Moon Child (Moon Child Series Book 1)

Chapter 9: How could I?

You probably thought I passed out right?

Well that's what too, until I realized, I'm NOT THAT WEAK.

I didn't even CRY at my aunt's funeral last year, so I surely couldn't have fainted just because... Oh god I can't even think it, the thought makes me sick. Gran... Nope can't even say it in my own mind. It hurt too much. 

Oh Natalia, you are so beautiful.

A cold shiver went up my spine and I froze instantly. That voice I knew all too well... I spun around to see him, all three of them, facing me with soft grins on their pale, dead faces. 

My family.

I opened my bone dry mouth to speak, but nothing came out. Just a gust of air.

Gran held up her hand, stopping me in my tracks, "Natalia, let us explain. We are all dead, yes, but we are here speaking to you through your mind. Technically, you're in a coma. Every once and a while, because you are the moon child, we may speak to you through your mind. You cannot speak, but we can. I will be able to more often then they, in fact they will only be able to every 150 years. But I can speak to you every three months. I made an agreement with death himself, " she smiled proudly.

Wow, I can speak to Gran! This is amazing! And my parents... Since I can live forever, I'm sure 150 years won't seem like too long... Maybe.

Gran smiled at me and continued, "He came to the house, cloak black as the night itself, and told me I had to die. He first told me about you being the moon child. Everything, even about the evil. Death knows about that, he knows all. Anyway, because you are the moon child, I got a little special treatment. Death had a request made that because of how I had stopped you from killing yourself a few times, the would give me anything I wanted. Anything. I looked him straight in the eye, and told him all I wanted was for us to see and talk to you. He pulled some strings, but this was all we could do. I hope it's enough to at least make you feel a little less lonely."

I smiled and nodded at them. Of course! Just hearing them is amazing.

My mother looked at me and smiled, "We love you so much Natalia. We have missed you all these years. But I know you still have thoughts of suicide."

I grimaced. Sadly, that's true. Sometimes I really do think about it. Then Ashton says something so unbearably funny that I die or Rhea says some snarky comment that makes me completely forget my train of thought. But, after all that has happened, I do think about suicide. It's not something I'm proud of though.

Mom shook her head sadly, obviously noticing my guilty face. She always knew what people were thinking. "Honey, those thoughts are so pointless. Don't take this the wrong way, but stop thinking about yourself. If you kill yourself, not only would it be a waist of a gorgeous face, but it would lead to the death of thousands. We know the evil is coming. And you know too. All those people need you and all you want to do is end your life. You have pretty much you're own nation! Grow up, don't make that mistake. But we love you, and we'll see you soon."

My dad was the last to speak, "I am so proud of you Natalia. You have know idea how much. Your truly are an amazing girl. Please, don't kill yourself."

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I woke from my coma with a blood curdling scream. Ice cold sweat was running all over my body. I was sweating in places I didn't think I could sweat. I put my hands to my temples and screamed for and good two minutes. If I weren't gifted with air I probably would have passed out from lack of air.

Eventually, I opened my eyes, and looked around at about ten faces staring at me with wide eyes full of fear. Ashton, Rhea, Ryan, Headmistress Lawrence, Madame Icianic, Sir Andrews, and a four doctors were standing in my room. One doctor whispered something to the teachers and the three of them left me alone with my friends.

Ashton moved toward my bed, but stopped when Ryan advanced quicker and sat down next to me. He stared at me intensely, burning into my eyes with his.

"It's OK to cry Natalia," he whispered.

That was all it took for me to snap. I burst into tears and sobs, putting my hands to my eyes out of embarrassment. All those emotions from all these years have been let out, after I had kept them hidden for so long. Ryan hesitantly pulled my wet and red face into his shoulder, like he was expecting me to slap him or something. I just pulled him closer, sobbing into his blue uniform.

Soon Rhea and Ashton came and rubbed my back. I knew they had seen it all... they were the moon and star children, what do you expect?

My mothers words hurt like a knife in the heart. Even sadder, she was right. I admit I thought about suicide a lot, more than I should. The thing is I was never thinking about anyone but myself. Without me, or Ashton or Rhea for that matter, the gifted world would end. All those poor people, already fighting to survive, would die just because I couldn't deal with my issues. How could I even think thoughts that could hurt them? How could I do that to my parents, making them see me like that; trying to hurt myself? How could I?

Asthon and Rhea are probably so ashamed. 

They of course wouldn't show it though.

As soon as I recovered, I pulled away from Ryan, looking at him with a small smile pulling on my lips. He smiled back, a little worriedly though. 

"Don't think those thoughts Natalia. Don't do that to me."

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