Grow To Love You

Chapter 42: Lucky Bath

I heard a knock on my bedroom door and I quickly wiped my tears before calling out for them to come in. It was Aubrey.
"Hey, how are you feeling?" He asked as he shut the door before sitting down on the bed beside me.
"Um ok," I shrugged as I pulled my phone out from under the covers.
"What was wrong today?" I knew this was coming.
"Nothing I was just tired," I replied. Aubrey sighed before climbing on to the bed and laying next to me. He turned my over so I was facing toward him.
"What's on your mind?" He asked as he stroked my hair.
"I broke up with Freya, she's ok with it, she expected it," I answered him, looking down at the bed.
"Are you ok with it?"
"I think so," I sighed.
"How come you broke up?" He questioned.
"We just thought we were better of as friends, we weren't serious," I told him, not wanting to admit the real reason.
"Ok, you wanna tell me what was wrong today?" I bit my lip nervously debating on whether to tell him or not.
"I think my mind is changing about college. I don't find it interesting anymore, I can't concentrate on anything. Everyone else seems to be learning it all so well and are enjoying it, but me, I can barely pay attention for attendance and I'd much rather be here in bed than learning something I've lost interest for. I feel like I just don't care. Like I could fail everything and it will barely bother me. I'm scared," I admitted as a couple tears trickled down my cheeks, squeezing my eyes shut to prevent anymore. I felt Aubrey wrap his arms around me and pull me on to his chest, rubbing my back, trying to calm me down.
"You'll be ok, I'm here for you, there's nothing to be scared of," I felt his lips press against the side of my head as I wept in to his chest.
"I'm sorry," I spoke through my tears. "I'm sorry for lying, I'm sorry for breaking up with you, I'm sorry for going to Jays, I'm sorry I told you I didn't love you, I'm sorry I got pregnant, I'm sorry for what I've put you through, I'm sorry for everything that has happened!" I cried, I couldn't control myself, everything was just spilling out of me and I couldn't stop.
"It's ok, no need to apologise, we all make mistakes, no matter how perfect a person claims to be," He whispered in my ear. I continued crying into his chest for what felt like hours but only 15 minutes had passed. I began to calm down a bit, tears were still falling but I no longer felt sad, I felt numb.
"You want to take a nap?" Aubrey asked me but I shook my head.
"I want a bath," I whispered.
"Ok, I'll go run you a bath," He slid out from underneath me and made his way to my bathroom. My eyes felt painfully dry and my eyelids kept drooping as I tired myself out. Crying is awful when you're this sad. A normal person would cry for a minute and then feel a bit better. Me, I cry for ages and once I've finished my eyes hurt because they're so dry, my throat is sore, my pillow is soaked, I feel weak and unable to move. It's awful.
"You wanna wait in the bathroom?" Aubrey asked and I nodded. I lifted my arms, letting him know I wanted him to carry me. He picked me up like a baby and carried me into the bathroom where he sat me in the chair.
"Which bath cream?" He asked.
"The almond milk one," I spoke through a dry throat. He nodded and poured some in, mixing it around creating bubbles. A few minutes later the bath was ready and Aubrey had stopped the water.
"Here," He passed me my phone. "Just let me know if you need me," He kissed my forehead before walking out my bathroom.
"Wait," I croaked and he came back a second later. "Help me?" I asked as I raised my arms.
"Um o-ok," He stuttered before coming over to me and lifted my shirt over my head, not realising I wasn't wearing a bra. "Shit sorry I didn't realise you only had that on," He looked away as he held my top out to me.
"Stop, it's ok, I don't mind, I feel fine, I feel comfortable with you," I spoke in a gentle quiet voice.
"Are you sure?" He asked, still looking away.
"I'm sure," I smiled weakly. He slowly turned his head back toward me and tried to remain calm as he saw the view of my naked chest. He coughed a little, trying not to stare. I stood up in front of him before speaking. "Could you stay with me?" I asked.
"Uh sure if that's what you want," He spoke nervously.
"Why are you nervous?" I asked as I slid off my underwear, leaving me naked before Aubrey.
"I-it's just....you're so gorgeous, you body is amazing," He chuckled lightly out of nervousness. I gave him a small smile before stepping in to the bath and laying down. "You're so beautiful, you know. Any person would be lucky to have you," He complimented.
"Lucky you," I closed my eyes and sunk deeper into the bath, just so my head was the only thing above water.
"What do you mean?" Aubrey asked.
"You said anyone to have me would be lucky," I muttered.
"Yeah but I lost you," He sighed. I pushed myself up and looked toward Aubrey.
"Get in," I told him.
"I don't think that's a good idea," Aubrey spoke grabbing at the back of his neck.
"Why not?" I asked.
"It just think it's better if for now it's just you in the bath," He answered.
