Grow To Love You

Chapter 27: Help

The past few days Nicki has been really quiet and distant from every one. She barely comes out her room, barely eats anything apart from snacks and avoids any sort of interaction with another person as much as she can. I am really worried about her. She's not her self at all. Worst thing is, I don't know what's caused her to be like this because she seemed alright after everything that happened and now suddenly she's being like this. I really wish I could understand or at least know how to comfort her or make her feel better.
I sighed as I straightened out all the furniture in the room. I had my king sized bed in the middle against the wall between the walls with doors on. A TV on a bracket in the corner of the wall opposite my bed. On the same side, to the right of my bed I had a couch and a few bean bags. Across the other walls I had a desk with my computer set up and cupboards and draws for all my clothes. My room was set out very nicely I think. I laid back on my bed and turned my TV on.
Nicki's POV
I pressed the call button and held the phone to my ear.
"Hello?" He spoke into the phone after he picked up.
"Hey...it's me...Nicki," I whispered even though I was alone in my room.
"Oh what up baby?" His voice grew louder with realisation.
"Um, I was wondering if um...you know a couple nights ago...you-" I began to say.
"Just come on over," He cut me off. I could tell he was smiling. He always had love for me and wouldn't miss a chance to see me.
"I can't stay long, maybe an hour or something?" I bit my lip.
"As long as I get to see your beautiful face," He's such a flirt.
"I'll be there in 10," I put the phone down and quickly changed out off my sleep wear and into a plain black skater dress and a simple jacket over the top. I grabbed my purse and my keys before sneaking off out. It was pretty late so everyone was in bed and hopefully would see me sneaking out. It's not that I'm not allowed out, I just don't want any questions. My car was parked a little down the street so I could get away with no one realising. I slid in and made my way over to his house. Once I got there, I locked my car and made my way up to his house.
"Hey, gorgeous, you are looking sexy as hell in the dress Nic," He scanned my body and licked his lips. I wasn't in the mood for anything at all apart from what I came for. So I flashed a simple smile and thanked him.
"Come on in, my boys missed you," He lead me in to the house and told me to sit down with the boys.
"Damn, you are something," Vincent spoke as he licked his lips. There were only 4 guys in here, I felt ok with them.
"It is so nice to see you again, want a drink or something?" Fraser asked me as he got up.
"Yeah, what I normally have," He nodded and set out to the kitchen. Everyone was sat down in the lounge talking and just chilling out. "Fraser, babe," I smiled. "Would you be a darling a top me up. More vodka this time tho," I winked.
"Damn, you gonna out drink us, this'll be your 5th one," He still got up and filled my glass up right to the top again. I was out of my mind. I shouldn't be doing this. It not a regular thing though. I'd like it to be. I can't! I'll ruin everything! But everything is already fucked up, this just gives me a break. Makes me forget about all the shit and fucked up emotions I have.
"Nic, baby, come up stairs a minute," He held his hand out. This is what I came for. I grabbed his hand and he lead me up to his room. "I know this is why you came," He smirked. "Just using me for your pleasure," He shook his head but smiled. "Don't worry, I got you," he winked at me as he took off his shirt.
"You won't tell anybody will you? Not even your boys? Definitely not Drake though. I don't know how he would react if he found out about this," I asked him.
"This, stays between you and me baby, now go relax on my bed," He winked. I went over to his bed and got comfy. I took my jacket off and laid back against his pillows.
Drake's POV
The next morning I woke up to my TV still on. After I turned it off I went into the now clean fixed bathroom and got ready for the day. I was thinking I would spend today with Onika. It's her day today. I jogged up the stairs and made my way over to her room.
"Nika," I knocked on her door before peaking my head in. She was sprawled out in the middle of her bed, fast asleep. Making my way over to her, I lightly shook her sleeping body awake. "Morning sleeping beauty," I smiled. Her eyes fluttered before squinting at me. She smiled weakly at my before turning on to her side away from me. "Nika," I gently pulled her shoulder toward me so she was laid on her back. She squinted at me. "How you feeling today?" I asked, stroking her cheek. She just shrugged. "Well I was thinking maybe we could spend all day today together, doing what ever you want," I smiled. She looked down and shrugged again. "Ok, well I'm gonna go make us some breakfast and you decided what you want to do, it's completely up to you," I kissed her forehead and left her room.
Nicki had come down dressed in a shirt a skinny joggers and ate breakfast with me. She barely ate much. I had given her 2 pancakes, bacon and a slice of toast. She only ate half a pancake and a little of her bacon, completely avoiding the toast. She took a sip of juice before taking her dish into the kitchen. I sighed as I cut off a slice of pancake. She came back and say in front of me, nervously fiddling with her fingers. I placed my hand on hers.
"You wanna watch a movie and cuddle in my room?" I asked her. She looked up into my eyes and nodded. "Alright, we'll do you wanna go down and set it up while I clean this up?" I asked. She got up and walked out. I stood with my plate and went to wash the dishes. Once I was done, I dried my hands and left to my room. Nicki was sat in my bed against the headboard, her knees up to her chest and her chin resting on her kneecaps. "You cool?" I asked. She nodded. I changed in to some shorts and took off my shirt before climbing onto my bed and pulling Onika into my arms. Her back was pressed against my chest as my arms wrapped around her middle. She pressed play on the remote and the movie began.
