The Secret of Me

What's Love?

I look up, mouth agape, Kid... Loved me??

But he couldn't now... after all these years... he couldn't still love me...

I'm different now... and I can only assume so is he... we have grown to fit two entirely different lives, our pasts only entwining for a few brief moments... I was so different then... Timid. Scared. And always slightly aware of the fact that I'm different. That's probably the only thing that hasn't changed... I'm permanently different.
I differ from everything and everyone... it's as if I'm not from this world.... So different that I don't know what I am... What species, what race...
So no... with all these given things. Eustass Kid could not still after all this time love me...
Why would I even pretend to imagine such a thing?
I feel a single tear roll down my cheek, slowly, as if it was carrying away any hope or lingering possibility that Kid still loves me. Then out of nowhere Law rounds the corner, obviously angry, his eyebrows turned down, and his gray eyes like the sky during a storm.
"Stand up!" He says, grabbing my arm and yanking me roughly to my feet, he looked at me for a moment, before slowly composing himself.
"Come with me." He said simply, not letting go of my arm as he dragged me down the hallway.
I follow him in a jog to keep up, stumbling, his grip on my arm like iron.
We turn a corner, and he unlocks a door, throwing me inside of the room, I stumble trying not to loose my balance, as he shuts the door, locking it.

I look at him wide eyed, slightly scared.
He turns around and looks at me.
"Room." He says walking towards me, a semi familiar glint in his gray eyes, I walk backwards as he approached, my hands raised and opened, ready to become clenched in a fighting stance if need be.
I bump into something.
I turn. A bed...

Suddenly Law was in front of me, his hands on my wrists pushing me backwards onto the bed, the silky sheets forming around my body as he positions himself on top of me. Hands on my wrists holding them down on either side of my head, his legs rested on either side of my body.
I was shivering and shaking with fear.
"Nyx..." He whispered, his eyes half open, a smirk like smile forming on his lips, "I'll show you how much I love you..."

He leans down slowly, and when his lips touch my neck, I let out a whimpering gasp, his tongue circling on my pale skin, his lips moving in harmony with his tongue.
He slowly moves my hands above my hand, holding them in place with one hand, while his free hand moves down my body, stroking my chest gently, before beginning to untie the ribbon-rope on the front of my dress, revealing my black corset Kiti insists I wear.
He nips my neck and a small moan emits, I can feel his smirk on my skin...
I hated it.
He just assumed I wanted this...
Because he wants this...
His hand grabbed my chest and I let out a louder moan, my face darkening more and more by the second, my hips shifting under him as a weird feeling courses through me, especially around my stomach...The top part of my dress was now almost complete off, his hand stopped massaging me, and it moved downward.
His tongue still working its magic, moved along my neck to a new spot.
I gasped suddenly, the hem of my underwear had been invaded...
He was repeatedly stroking me... down there!
I then realised what was going on....

"Ace?" I asked, laying on my back next to my brother after some hard training, Luffy was nearby, splashing around in the creek trying to catch the fish his older brother assured him he couldn't.
"Yea?"
"Where do babies come from?"
My brother laughed at this.
"You don't know?"
I shook my head no, looking at him curiously.
"Well..." He said, a wicked grin on his face as he glanced at Luffy who wasn't paying attention.
"People have..." He leaned in close to my ear, "Sex!"
"What's sex?" I ask naively.
"Its when two people touch each other...Sometimes just for fun..." He whispered the rest in my ear.
As he spoke my eyes went wide and face went red.
When he was about to go into even more depth, I shriek, "No more!" And cover my ears, closing my eyes and shaking my head trying to get the recent information out of my head while Ace doubles over in laughter.

I now realize what Law is doing... He wants to have... Sex...
That's not going to fly...
"Law!" I cry, my leg going upward, hitting him in the crotch, "NO!"
He lets go as he cries out in pain, I kick him off of me and pull my dress back on.
"WHAT THE HELL, NYX?!" Cried Law angrily, clutching his man hood red faced in pain.
"I don't wanna do that with you!!" I respond, blushing.
"Who would you rather do it with?" He hissed, "Eustass Kid?!"

My face goes red with rage, "AT LEAST HE WOULDN'T MAKE ME! AT LEAST HE CARES!"
"You say that like he still cares." Say's Law darkly, his words cutting me like knives.
"He still does!" I say quietly, not as assured as I had stated my previous responses.
"Sure about that?" Said Law with a smirk.
His words hurt.
Tears dripped down my face, I was as defenceless as I was 15 years ago...
I nod, "He does..."I whisper like a child, sobbing.
"I wouldn't be so sure..." Said Law, opening the door and walking away without closing it.

"He does.." I whisper, my voice dying out with no one to hear it as I put my hands to my face to cry.