Such A Beautiful Disaster

Part 5

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Part 5

I woke up to the sound of my alarm going off. I didn't want to open my eyes at first. I felt absolutely awful. My stomach was in knots and threatening to get rid of anything in it at the same time. My head was pounding with an incredible force. I was covered in sweat, yet I felt freezing cold. I was shaking like a leaf and my skin was crawling. The thing is, I usually wake up like this every morning. This is the aftermath of the drug. It's also my body's way of telling me it wants more. Nice, right? Then I noticed that my alarm sounded muffled and far away. I noticed the sound of a shower running which struck me as odd because I can't hear the shower from my bed. Immediately following that thought my eyes shot open. That's when I realized I wasn't in my bed. I looked around and had no idea where I was.

I tried to remember what happened last night. The last thing I could clearly remember was kissing some guy, though even that was a little fuzzy. Actually, the last absolutely clear memory was of me looking for some guy. Ben. Yeah, his name was Ben. Now I could remember kissing Ben. Anything after that though was a complete blank. I realized I must have blacked out and groaned. I hated when that happened. I sat up and looked around the room for clues. The walls were made of faux wood and covered in band posters. The floor was clean save for some books and clothing covering the floor, some of which was mine. I could see my bag lying on the ground a few feet away and where my muffled alarm was still going off. I glanced over to the door from where the sound of the running water was coming from and what I figured was the bathroom. It was still going so I jumped out of the bed and went for my bag. When my feet hit the floor I realized I had someone else's clothes on. I looked down at my body. I had a pair of mens pajama pants on and a shirt that had an Avenged Sevenfold logo on it. That t-shirt rang a bell for some reason. I stopped for a moment to think why the shirt meant something. After a minute of racking my brains it suddenly hit me. Ben had been wearing this shirt. Relief came over me. I had to be at Ben's. Or at least I hoped I was.

I grabbed my bag off the floor and shut off my alarm. I had three missed calls, two voicemails, and a bunch of missed text messages. I left that for now and started rooting through my bag to make sure nothing was missing. I counted my pills and the cash in my wallet. Nothing was missing. Relief washed over me again. I deliberated over just taking off and heading to the closest bus stop, hoping I was in an area of town I knew. Or I could wait for whoever came out of the shower. My alarm had gone off because I had work this morning. I needed to figure out what to do and fast because I did not want to be late for work. I also needed to get a pill in me quick before I collapsed on the floor. The fact that I was considering taking a pill before noon sickened me. If I did that I'd be right back to where I was the last time. Before the latest rehab and round of outpatient sessions. I promised myself I would wait until at least one o'clock to take one. I didn't want to be thinking about this and I needed to find a way out of here. Before I could pursue any other options I might have the bathroom door opened.

The guy who stepped out was the guy from last night. Ben. I said a quick prayer to a god I didn't believe in that nothing bad happened last night.

"Good morning," Ben said to me. He walked over to me, a towel around his waist, and kissed my lips. It felt awkward.

I smiled though and replied "Good morning."

As Ben sat down on the bed he said "I thought I would let you sleep for a while."

"Uh, thanks," I responded. "I actually need to be at work in about forty five minutes."

"Oh!" He said, jumping up. "Sorry. Maybe I should have woken you up. I'll give you a ride."