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Pet Peeve: 'I don't care'

If I have to list one pet peeve I have of people, it's when they don't listen or even have the decency to look like they are listening. I know I'm a boring ass person and all, but you could at least sit through what I'm saying instead of replying with a 'no one cares' or a bored nod. OR when we're having a conversation, and I'm replying to you, then in the middle of it you start talking to someone else. Then you ask me two weeks later: 'Why won't you talk to me anymore?'

Okay,

Well, because clearly I bore you half to death...?

I listen to everything you're saying and I reply or respond to each and everything, laugh at the tiniest of jokes and acknowledge every sentence you just said. Because it shows that yes, I do give a shit about your life.

And it's true that I talk a lot. I make the smallest observations as a perfectionist and I like to spew them all out in the presence of another person. Some people may get tired of me talking, but I'm trying here. I'm trying to make conversation, I'm trying to tell you why I like my favourite band or even why I think your shirt is nice, because I like you and I like talking to you. Can't you just respect that instead of saying 'I don't care' or 'I don't want to listen to your stupid gay bands' or 'Ew, Kpop again?' Or even 'What? I wasn't listening.' 

That is the one thing I hate hearing from other people. And 'I don't care' is what I don't understand from other people. 

I'm the type of person, as spoiled as it sounds, that needs appreciation and an 'I care'. This doesn't mean you need to buy me something back if I get you a birthday present or something. I just want to hear a 'thank you' or even see a smile. I don't need you to take me on a romantic date in France sipping wine in the fanciest restaurant, I want to hear that you'd love the idea of spending time with me. And when I stay up until 2AM comforting you when you cry, I don't want to be the temporary solution to your loneliness when you won't even listen to my problems.

If you want to get all stereotypical here: As an INFJ and a virgo with a 6 foot stick up her ass, I can't have a relationship where I am ignored or under appreciated. Because I care way too, too much about everything. I care wayyy too much about my 'stupid boybands', true, and I will obsess over them 24/7, also true. But the least you can do is not say anything because I don't say anything when you obsess about your  whatever. Plus, I never asked you to CARE about my 'stupid boybands', I just want you to CARE about listening to me. Is that so hard?

People who just don't give a bullcrap about what you're doing or saying and don't make an effort to keep you around clearly don't deserve your time, either.