The Hate and Love Game

Game #113

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GABRIELLA POV

When the rain stopped, I decided it was time for me to go back home. I don't want to face Chresanto, because of what he did. But what choice do I have? I don't want to divorce him, because I don't want anyone else to have him. I also don't want to divorce him, because if I do I'm sure I'll be a mess. I'll miss him way too much. Even though he did make a really bad decision, I don't want my kids growing up without a dad. Especially Crystal. She was just born a few weeks ago. It would be too hard for me. My hair was still wet from the rain. I was freezing my ass off and, I missed my kids. I walked down the street, my shoes filled with water. When I saw the house, the window was closed and covered, the necklaces I threw were gone, along with keys, and the picture of Chres and his dad was gone. No glass in sight. I took a deep breath, and walked to the doorstep. I felt my eyes watering, but I have to suck it up. I walked in the house, and the twins were the only ones in the living room. When I closed the door, they both turned their heads my way. "Ma!" they both yelled running up to me. I smiled and kneeled down to their height to hug them. "You're all wet.." Chris said looking at me. I sighed. "I know, but I'll dry off." I said kissing his cheek. "Where were you?" Christina asked. "Lets just say, I got stuck in the rain." I said smiling. She smiled. I heard footsteps, so I looked up at the stairs, and it was Chresanto and Trey. "Mommy." Trey said running down the stairs. I smiled, and he ran into my arms. "I missed you!" he said wrapping his arms around my neck. I giggled. "I missed you more." I said. He let go and I looked up at Chresanto. I stood up and walked to the end of the stairs. "Hey..." he said looking down at me. "Hi." I said quietly. "Can we talk?" he asked me. I already knew that he was going to apologize and expect me to forgive him, but the fact that he was married? And he had the nerve to do that shit when I wasn't home? Wow. I shrugged my shoulders and walked upstairs. "Where's Crystal?" I asked him. "My mom wanted to keep her." he said. I nodded my head, and we walked into the bedroom. It was spotless. Very clean. I sat in the computer chair, and he closed the door. " Look, I'm sorry." he said quickly. I looked down and the wet hair fell in my face. "I know you are but, I can't just forgive you for this. I know, you were really mad because of this note but look what it did to you. You had the audacity to go behind my back and--PAUSES." I covered my mouth and turned around so he wouldn't see me cry. I took a deep breath, and wiped my eyes before the tears fell down my cheek. He sat down on the bed. "Yeah it did do something to me, it's a mistake I will never make again." he said. I turned back around and looked at him. "That's what you keep saying Chresanto! You keep saying that shit over, and over everytime you do stupid stuff like this! And I forgive you. It always turns out to be a lie." he wrinkled up his face at me, and put his elbows on his knees leaning forward almost as if the conversation became more interesting. "So, now you're calling me a liar!? Ella you know you had your mistakes too!" He yelled. I sat up and looked at him. "Name one damn thing Chres! Just one thing!" I yelled. That's when I felt the tears trickle down my face. So much for trying to hold them back. He looked away. "I'm not about to sit here and argue with your ass Ella." he said lowering his tone. I crossed my arms and sat back in the seat looking away from him. "Baby. I want you to listen to me." he said walking over to me, getting on his knees, and grabbing my hands gently. I felt like pulling away but I didn't. I didn't look at him either. "Look at me..." he said softly. I ignored him. "I said look at me. And I'm not going to say it again." My eyes started watering, and I turned my head to look at him. I felt a tear fall down my cheek. He looked in both of my eyes. It looked like he was about to cry too, because his nose was red and his eyes were glossy. "I honestly, don't know why I did that. A night without you is like a year without you, and I know I keep making the worse decisions a married man could ever make, but the fact that you're still with me today after all the mistakes I've ever made is a blessing." "I understand that. But you just don't get it do you?" I said crying. "Get what?" he asked. I let go of his hands, and covered my eyes. He sighed. "You don't know the feeling of it. I've never hurt you, and I never cheated on you. You know why? Because, I thought what we had was a unusual perfect. I thought no one could ever have what we had. Chresanto, you know if you wanted to do something like that to me or with me, you know damn well I would've let you. But no, you want to go behind my back and do that kind of shit with someone else. I had to walk in on you because I know you wouldn't of told me the truth if I didn't. You just don't know the feeling of seeing your own husband in the bed fucking another woman. I don't even know her. And we have kids." I said. At this point, it was getting harder for me to talk clearly. "You're right. I don't know the feeling. I never meant to hurt you baby. I'm sorry." he said. "Yeah, well you did hurt me. You hurt me way worse then all the other times." "I didn't mean too. You know the note was pissing me the fuck off!" his voice was getting louder. "It's a note Chresanto! A note!" "It might be a note, but you don't know how it is growing up without a dad!" he yelled standing up. I did too. "Well you don't know how it is growing up with a dad who fucked you, and let strangers do it too! Why do I have to keep going through this with you!? I lost my dad too, and you know I never mentioned your dad because I knew you would breakdown." he sighed and sat down. I wiped my face and looked at him. "You know you don't even have to apologize, because I obviously did something to make you do that. So, I'm sorry Chresanto for being such a bad wife. I'm sorry for not giving you what you needed, I'm sorry for not fucking you when you wanted too, and I'm sorry for not giving you the love you deserved." I walked towards the door, but he grabbed my arm. I turned around and looked at him. "You know none of that's true." he said looking at me. "Then why'd you do it.." I said softly. He sighed. "I don't know baby..." I smacked my teeth. "You cant even answer the question." "Yes I can." he said. "Then tell me." the tears came back. "Because.....because I was mad. I was depressed, and stressed." he said looking at the ground. "That still doesn't fix it." "Ella, it was like 5 minutes. I didnt even enjoy it." he said looking back at me. I chuckled. "Wow. That makes everything better." I said sarcastically. "I don't like how I'm pouring my heart out to you, and you're taking it like it's a joke." "No I'm not. I know I'm not the first person you dated, but I don't like how other woman have seen my husband's private areas." he let go of me and sat back down on the bed.