"Aubrey....please, I just want to feel close to you, I miss you. I'm comfortable now, you don't wanna do anything then that's fine, I just want you to get in with me," A couple of tears fell down my cheek as I spoke. Aubrey stood up and began to take off his clothes. I looked away once he got down to his boxers as I wasn't sure if I was ready to see that part yet. The water rippled as Aubrey stepped into the bath and sat opposite me, our legs crossing over each other in the middle. "I love you," I spoke after a few minutes of silence, looking up into Aubrey's eyes.
"I love you too," He replied quietly with a smile.
"I'm sorry I told you I didn't love you, I lied. I think I maybe in love with you but I lied because I felt I wasn't good enough for you, like with the stuff with Jay and my depression. It all just got the better of me and I thought that's the best way to deal with it so I didn't hurt you anymore. I'm really sorry Aubrey," I sighed as I played with the bubbles.
"It's ok, I understand now but never ever think you aren't good enough or anything like that because you are ok? If you ever feel like that again, come and talk to me, we can sort it out together ok?" He sat up and took my hand in his.
"Ok," I smiled at him. "You didn't lose me, I'm still here if you want me," I spoke, hoping he wanted me back.
"Of course I want you," He smiled before pushing his fingers through my hair and pecking my lips. I blushed as he pulled away, glad he still wants me. "You're beautiful," He whispered gently. I pushed my self up so I was stood and spun around so my back was facing Aubrey before sitting back down.
"Lay back," He did as I said and I moved myself in between his legs, laying my head back on his chest.
"Um Nic," Aubrey began to say.
"Just relax," I muttered as I closed my eyes, knowing what he wanted to say. We laid silent for about 10 minutes before I started to get bored. I sat forward and turned to face Aubrey on my knees, telling him to sit up. "Kiss me," I told him once he'd sat up. He let forward and placed a light kiss on my lips. "No, like this," I held his face in my wet hands and pulled his face toward mine before kissing him. This turned into a full on make out session. Aubrey grabbed my waist and pulled me closer till I was sat on his lap, my legs wrapped around his middle. He bit my lip as I moaned into his mouth. I began rolling my hips toward him, feeling that he'd already started to harden. He rubbed against me and I could barely contain my moans. "Shit," I moaned as Aubrey pulled away, a smirk painted across his face. "You enjoyed that just as much as I did," I whispered into his ear as I placed my hands on his chest, slowly trailing down.
"Oh I know," He winked. My fingers gently wrapped around Aubrey's hardened length and I began to slowly move my hand up and down. "Shit Nika, you sure you wanna do this?" He groaned slightly as his hips bucked a little.
"Im sure," I whisper into his ear, before moving hand hand a little fast.
"Fuck, keep going," He moaned. I slowed my hand a little before scooting away from him. "Why'd you stop?" He asked.
"You'll see," I winked. "Lift your hips a bit," I commanded before I leaned forward, slowly slipping him into my mouth. Aubrey let out a long deep groan as he slid to the back of my throat before I brought him back to my lips. I could feel his fingers push through my hair and pulling it gently as I'm head bobbed up and down. The water sloshed about, almost coming out the bath.
"Yes, fuck I love you," Aubrey hissed as his hips bucked. He was close I could tell. What I couldn't fit into my mouth, I wrapped my hand around. Soon enough, I felt a warm slightly salty liquid enter my mouth. "Nic, you don't have to," Aubrey tried to stop me but I swallowed it before he could stop me. He opened his arms out and I laid on top of him, my head resting on his chest. "You are truly amazing," He breathed. "We should get out," Aubrey said as he sat up a little.
"Ok," I sat up before climbing out the bath and wrapping a towel around my body. Aubrey followed my actions, wrapping a towel around his waist before we entered my bedroom. "Could you pass me that lotion," I asked referring to the dark bottle of lotion on my counter.
"Here, let me," He offered as he grabbed the bottle and motioned me to lay back on my bed. I laid on my front, removing my towel before feeling Aubrey's had moving up and down my legs. The feeling was amazing, I closed my eyes and just took it all in, letting him relax my body. He soon finished my back and I rolled on to my front. I knew I shocked him from the way he was breathing even with my eyes shut. His hands moved gently across my skin, avoiding my chest and between my thighs.
"It's ok to touch," I whispered almost asleep. I felt him hesitate before moving down from my shoulders to gently massage the lotion into my chest. I couldn't help but let out small moans. I didn't have to open my eyes to know he was getting turned on. Once he'd finished, I was to relaxed to move or even open my eyes. I'm guessing Aubrey realised that I didn't want to be disturbed as he slid my on some underwear and a shirt before placing the cover over me. "Stay," I muttered as I know he was about to leave.
"I'll be back in a minute," He spoke softly before leaving my room, returning a minute later and sliding into bed with me. Aubrey pulled my body closer to his and I cuddled up to his warmth, quickly falling asleep.