The Secret of Me

Little Conversations...

I wake up, first in little doses, smelling this, hearing that, then it came all at me, in a rush.

I jerk up into a sitting position, breathing wildly, and Kiti snaps to my side, hugging me in my sitting position, pressing my head into her chest, probably non-purposely.
"Are you okay?!" She cried, looking down at me as if I was a small child with a scrape knee.
"Fine.." I say, inwardly eye rolling. "Where is everyone?" I question, glancing around.
"Gone." She says simply, going back to what she was doing moments before, and apparently, that was making some sort of fish dish, her rolled catnip cigarette was between her plump lips.
I restrain from making a coy comment, "Gone were, Kiti?" I say, as if I was talking to a small child, pronouncing each word very clearly.
"To help some princess and fight some Alligator guy."
"Crocodile." I correct, thinking, why are they concerned with Crocodile, of all people?
"Whatever." She says with her old tone set back into its proper place.
She hands me a plate of artistically placed sushi, then sticks a pair of chopsticks into my empty hand, "Eat. You were out for seven days." She simply states.
"Seven days?!" I cried, pieces of rice falling from my mouth as I stare at the cat girl.
"Mhm." She says simply, going back to her cutting board.
"Oh god.." I mutter, letting my head hit the wooden wall I was leaning against, causing pulsing pain to spread through out my head.
Rubbing the back of my head with one hand, balancing my plate on my knee, and using my chopsticks holding hand to pluck another piece of sushi from the plate, stuffing it into my face, apatite surprisingly strong, "What's happened since then?" I asked, my word muffled through full mouth.
"Not much..." She said with a shrug, "Ace stopped by for a moment to check on you, about three days ago, but didn't stay long.." Her voice hinted with pout at the last part.
"Oh." Is all I could respond with.
I lean back, thinking and eating.
My mind mostly on the pirate I haven't seen in many years.
Yes, I've seen his Wanted posters, and in memories and dreams... but... it's been so long since I've spoken to him.

And I probably never will... A marine? Befriending a pirate? There was no such thing.

I shouldn't even be around Ace and Luffy.
Ever...
But there isn't anything I can do about that either...

"LIES!!!" Screams a familiar voice.
I heave a sigh, rolling my eyes.
"Welcome back, what do you mean 'LIES'?"
"You know what I mean!! You don't want to be a marinnee....."
"I can't be anything else."
"STOP THE LIESS!! You know what you could be. You just don't have the guts to go threw with it."
"What's that supposed to mean!!?" I accidently shout aloud, causing Kiti to give me sideways glance,
"Jeez, Valdis, take your meds." She said, blowing me off as a complete psychopath.
"Sorry..." I mumble, returning to the conversation I was having inside my head.
"I don't blame her for thinking you're nuts..."
"Shut up.... I'm fine."
"Stop lying to me! I know what you want! I am, after all, you."
"I know, perfectly well, what I want, I just-"
"You miss him, you want him, you NEED him!!" There was way more laughter in the annoying little voice's tone.
"I want nothing of the sort!"
It responds in a singsong voice,  "BS... just you wait... I'll prove you don't have the gut to become a-"
My breaking point was struck, and I yell, "KITI! WHERE BECOMING PIRATES, OKAY?!"
She looks at me wide eyed, dropping her piece of sushi, before jumping up in the air, squealing, then popping into a small cat, landing on the table, still screaming a mew of excitement.

"FINALLY!!" She purred, bubbling into a human cat once more, hugging me tightly around the neck.

"I... just need to tell Garp-san..." I say, a slightly scared looking spreading across my face as I imagine the angry Garp I'd have to face...
"Don't." Says Kiti simply. "Just do, no one really knows what you look like anyway because of your cloak, right?"
I stare, "How do you know that?"
She goes red, "It just..... came to me .....I guess..."
Then she grins suddenly, "Well, you know, I'll be Captain of course! And-"
I cut her off, "Not quite! It's my marine ship were taking over, right?"
She grins even wider, "First mate then!"
"Of course." I say a small smile spreading on my lips, as my heart pounds underneath my marine t-shirt and cloak.
"But first...." Kiti get's a wicked smirk, "We've got to fix this..."
"Wh-" I cry, backing away from the scary looking feline, but she'd already pounced, ripping through my clothes with her suddenly acquired claws
"You'll look beautiful..." She whispers as I squeeze my eyes closed, terrified of what was happening...