Such A Beautiful Disaster

Part 22

Author's Note: Hey ya'll. I'd like to just ask again if you would please just take the time to leave any comment, big or small, to let me know what you think. I'd really, really appreciate it! So thanks and enjoy Part 22!

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After another lame in-house AA meeting, while Shauna and the other Level 2's and 3's were still gone for the off campus meeting, Aaron and I sat in the living room. I had been working on a drawing I had started in my sketchbook. It was of a room, similar looking to mine at home. On the bed was a naked girl, twisted up in the covers next to a guy with no face. The girl's eyes were blank and her mouth was slack. She was dead. Aaron had come wandering in and stood over me where I was sitting on the couch, knees up, sketchbook resting across them. I was engrossed in the details of the drawing so I jumped at Aaron's voice when he said "Wow. That's amazing. Your drawing looks so real."

I looked up at him and smiled. "Thanks," I told him.

He sat down next to me and asked "Do you mind if I take a closer look?"

"Not at all," I replied, handing him my sketchbook.

My artwork was something I was extremely proud of. I knew how good I was but it still felt good to hear other people compliment me.

"The detail is incredible," Aaron said softly, though his voice still held that sexy rasp.

After a minute or two of him inspecting the drawing he handed back my sketchbook, which I closed and set on the floor.

"That picture is insane," Aaron informed me. "You have some real talent."

"Thanks," I said again. I then realized how close we were sitting. Aaron's legs were about eight inches from my own. I wanted to reach over and squeeze them.

Resisting my impulse, I asked him "So how's your first day going so far?"

Aaron leaned forward, rubbing his bare head, and sighed. "It's been okay," he told me. "Being here sucks but I guess it's for my own good."

"So what brought you here?" I inquired. "I mean, did you come voluntarily?"

"Well," Aaron began with a sigh. "Not to give you my life story or whatever but, my ma left when I was a baby. My dad's an ugly drunk, a real abusive asshole." Aaron frowned and then continued. "I live with my brother Davey. He's nine years older than me and works at an auto shop. I was in an outpatient program before but that was the extent of my treatment. One night recently I was high and really started geeking. I got paranoid, destroyed a whole bunch of shit, and almost burnt down his house. After that Davey decided that I either get some real help or he'd kick me out of the house. So I chose to get help."

Watching him talk, I could tell Aaron's wounds were still fresh. I felt for him.

He shook his head, mentally clearing himself, then asked me "What about you?"

"Well, I really don't have a family," I said. "My mom and dad are both gone. I got an inheritance from my mom after she uh, passed. But I got into some trouble a few years back and I'm involved with the court system. So this is basically my last chance before I go to jail. Or just die." I ended with a shrug as if to say 'It is what it is.'

Aaron looked in my eyes with sincere sadness. I could tell he understood my kind of pain.

"Well, on a lighter note," I said, trying to break the somber mood. "I think you're incredibly sexy."

Aaron looked taken aback. After a moment we both started cracking up. We laughed for a long while, eventually having to wipe tears from our eyes. It was so silly but laughing like this made things so much better.

When we had quieted down Aaron said "I was not expecting that to come out of your mouth."

We chuckled again and I raised my arms and shoulders in a shrug.

"I wanted to see you smile," I told him. Then I got a serious look on my face and said "I meant what I said though."

Aaron looked in my eyes and said "Good. Because I think you're gorgeous. I'm glad I didn't have to hide that the whole time I'm here."

I gave Aaron a coy smile then glanced around the room. Ted, Jacob, and Ally were in the living room also but their eyes were glued to the T.V. watching Transformers. Before they had a chance to turn and see us, I leaned into Aaron and kissed him on the lips. I knew what I was doing was wrong, and not helpful at all, but that urge for male attention had not left me yet. Aaron kissed me back, then parted his lips and ran his tongue along the inside of my mouth. We pulled away then and I glanced back to the trio in front of the T.V. They hadn't moved an inch.

Just then the unit filled with raucous noise signaling the return of the Level 2's and 3's. Aaron and I shifted farther apart, feigning normalcy. Within seconds, some of the patients who had been gone burst into the room. Shauna appeared, obviously hyper, skipping her way over to us. She surveyed the two of us on the couch together before exclaiming "Oh my god! The meeting was so AWESOME! I am SO hyper. Oh my god!"

I started laughing then began to gather my things off the floor.

"Come on, Shauna. Let's go to our room so you can tell me all about it," I said to her as I got up from the couch.

"Oh my god! Yes! I have SO much to tell you!" she shrieked joyfully.

She immediately turned around and began skipping out of the room.

I laughed again glad to see her so happy and excited. I turned to Aaron and quietly said "See you tomorrow," before giving him another coy smile and exiting the room.