Once the movie had finished, Nicki got up and went into the bathroom. She was in there for quite a while, I began to grow worried. "Nicki?" I knocked on the door. I heard movement before she stepped out. She didn't even look at me, she went straight to my bed and pulled out her phone. I toke it out her hand and tilted her chin so she'd look me in the eyes. "What's going on Onika? I'm worried," Her eyes looked anywhere but mine. "Please just tell me, all I want to do is help and make you feel yourself again," I begged her. She just shrugged. Her and that shrugging is getting on my nerves so much. I stood up sighing as I rubbed my head. "Nika, I don't know what to do. There's something up I know. You just gotta let me help you," I spoke.
"There's nothing," She mumbled.
"Yes there is!" I shouted. She jumped. I didn't mean to shout, I'm just getting so frustrated with the situation. She won't let me help and I don't even know what's going on, she won't tell me anything. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to shout. It's just...I'm getting so frustrated, you won't tell me anything, you won't even speak to me or anyone else! All I wanna do is help Onika, can't you see that?! I know there is something up and you are scaring the shit out of me, I am so worried! You don't speak, you don't smile, you're avoiding everyone, you lock yourself away, you've been breaking down many times a day! Just please let me help you! I am scared shitless about you, I don't know what to do, what to say...I just hate seeing you like this and it feels like you're pushing me away," Tears were streaming down both our faces. "It's starting to feel as if you don't want to go back to how you were. Please just let me help you, Onika," I begged her. I lowered my self into my knees and grabbed her hands. "I love you Onika, please just let me help you get better," I pleaded her. She pulled her hand out of mine and slid off my bed before running out. "FUCK!" I shouted. Why won't she just let me help her? Why does she not want my help? Why is she just running away? Does she wanna stay this way? Upset and alone? I've heard her crying in her room multiple times a day. I never went in. I knew she was in a bad place and maybe just needed to be alone and let everything out. I stood up and wiped my face. Grabbing my phone, I called up one of my mates.
"Yo Drizzy!" Ryan answered.
"Hey man, we gotta go," I sighed.
"Alright, I'll be there in 5," He hung up. I packed my bag and changed before heading outside to wait for Ryan.
Nicki's POV
I slipped 4 into my mouth, one after the other, taking a sip out of my bottle afterwards. He doesn't get it. No one will get it. I can't be helped. I fell down a deep hole with no way out, not even with all the help I could get. I am fucked. I am constantly crying. Always feeling so numb and foreign to myself. I don't even know who I am. I felt them take effect as I laid back in my bed. I just need an escape. I closed my eyes and let my mind rest from all the bullshit going on in my head.
Micaiah's POV
I haven't seen Nicki for ages! I miss her lots. I'm not allowed in her room right now because she's not very well. Not everything's bad. Drake moved down into the basement so now Jade sleeps in Drakes old room and me and daddy have room all to our selves! Daddy said we're leaving soon though. I don't know where but I don't wanna leave Nicki. I'll miss her so much if we leave far away.
"Caiah!" Jade shouted my name.
"Jade!" I ran up to her and she picked me up. "Is Nicki still not very well?" I asked her.
"Yeah, she might not be very well for a few days but she'll be better sooner than you know it," She kissed my forehead.
"Oh ok, can we go play with Drake?" I asked her.
"Sure, if he's not busy," She set me down and we went down to the basement.
Jade's POV
We knocked on the door before peaking in.
"Drake! We've come to play!" Micaiah whisper shouted. We walked in but could see him. "You in the bathroom?" Micaiah asked. There was no answer.
"He might be upstairs, let's go look," Micaiah went running up the stairs and dashed in and out of every room calling Drake's name. This little boy has so much energy and such a loud mouth for a small body.
"I can't find him," He pouted.
"Aw, let me ring him," I pulled out my phone and rang his number. It went straight to voice mail. That's strange, Aubrey always answers his phone or it at least rings first. "I'll be back in one minute," I climbed the stairs and went to Nicki's room. She let me in and laid back on her bed. She looked awful. I knew she wasn't sick anymore but I can tell she is having an awful time right now and not dealing with it too well at the moment. I just hope she doesn't start trying to find escapes from the pain. "You don't know where Drake is do you," She shook her head.
"No," She mumbled as she scrolled through her phone.
"You ok? I don't mean to be harsh but Nicki...you look awful," I asked concerned.
"I'm fine," She mumbled again.
"I don't believe you," I said quietly. She reached out for a bottle and took a few sips. She set it down and shook her head a little. "What's going on Nicki? We're worried about you," I placed my hand on her thigh.
"I'm fine, can I be alone please?" She whispered. I sighed and left. Shit, I hope she gets better soon, she is in an awful place.
"Did you find him?!" Micaiah came running up to me.
"No sorry baby," I apologised.
"Nobody will play with me apart from you," He pouted and crossed his arms.
"Oh and is that a bad thing?" I asked.
"No but yes. No because you are really fun and I like playing with you. Yes because I miss Drake and Nicki. They probably too old and don't love me enough to play," He sighed.
"Oh no, Drake and Nicki love you so so so much! Don't ever think they don't or don't love you enough because they love you with all their hearts. Nicki is just not very well at the moment and it wouldn't be good you catching on the sickness would it?" He shook his head. "And Drake, he's was busy fixing up the basement and now he's taking care of Nicki. You'll be able to play with them soon, if they could they would be playing with you right now," I smiled at him, hoping to make him feel better.
"Ok, I understand," he smiled up at me. "Are we gonna play now or what?" He grabbed my hand and dragged me to his toys.

I know I only just updated but now I have so much time on my hands and have so many ideas for this book. I should be updating much more now, I've finished school and won't be starting college till September so be expecting a lot more updates guys :)