Him Again (boyxboy)

Chapter 27

Him Again

Chapter 27

Everything vanished as Skylar's lips synced with mine. Time literally stopped as the spark that I felt from the connection got a lot of times stronger. Everything flashed back from the very beginning of our friendship to the time that I had confessed my feelings towards him. The walls that I had built started to collapse brick by brick. Each brick contains that contains the words forget, move on, live up, and others started to crumble into smaller pieces.

The kiss lasted for about a minute and to my surprise, I didn't even budge or made a move to break the kiss that was executed by Skylar. The kiss was passionate, gentle, and was full of...love? A single tear escaped my eye due to the flashbacks that kept on playing my mind like a broken recording disk that plays on and on. Skylar seemed to notice the tear that fell because he broke the kiss and looked at me intently.

A worried expression was plastered on his face as he locked his gaze to mine. I looked away immediately trying to suppress the unknown feeling in my insides. Skylar grabbed my chin and held me to look at him eye to eye. I reluctantly followed the gesture and captured his eyes again.

Tears followed as memories dominated my whole mental state. "Hey, I am sorry." He stated as he brushed the tears that rolled over my cheeks. I flinched a little at the contact with his fingers. A sob escaped my mouth before I even noticed it.

"Why is it so unfair? Why is the world so unfair?" I stated while sobbing. Why do I even felt like this?

"What do you mean unfair? Talk to me so I can understand." He retorted with a concern tone lacing his words.

"You won't understand no matter how much you try. You will never really understand something until that something happens to you." I tried to hold my tears but I guess I am too weak for it. I feel really small. I felt really vulnerable with him beside me.

"Then tell me. Why is the world so unfair?" He asked as he cupped my face with his big hands. I can see right through his eyes that he was also hurting inside the way I do.

"I kept on building and building walls for me to lock this feeling for you. I spent all those days, months, and years to make the strongest foundation to bury everything that was for you. But I guess the world is just really so unfair. You just came out of nowhere and everything, every brick that I had made from sleepless nights and tearful moments started to crumble. And the worst thing is that you didn't even try to make me do that. You had done nothing for that. But I guess I am just so vulnerable with you by my side. I want to forget, I want to let go, I want to move on and stay away as far as I could but I couldn't. I couldn't and I don't know why. I don't know why. I don't know why." The sobbing turned into crying and every last word that I spit out becomes more inaudible.

He made me lock my eyes again to his - sapphire to brown orbs. "I am sorry that I am too dumb and stupid to see how you feel. I am sorry that I brought agony to you." He stated with complete sincerity on his voice.

"No, this can't be happening. What are you trying to say? Please don't tell me that you l-" He cut me off by kissing me again on my lips - although it was just a peck on the lips.

"I love you." My eyes widened at his statement. Is this a dream or what? This is too much to handle and it is no good for the heart. He can't love me. He was with someone else who is perfect for him. I can't hurt Stacey. I can't hurt myself again.

I numbly chuckled even though I don't know why. What is he talking about? "You're kidding right? You can't just see me one day and say that you love me. This is bullshit! You know what; just go get your girlfriend. Maybe you're just on a hormonal state right now." I dismissed myself away from him as I walk far from the secluded area.