The Hate and Love Game

Game #155

GABRIELLA POV

{2 weeks later}

"The kids weren't that happy about us splitting. But what can I say? Not everyone lives happily ever after. Me and Chresanto were one of those people." I said putting my feet on the couch. "I totally agree. But how do you feel about, babe?" Monse asked me. I sighed and felt my eyes start watering. "I still feel like it wasn't the best idea by divorcing him to resolve all my issues. But two people are suppose to be in love and happy being married. " I said. "And you and Chresanto werent?" She asked. "Honestly, I was never in love with him. And it pains me to say that because it feels like everything we've been through was based on a lie." She nodded her head. "I never thought I'd see this day coming between you guys. You weren't happy being married to Chresanto? After fighting and risking your life for him repeated times?" She asked. "I was happy. For a while atleast; it took me years to realize that marrying him wasn't what I wanted. Besides, he married me because of our kids." She wrinkled up her face. "What do you mean?" I rolled my eyes. "I mean, if we never had kids he wouldn't have married me and we would have broken up as a couple." I put my head down. "It was a good run. I divorced him because he deserved to be happy. Like the real kind of happy. " she smiled. "I understand. But how do you think he feels?" She asked. "He hates me. Whether he says he doesn't or not." My hands started to shake and my eyes started watering again. "He really does, Monse. I want him to be happy with someone and he hates me for it. He married me so I would stick around. And I know I have to forever since we had 4 kids together. But he wanted my body more than he truly wanted me. Maybe that's why every time I caught him cheating, he was having sex with someone else." A few tears rolled down my face. "I'm so sorry Gabriella. But if that's how he acts, let him act like that. I believe a divorce was a great idea because you need happiness more than he does. And the fact that you stayed with him after he cheated proves that you knew this whole time marriage wasn't the best idea after all." I wiped my face. "You think?" I asked. She nodded her head smiling. "Yes. But don't rush into another relationship after all this. Take your time and enjoy what you've been missing being married." I laughed. "I hear you. But I don't see why any guy would even consider dating a woman with 4 kids." She smiled. "Maybe a guy who doesn't mind. A guy who's willing to accept them as his own whether or not they already have a father." "A great one." I smiled to myself. "By the way, this is a beautiful apartment. Luxury." She said looking around. "Well the area is called luxury apartment homes so I see where you're coming from. But thank you." She giggled. "No problem. I hope I lifted your spirit a bit." I smiled standing up along with her. "You did in so many ways. Thanks for talking to me." "Your welcome." She said hugging me. "I better get ready to go though. I have to go pick up a few things from the house. Plus I want to see the kids." "Okay. I'll see you later then." I smiled. "Bye." With that being said, she walked out the door. It feels nice to hear that I'm not the bad guy for getting a divorce. Of course, I think about how it wasn't a great thing to do. And the past two weeks, I missed him tremendously. But what's done is done. And life is just full of crazy things, choices, and surprises. And I've learned to accept that. I grabbed my jacket and headed out the door. Time to get this over with.

CHRESANTO POV

"Do I hate her?! Yes I hate her! I don't appreciate how she just up and leaves the way she did." I yelled over the phone. "Don't say that, Chresanto. Hate is a very strong word." My mom said. "Yeah well so is love. And I told that woman I loved her multiple times a day. I catered her, put my life on the line for her, took care of her, I did everything for her. Yet she still decides to leave me." I yelled again. "Yes you did. And don't make it seem like this is all her fault. Like you're the good guy and she is the bad guy. I'm not happy that you two are getting a divorce. Those children shouldn't have to grow up knowing their parents don't live together. But I'm sure it took her a long time to figure out what was the best thing to do. And I know you don't mean you hate her." I smirked. "Then you must not know me well enough. Or at least these past few weeks because I do hate that woman. With all my heart and I hope she knows it too because I swear to God I do!" She gasped. "I know this isn't easy for you. Especially when you weren't ready for a divorce. But dammit Chresanto, don't you dare say that! A woman takes things deeply. And I know she knows you apparently hate her and I'm sure she is having a hard time dealing with your choice of words." Before I could say anything, I turned around quickly when I heard a door shut. And to no surprise, it was Gabriella. Always somewhere at the wrong time. "I just want you to be happy. And you're not making this any easier for me saying that you hate me behind my back." She said softly trying to hold her tears back. "Gabriella I'm--GCO" "And I've heard you pray and pray every night hoping to see something change between us. How could you swear to God that you hate me? Because I don't hate you." I smirked. "Well of course you don't. I'm not the one who divorced you. You divorced me and I hate you for that!" I yelled. Her eyes began to twinkle but only because of how much she wanted to cry. "Even after saying all that, I still love you. But I'm not in love with you so please just accept that. What's done is done. And I'm sorry if a divorce wasn't the change you wanted. But maybe there is someone out there who will fall in love with you one day. I just wasn't the girl to." I rolled my eyes. "That's bull shit you know that? I don't even know why you're even still talking about us ending our marriage. You chose to end it two weeks ago! So just take your damn stuff and go." She wiped her eyes and got in my face. "I don't care how mad you are about this! Don't fucking talk to me like that. I may not be your wife anymore but I'm still a woman and besides your mother I still deserve respect considering I gave birth to your children!" I looked down at her thinking of what to say. She kind of had me there though. "I still hate you." I said walking away. I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. What's wrong with me? I splashed some water in my face trying to pull myself together. Then I looked at my hand and noticed my ring was still on. I smacked my teeth and forced the ring off my finger. First time taking it off ever since our wedding day. It left a mark around my finger. I stared at it and sighed deeply. Then I put the ring to the side of the sink and walked out the bathroom when I heard Gabriella talking in the twins's room. I quietly walked towards the door and peeked inside trying to hear what she had to say. "I don't want you to go, mamá. Please don't go ... stay please?" Christina said crying. Matter of fact, all the kids were in tears. Even Gabriella herself. Which hurt me because that's my whole family right there. Whether me and Gabriella are married or not, she is still family to me in some way. "I don't want to leave. But your father doesn't want me here and I don't really want to be here either. But that doesn't mean I can't see you guys again. This whole summer I'm coming here to visit as much as I can. And if your father is okay with it, all you guys can come stay with me." She said smiling. "You're not coming home?" Chris said in between sniffles. "Mommy doesn't live her anymore. But I'll be here so much that it'll feel like I never left. Okay? But I don't want to see you guys cry because it hurts me. I like to see it when you guys smile though. Can you smile for me?" She asked them. The all tried to smile as best as they could. I could still tell they weren't very happy to see their mother walk away from them again. And neither was I. But like Gabriella said ... what's done is done. I just can't accept it right now.

Okay Guys. I know this probably isn't what you were expecting or even wanted to happen. But maybe something GREAT will come out of all this. Anyway, the question is who's side are you on? Gabriella's or Chresanto's. And by that I mean, was a divorce the best option that Gabriella chose? Or was it uncalled for and worth hatred towards her for it which is what Chresanto decided to see it as?

》Danae