Not again my dear,
Spare me my heart.
Falling again, i fear
Of myself i've given you part.
I know I act like it's nothing,
But try not to take it too lightly
Im so confused, on 2 im crushing.
I compare them nightly,
Do i look forwards or back?
Cant tell which is worse.
What if i can't stand the panic attack
And end up almost in a hearse?
Would you still love me then?
Could you bother to care,
Again and again?
Do i dare?
Brown hair, shadowed eyes;
But my heart doesn't quite race...
Blonde and blue, over you I've cried.
Its you i can't quite face.
Why do i do this to myself?
Another wellspring of pain,
Add the broken heart to the shelf.
Then again without it theres no gain.
He said "just kiss everyone you see"
Well i would but thats not how i roll.
But with you it'd go quick ,
Never to stay long, that'd take a toll.
The slow smile and lingering hug,
today could have been 100 cuts;
But instead off with it i shrug.
Wish i didn't wish this door was shut.
Trading stories not the same,
Close but not a total match,
Maybe the darkness we could tame?
Could you be the perfect catch?
But whats the real one;
The devil lets no deal undone.
Tell me whats the price, hun,
Oh right the other i'd have to shun.
No room in the sky for a second sun,
The moon will die with light unsung.
Put to my head the gun;
Pull the trigger, just get it done.
Cut it short and let it die,
Shut the doors and shut you out.
My best options a lie,
Another silenced shout.
Hold on and don't let go.
Every second another razortwist.
Cant tell this early in the show;
Try not to read the script.
The lines cross so betwixt,
Thoughts of you i cant seem rid,
Feelings so mixed.
Another thought i've hid.
Crushed beneath the weight;
Will you be the one
To finally equate
This darkness i cant seem to win?
I just need someone who's willing,
Believe im worth it and kiss the scars
Dont let me do the self-killing,
Bar me from joining the stars.

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A Random Dark Bit of Poetry (Book 1)
PoetryMy poems. Read, comment, vote, whatever. <3 Warning: Most Contents Are Triggering.