CHRESANTO POV

I know I might have to try harder them usual to get Gabriella to forgive me. But she has the right to be mad at me. She never cheated on me nor hurt me physically or emotionally. I don't know why I keep doing her wrong the way I do. Obviously I'm not appreciative to, what she gives me. She's everything a man could ever ask for, and I fail to see that. "What do you want me to do so you'll forgive me, ad we can put this all behind." I asked her. "I, I don't know honestly. At this point I don't even know if it's right we still be together." she said. My mouth dropped. "What are trying to say. Gabriella don't you dare say what I'm thinking." I said. I literally was about to start crying. "No Chresanto, I don't want to divorce if that's what you're thinking. But, I just can't forgive you for this. I just can't." I sighed and put my hand on my head. She sat down next me, and lifted up my head with her hand. She cupped my face in her hands and looked me in the eyes. "I'm always going to be there for you baby. I really am. But, even if I did forgive you for this it would be unforgettable. And you're the stupidest person I've ever met in my life." she said half smiling. I chuckled, and a tear ran down my cheek. "I don't think what we have will ever be the same again though, because the fact that it is unforgettable, I kind of need my space for a while." she said. "And by space you mean?" I asked. "I don't mean I'm leaving, cuz this is my house too. But a little me time more then us time. I need to think about this." she wiped the tear from my cheek. "I, understand." I said quietly. She rubbed my cheek with her thumb. "You do?" she asked. I nodded my head. She smiled. "I love you." she said. "And I'll forever love you." I said. She smiled again, and I leaned in to kiss her. She did too, but it was just a regular kiss. No tongue, no nothing. She slowly pulled away. "You see this ring?" she asked me pointing to her wedding ring. I nodded my head. "You gave this to me 3 in a half years ago. Please, don't make me take it off." she said. I shook my head. "Never baby." I said quietly. She smiled and got up. "Now if you'll excuse me, I have to reheat my body." she said walking towards the bathroom. I half smiled., and watched her close the door behind her. It's never been 'Me Time' it's always been 'Us Time'. I kind of wish she would've took it out on me harder then she really did. I don't deserve Gabriella and it's pretty obvious why. I can't even forgive my own self for what I did. And I see why she can't. When she said things between us will never be the same again, it hurt really bad. Things would always have been the same if I just didn't keep that note around me. It was a fuckin evil piece of shit! When I heard the shower start, I turned over and buried my head in the pillow and screamed. What did I do? My attention was caught by another one of the windows in our room being broken. I looked at it and it was a rock. It went straight through the glass...of course. I walked over to it, and picked it up. It had a piece of paper attached to it.

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If you think it's over, it only just begun. One clue to you is, your father was killed with a gun. Until I have you where I want you, nothing will go down. Atleast in the worse part of this small town... >:-)

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This isn't helping me at all. Am I suppose to feel like I'm in a game? "Gabriella!" I yelled walking into the bathroom. She was standing under the water rinsing her hair. When I walked in, she covered up her bare body. "Chresanto!" she yelled. I smirked. "I don't see what the point of covering up is. I've seen you naked over 100 times." I said walking over to her. "And other women.." she said under her breath. "I didn't even look at her body last night." I said. "Even if you didn't. You still fucked another bitch." I sighed, and she stopped the water getting out wrapping a towel around her body. "Anyway. Someone just threw a rock with a note on it at our window." I said showing her the note. She wrinkled up her face. "The window that was already broke, or the other one?" she asked. "The other one." she smacked her teeth. "We're moving especially so we won't get these notes anymore." she looked down at the note and read it. "Wow.." she said taking it out of my hand, and walking into the bedroom with it. I followed her. "What are you doing?" I asked her. "Throwing it away before you fuck someone else." she said picking up her phone. "Can we just forget about that?" she shook her head and took a picture of the paper with her phone. "I told you it was unforgettable. Don't look forward to sex from me for a minute." she said. I gasped. She picked up a lighter. "It's been 10 months baby." I said putting my hands up. "Were you thinking about that when you were here with the woman yesterday?" I sighed, and she burned the paper till there was nothing left of it. "Who was she anyway? If, you okay with me asking." she sat down on the bed. I shook my head. "Of course I'm comfortable with it. Wife! Okay, that was Ariana from like, what elementary school?" I said looking at her. Her eyes got big. "The girl you went to see the other night? And the one that made you mad?" she asked. I rubbed my head. "Yeah.." She sighed. "I cannot believe this." I couldn't either.