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Advice Please :( [Edit]

Edit:

It seems that my long paragraph on here made me sound like a bitch who didn't like a certain trait in a friend and ended a relationship because of it. But I want to make it clear that it did NOT end like that. Yes, we clashed sometimes. She didn't like some of the things I did and I didn't like some of the things that she did. But we did everything together. I wanted to help with every one of her problems and never wanted our friendship to end the way it did. But it really crossed the line when there was some sketchy stuff being thrown in, like backstabbing, spreading lies on the internet or to mutual friends (before the fight even happened), which I couldn't just ignore. Yes, I shouldn't have lashed out at her, and yes, maybe I could've been a little more understanding. I apologized for the stuff that was said to her during our fight. And she did mention afterwards that I was a good friend who helped her through those problems that I mentioned. She was a good friend to me, too. It's just that one day, I realized that some people don't get along. And I think that's as good enough of a reason to stop being friends.

I'm not saying that she was a bad person, because she never was. I'm not saying I'm perfect, either. I never had any bad intentions in writing that paragraph, and neither did I have any when my conflict began with this friend. It was something that kept me up at night, and yes, I debated many times if I was just being a bad person who couldn't accept who she was, and I woke up every morning willing to give it another chance. 'Just in case'. Nevertheless, it was clear that we didn't have the healthiest relationship, and that's why we decided to end it. 

Please understand that there was more to the story than what I said. I realize that it was a pathetic thing to do, but this was a problem that I wished to share here first  because I wasn't sure that starting to talk to her about it was the right thing. 

I'm sorry for the misunderstanding and thanks for listening, again.

-K