A Random Dark Bit of Poetry (Book 1)

Starve

The monster in my head

Has found a new bed,

Growling in the middle;

I will not eat, not even a little.

Hollow, empty and airy,

I could almost be a fairy.

Am i pretty now, reflection?

Beautiful, skinny, thin, the collection.

Skeletal, let the self hate

Disappear in the form of weight.

Still red lines trace

Outline the words everyday i face,

Fat, stupid, worthless.

Can't tell if its worth this,

You say it is not

And while your opinion means a lot ,

I will be good enough, pretty, thin.

Hold close a wisp girl, bones and skin

I find it hard to think,

Others have no ED to drive them to only drink.

Living off nothing but air,

I will soon be so fair;

Empty eyes and hollow lies

Just like my insides.

You think that im okay?

Guess again, not today.

I haven't eaten, and i cant sleep.

But at least im not another modern sheep.

The media twisted and pulled

Society that we are, another girl tolled.

Told that she isn't good enough,

And that crying isn't tough.

Fighting back, anorexia will win,

Another helpless case shunned in.

No one loves her, no one cares.

How could they, if its food they share

Messing with my head,

My concentration is dead.

Pale hands of mine are shaking,

Heart irregular and quaking.

Absent from the world,

I am not here, truth be told.

A place where everyone is nice;

Perfect, so it does entice.

Death, black and begging,

Another whisper of beauty waiting.

Watching life in Time-Lapse,

I feel like im going to collapse.

Kill one demon, make room for new.

Sad cry of a slow suicide, get a clue.

Im starving here, literally i fear.

A real "i love you" 'd be nice to hear.

I'd find a nice boy-angel,

With thoughts he can't handle.

Ana will help him too,

She's beautiful as the gem sky so blue

Faded, lovely and light

With only water, soft and white.

Slash the picture razor red,

Burn till the horizon is black, dead.

Theres no hope, turn around, go back

Live without this mind's attack.

Make me push away all that i've loved

Im so sorry, no calories have i craved

I gave all my light to you,

So now i've got to find it anew.

But my vision is darkened

So Ana could embark in.

She's traipsed into my life,

Trap one more lonely girl with a knife

It probably wont be to hard,

Seal the deal, sign the final card.

Curtains fall, lights go out,

One more unheard shout.

Not as fast as i could go

Its unnoticeable, though.