A Random Dark Bit of Poetry (Book 1)

Don't Believe Me When I Say Im Fine

Alone with my thoughts,

Tying a rope with tighter knots...

In a web of suicidal lies, I'm caught.

I told you that I'm 'in recovery';

Just don't (or do) make the discovery,

Death would be a luxury.

I don't want to scare,

But does anyone really care?

Unnoticed symptoms of flatline blare.

I either want help or I want to leave;

"It'll be okay" do I dare believe?

Just get this pain to relieve.

I can't cut so I starve,

But Im bad at that, conscious marred.

Sadly from beloved razors barred...

Maybe I should just let it go and binge,

Though at the idea I cringe.

Seeing the world in a blackened tinge.

Actively seeking either dark or light,

I've been abandoned in my fight.

Maybe I should just end it tonight...

My cries for help lost in seas,

Let go or realize it please.

The sound lost in a dead breeze.