a while.

It took me 3 years to finally get over someone,

And it's only been a number of months.

I'm not one to let go easily.

But I won't bother you with this,

Just remember,

I love(d) you