The Secret of Me

So Sorry. So, So Sorry.

I wake up lying next to Luffy, bandages cover both of our bodies, but his where more sever. He was hooked up to pumps and cords and looked like a torn mess.

I push away the tears threating to spill as I stroke his matted dark hair.

"I'm sorry Luffy. So, so sorry." I whisper my tears playing with my voice, causing it to crack.

Then Ace and Sabo walk in.

The look Ace gave me said it all.

I stood, and excited the room, Sabo trying to be kind, urging me to stay, in which I ignored, I walk away, pulling at the bandages and escaping from there confinements.

I walk past all the Mountain Bandits, and out the door.

I sit in the night, the wind whipping my hair around, tears staining my face.

I'm worse less.

I appeared here in this world after being dumped from the last one.

I don't know anything about my past, nor future.

I let out a soft sob, burying my head in my hands, curled in a feeble positon.

If I died, would anyone notice?

I then hear a voice.

"Thank you... for saving me..."

It was Luffy, on the brink of tears.

I listen, my eyebrows furrowed, then my eyes widened as more tears leak down my cheeks.

Those three have an unbreakable bound, they could walk through hell together, and still make it out alright, together, they are unstoppable.

They're more than nakamas.

I hear Luffy say something, "Because, being alone is worse than being hurt."

My bottom lip trembles furiously.

Then Ace respond, in a more question like tone than anything. "You want me to . . . live?"

I lose it.

Shaking with the power of my sobs I cry, for myself, for him, for them, for Mert, for everyone. But most of all... for the thing they have, that I've never been close to posseting.

I've thought of ending myself multiple times....

Now I think, and if I did, who would care?

Even he gave up on me.

Scared of me....

Then a voice, soar from crying, says, "Nyx?"

I look up, tears brimming my eyes, "I'm fine." I say in 'not-ok' voice.

I haven't looked up, knowing if I did I'd start sobbing again.

Another voice, "What is it?"

The sound of feet jumping over the rock I had hidden myself behind.

Three feet hit the ground, one soft, then another, slight louder, then the a few seconds past before the last set of feet hit the ground.

Someone sits next to me and tugs at my dress. "Nyx?"

I look up, eyes closed tight, trying to block all tears from passing.

"Please. Please. Forgive me." I whisper.

"For what?" I hear the small voice say.

I can't do this...

"For.... Escaping reality right when you needed me most...."

"It's ok! I'm ok!"

I look up, unable to bare this hell anymore, "But what if you weren't ok?!" I shout, tears bedding my eyes, sparkling slightly in the moon light, my bottom lip trembling and my cheeks pink from sobbing.

They all stare.

I shake, with pain, and sadness, of both the present and memories.

"Before. Before I arrived here, saved by Shanks, I was beyond a prisoner, more than a slave." I begin, closing my eyes, trying to even my shaky breaths.

My mind whirls with memories, memories that caused my entire body to shake.

Oi!! How's the story so far? So, I need a few OC's, guy/girl doesn't matter, could you please message me some? They will be needed in about 3-4 chapters. Thxs!