Him Again (boyxboy)

Chapter 5

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Him Again

Chapter 5

(Nick's POV)

My eyes widened upon hearing Mason's voice with a big brother dominant tone. This is really a big serious deal to him. Isn't it? Seriousness can never be a word to define Mason. It is never part of his vocabulary. But after him spitting all those words which screams 'I'm serious, please listen', a shiver ran though my body as I realize what he really meant by his caring words.

"You don't understand Masey." I moved my gaze towards his with a sad expression. My eyes started to blur as I gather the best words to be used for this brother to brother conversation. Tears are threatening to roll down my eyes.

"What are you talking about?! I know that you are hurting yourself inside!" He spit out his words with a loud tone in his voice. He really insisted that he knew my feelings. He really insisted that he knew how hard it is for me to keep on having days spent together with Skylar without him even noticing my feelings for him.

"You will never, EVER, truly understand something until that something happens to you. So stop saying that you know everything Masey!" I can't control my feelings anymore and it made me let out my words with a tone of anger and frustration.

As the words had processed on his brain, he then let out a slight but still a serious chuckle. "Okay, okay, well I think that you should just have to gather all your thoughts you know." He raised both his hands in defeat that received a small smile and a chuckle from me.

"I already did. It's just that I can't." I replied with a tint of angst on my voice.

He stood up from the couch and positioned himself on front of me with his hands on my shoulder. "Bravery is the silhouette of the truth." He then let out the words that will make me gather all my thoughts to do the move. He patted my cheeks with a big brother gesture.

After spitting those words from his caring façade he walked towards the stairs and towards his room. I let out my breath that was all gathered from the tension of our first brother to brother confrontation. What had Mason had shown to me lately served as a stepping stone for me to move on. He received my pride for him due to his words that I had never ever had expected to come out of his annoying mouth.

I wiped the little beads of wet emotion liquids that rolled over my cheeks. I guess that the pizza was enough for me not to have my dinner and I think it's the same as Mason's. I fully turned off the TV and unplugged the wires from the electric outlets and cleaned the mess that both Mason and I had left after our first heart to heart talk.

After washing the dishes and wiping the living room table, I double checked the door's locks and the windows. I walked back to my room with heavy feet. I made my way to my room and grabbed my towel. I did my evening routine like washing my face and brushing my teeth. I got out of my bathroom and directly went to fetch my phone on my study table.

I checked the time that was lighted out of my phone which reads 8:57 in the evening. I sat down on my study chair and grabbed the drawer that was attached under my study table. I grabbed the book which says 'Quote Book' and let out a heavy sigh.

"Loving means choosing to endure pain. Loving means making yourself a choice while making someone else a priority." An unnoticed bead of warm tear fall from my eye as I wrote the words that made my heart beat in an uncomfortable pace. Am I really ready for this? Well, I know I can't be but I should be. It is more like a need that a want.