Grow To Love You

Chapter 40: I Thought

It was now Monday. I go back to college on Wednesday. This is the last night I can go out and drink unless I wanna anger everyone and definitely fail. Some guy is having a party tonight, I'm going with Freja. She's like my best friend right now. She's the only person I am always with. Also, she is the only person that knows about my depression...well kind of. The party started about 8ish but I'm going to Freja's in a bit. Her house is basically my second home. If I'm not at home or out, I'll be at Freja's. I felt my phone buzz beside me in my bed. It was Freja.
"Hey babe," I smiled.
"Hey," She greeted.
"What's up?" I asked.
"Was wondering when you was coming cos I'm bored!" She moaned.
"Haha ok well I'll come now. I'll be there in a bit," I laughed as I stood up from my bed.
"Good, love you, bye," She ended.
"Love you too," I smiled before hanging up. I grabbed my bag with my stuff in before setting off down stairs. Before I left I went down to Aubrey's room to tell him I was leaving.
"Aubrey," I called.
"Yeah?" He looked up at me from his desk.
"I'm going, I'll see you tomorrow," I smiled.
"Ok, be safe Onika," He warned me.
"I will," I've been starting to feel a bit better gradually. I still have times where I feel awful and sometimes for no reason. Overall I'm doing quite a bit better.
"Bye," I shut the door before leaving the house and making my way to Freja's house. Once I got there, I greeted her parents before heading up to Freja's room.
"Alright?" I spoke as I walked into Freja's room before dumping myself on her bed niece to her.
"Alright," She replied. "You got anything?" She asked knowing I bring at least alcohol and cigs.
"Haha yeah," I opened up my bag and pulled out a small bottle of vodka, a pack of cigs, weed, rolling pack and a few pills.
"Fuck! This shit makes me cum!" She moaned as i laughed at her.
"You're such a weirdo," I giggled before grabbing the weed and papers. "Do us some roach?" I asked Freja. She give me one after she'd finished and I began to roll the weed. "So who's party is this?" I asked.
"This kid, he's 19 and he's my cousins mate. His party's are always mad though," Freja informed me.
"Decent," I tossed the rolls into my tin and put it in my bag. "College is gonna drag so fucking much," I groaned.
"I know, thank fuck we go to same college though...I can't believe we never saw each other though," Freja sat up and let back against the wall.
"I know, I hope we have frees together...what you doing anyway?" I asked.
"Health and Social full time so I'll have 15 hours a week. What you doing?" She asked me. Failing is what I'm doing.
"Law and English," I replied.
"Decent," I moved up beside her and rested my head on her shoulder. We sat in silence for a few minutes. I like this. I like just sitting with her even if we aren't talking. Just sat relaxing doing nothing. "You have depression don't you?" Freja spoke quietly as she stroked me hair.
"Yeah," I whispered. I'm not surprised she guessed.
"I love you, you know that. No matter what," She kissed my forehead.
"I love you too," I replied. I do love her. She's been amazing to me. She's accepted who I am in my most fucked up time in my life. You can't not love someone for that. That's like not being nice to someone who's been nice to you the entire time you've know them. "I wanna do something for you," I whispered before moving from her.
"You do?" She smirked, knowing what I was talking about. I pulled her so she was laying down and began to kiss her, getting moans in response. "You the only person that can please me in a way that makes me what you to stop but keep going cos it's so good," She spoke in between moans as I removed her clothes.

