A Random Dark Bit of Poetry (Book 1)

When Im Gone

A stolen second in the rain

To wash away the pain

This moment comes and goes

Now come back, all of my internal foes.

Hold me close and dont let go

How am i not broken, you'll have to show

The X s on my wrist mark the spot

But compared to the scars on my heart, its not a lot.

I love you more than i could ever say

So why arent you here with me today?

I miss you so much it hurts

These lines of poetry forming in blurts.

Now i dont have tears left to cry

I've gone so, so numb inside

I dont want to hold on

I want the pain to be gone.

It'll be swift and silent, rest assured

Eventually you'll read these letters unblurred.

Insecurities, self hate, doubts, and low self esteem

All are part of this crazy scheme

Just know that i will be thinking of my last words to you

And how they are, and always will be, so so true.

Please never forget, that i love you.

Our auras so attuned, and yet yours is red and mine is blue.

My soul mate, unromaticized

The only thing about you i've ever fantasied

Was to curl up and lay my head on your chest

Finally, finally I can rest.

Promise me that you'll hold on

Even if im gone

'Cause these thoughts of 6 feet under

Through my mind plunder

When im gone, remeber that

You're perfect, no argument.

Also make sure to remember me

As i was, when i was happy.

Of course, please dont forget

The person i became due to recent regret

Make them follow my last request

And try to do your very best

You were, are, and always will be good enough

Even after all you've been through, so rough.

I love you so, so much

I love you, always.

Is this goodbye?