"You ready?" I asked Freja as I placed my bag on her bed after taking what we needed out of it.
"Yup, lets get fucked!" Freja exclaimed whilst giving my arse a hard squeeze.
"You're such a lesbian," I giggled before we made our way out the house.
"Ugh, you'll never guess what," I groaned.
"What?" Freja replied.
"Aubrey caught me smoking and now he won't stop bugging me about it and searching my room and shit," I told her as I pulled out two rolls.
"I love Drake and all but he needs to chill, like, he's so overprotective," Freja admitted.
"I know," I mumbled.
"Like I get with your depression and that he's probably a bit more worried but he still needs to let you have independence and that and to be free. He's acting like he's your father," She's right. Aubrey is way to protective over me. I love how he cares but it's really quite annoying and makes me afraid to tell him my problems cos it'll just worry him and make him even more protective. I can't be dealing with that.
"Yeah, he's not helping too much by being overprotective," I sighed.
"Anyway, enough of this! Let's get ready to get fucked up!" Freja screamed down the street, throwing her head back.
"Haha! This is the last night we can get really fucked so let's go!" I shouted whilst laughing.
"I can't wait," She cheesed. After walking another few minutes we neared the house. I could easily tell which house it was as people was gathered out side, whilst inside the music was blaring and I could her the shouts of people's voice.
"Yes then!" I cheered before we entered. There was people everywhere, stood around with cups of some alcoholic concoction. We made our way over to where the drinks was and mixed some vodka and sourz. My favourite. After we got our drinks, me and Freja exited the kitchen and sat on a couple of the free seats. We just sat watching other people dance and get fucked as we drank to get more in the mood.
"Let's go," Freja stood up and grabbed my hand and began dancing to some remix with me. I nodded my head and swayed my hips as I held my drink in one hand and Freja's hand in the other. I could feel myself slowly drifting into a drunken state. Good. Freja began grinding and dropping on my and I smiled as I held her waist, tossing my now empty cup to the side. She turned to face me and grabbed my hips, pulling me closer as I started to dance on her.
"Ay! Nic!" I heard a guy shout. I turned my head and saw Chris coming toward me. Me and Freja stopped dancing and made our way to Chris.
"Alright Chris," I nodded as we approach him.
"Ight," He replied. "You guys just come together?" He asked as he sipped his drink, leaning against the wall.
"Yeah, who you with?" I asked.
"Rih, Chyna and Abel," He answered.
"Aw I love Abel!" I gushed as I smiled.
"He such a sweetheart," Freja smiled as well. "Where is he?" She asked.
"Dunno, last time I saw him he was out back with some lass," He told us.
"Let's go see him," I grabbed Freja hand.
"Fair, I'm off to party," Chris chuckled before walking passed us. I dragged Freja through the crowded house outside.
"There he is!" I exclaimed as I pointed. We made our way over and tapped his shoulder.
"Alright lad," I giggled as he turned to us.
"Oh hey," He smiled.
"Alight Abel," Freja greeted. "Who's your friend?" She asked referring to the brown hair girl stood beside him.
"This is Kira, just met her," He smiled, looking toward her. She shyly smiled behind her cup. "Kira, this is Nicki and Freja," Abel introduced to us.
"Hey," She spoke quietly. She seems so shy.
"Hey, you wanna come dance with us?" Freja asked.
"Um sure," She agreed, glancing at Abel.
"Go ahead, I'm gonna go find Chris," Abel nodded before walking away.
"So, how old are you Kira?" I asked.
"Just turned 18, you?" She replied, glancing between me and Freja.
"Both 17 but her birthdays the end of this year and mines in beginning of January," Freja smiled. She's so beautiful. Kira just nodded and sipped her drink.
"You go to college?" I asked.
"No, I have an apprenticeship at a daycare," She told us.
"Aw that's nice, we go to college," I replied.
"I'm off to get more drink, you coming?" Freja asked us both.
"Yeah," I nodded.
"I'm just gonna stay here, I'm ok," Kira smiled.
"Ok, it was nice talking," Freja smiled before we walked off. Me and Freja quickly got another alcoholic concoction before going off to dance again.
A few hours had gone by and me and Freja were totally out of it. We'd drank till we was pissed then drank more.
"I love this song!" I screamed before laughing hard as House Every Weekend came on. Me and Freja began to drunkenly dance to the music. We failed terribly, ending up in a pile on the fall not being able to stop laughing.
"You! You fuck...fucking crazy!" Freja laughed as we stood up but not without the help of the wall and almost falling over. We managed to get back up and I placed my arms on Freja's shoulders as we danced. As we danced I couldn't help but watch Freja's face and body. She is so beautiful and sexy. I gently grabbed the back of her neck and pulled her lips to mine. She kissed me back, grabbing my hips closer to hers so they was touching. I couldn't stop. We couldn't stop. It felt too good. But as soon as I couldn't breath, I had to pull away. I rested my forehead against hers. Completely drowning out what was going on around us.
"I love you," I managed to say, gazing into her eyes.
"I love you too," She pushed her lips against mine and kissed me passionately. Once she pulled away, she took my hand and dragged me out the house and back to hers. "I want you to be mine," She whispered as she laid me on the bed and crawled on top of me.
"I've always been yours," I pulled her head down to mine, where our lips met. That night we pleasured each other till the early hours of the morning.
"You're so beautiful," Freja spoke as I gazed into her eyes. I had just woke up and it was almost 12.
"I know," I giggled. "You are though, you're gorgeous," I licked my lips and looked down her body.
"Hey! I'm still tired out from last night," She smiled.
"Too bad," I winked.
"You're a freak," Freja rolled her eyes but laughed.
"I know," I grinned. "I better go home soon," I poured.
"Let's go now and I can chill with you till I have to come home," Freja suggested as she pulled off her shirt. I admired her naked body as she took out a clean towel. She turned around to me. "Perv," She spoke as she realised I was staring.
"Nah, you just got a great body," I winked.
"Shut up!" She blushed. "Anyway, I'm gonna shower and then we can go to yours," Freja said as she wrapped the towel around herself.
"Cool," Freja then opened the door to her bathroom and shut it behind her. I waited till I could hear the shower start then quickly snuck to the bathroom door. I pushed it open quietly and slipped in, already having my clothes off. Her body slightly blurred through the shower door. As soon as I opened the door and slipped in she turned, obviously feeling a cold draft.
"Don't you dare," She warned. I just bit my lip before pushing her up against the wall and kissing her. She moaned into my mouth as my fingers slipped in between her legs. "I hate you!" She moaned. I smirked before moving down and putting her thighs over my shoulders. "Fuck!" She almost screamed. I lightly nipped her thigh with my teeth. Trying to tell her to keep quiet. "It's fucki- ohhhh!" Her moans interrupted her. I could feel her begin to shake as my tongue worked on her. She moaned loudly as she came on my tongue. I drank all her sweet juices before kissing her lips again, letting her taste herself.
"I love you," I whispered as the water trickled down my face.
"I love you too," I smirked before leaving her to finish her shower in peace.

Sorry it's been a wait. It's difficult to find time to write. I'm trying my hardest to get them up as quick as I can.