Something Worth Living For

Chapter 1. Fresh Start

It was a long ass 18 hour drive from illinois to florida, and to think I made it all by myself. My mothers funeral was beautiful, and I even kept my cool around my aweful family which was shocking. Along the ride all I could do was think about those last few moments with my mom, and how her words still lingered in my head. I wonder what she meant when she said most of that s***t, but its too late to ask her now.

Flashback>>>>>

I was sittin in the room with her holding her hand caressing it softly to comfort her, and let her know she's not alone. Her nurse would come into the room periodically to check up on her, and to see if I needed anything. My mom was sleeping so peacefully until she just abrutely woke up crying hysterically. I jumped up to console her, but its like she had quickly reversed it on me.

Mrs.Bailey: Oh my baby your ok!(she said hugging me tight)
Yatta: Ma what u talkin about? The last time I checked u were the one in the hospital not me.
Mrs.Bailey: I know but I had this dream, and...it just seemed so real. Yatta please promise me that u wont ever give up on life. No matter how hard things get or how many times u feel like giving up.
Yatta: I wont ma.
Mrs.Bailey: Promise me!

I looked at her still tear filled eyes before I could answer. I wonder what the hell her dream was about, and why its makin her act like this.

Yatta: I promise ma.
Mrs.Bailey: Good, I know u never break your promises.(she smiled in relief)
Yatta: Ma what did u dream about?
Mrs.Bailey: Just please remember that u will never be alone in this world. U have a very bright future ahead of u, and I wanna be able to watch u shine. Your so special to not only me, but the world and I feel like u dont know just how much.
Yatta: U always tell me that, but aside from being dark skinned with blue eyes I dont see anything so special.
Mrs.Bailey: Its because its true baby, and one day you'll know what I mean. Your very unique kenyatta in more ways than one, and thats the reason I love u so much. It just pains me that I wont be around for that long to see u blossom.
Yatta: Ma dont talk like that aint nothin gone happen to u.
Mrs.Bailey: Baby listen to me ple-
Yatta: Ma I dont want u to start talkin like that nothing is goin to hap-
Mrs.Bailey: LISTEN TO ME!(she yelled startin to cry again) I been fightin this for five years baby, and im still not gettin better. I've finally come to terms with the fact that I might not pull through, but I wanna make sure that your gonna be ok. I know u try to act all tough and hide your emotions for whatever reason, but im your mother. U cant hide some things from me even when u tryn too. Just like u tried to hide the fact that u were datin that one guy.

My eyes got wide when she said that, and she just smiled.

Mrs.Bailey: Yea baby I knew.(she laughed) Its no suprise to me because you've always been different, and I love that about u because your never afriad to be your self. I know losing your father was hard on u, but I want u to know that he loved us with all his heart. He was a good man yatta, and when I look at u I see a lot of him inside of u.
Yatta: Im nothin like him.(i said wit an attitude)
Mrs.Bailey: I worry about u like I use to for him when he was alive. Thats the reason im so protective of u because he would shrug me off sayin he was ok all the time. Then the next thing I know I was attending his funeral because he commited suicide. I just dont want u to be like that yatta. U need to open up more, and stop holdin all of that stuff in because it can cloud your judgement and make u sick baby.
Yatta: I know ma, and i promise i'll try just please get better.

She just smiled at me and rubbed the side of my face.

Mrs.Bailey: My baby...Your so special.

Those were the last words she said to me before she went to sleep that night, and didnt wake back up.

End Flashback>>>>>

I had finally pulled up to my dorms as I came back to reallity. After finding the right one I parked to get out, and look around. Damn it is some SEXY ass niggas down here is what I thought to myself. After taking all of my stuff up to my room it was clear that I was the last one to make it. I went to the other room to see if my room mate was here, but he was no where in sight. I started unpacking my stuff, and settin up my room how I thought it looked best. I was bent over lookin in a box when all of a sudden I heard someone whisper "Damn" from behind me. I jumped up from being startled and looked to see who it was only for him to say it again while lookin in my face. Even though he was voicing it I was thinking the same in my head. Dude was definately the cutest person ive seen since I been here. He was a red bone to the fullest at least 6'2" wit pretty brown eyes, and black hair he had in a fade. From the way he was dressed it gave off this sexy thug appeal that made me wonder for a second if he was a student or a thief. He finally broke his lustful stare when he spoke to state his name.

Kwantae: Wussup bruh, im yo room mate Kwantae.(he said lickin his lips)
Yatta: Kenyatta.
Kwantae: Aint that a girl name?(he chuckled)
Yatta: Maybe it is and maybe its not, but thats my name.(i said irritated)
Kwantae: My bad I aint mean to offend u yo. Aye r those yo real eyes?(he asked movin closer to me lookin in my eyes)
Yatta: Yup.(i said movin away from him to finish packin)
Kwantae: This the first time I ever seen a dark skin person wit blue eyes.(he said still watchin me)
Yatta: Yea I get that a lot.
Lora: TAE U READY?(i voice yelled from the living room)
Kwantae: YEA IM IN HERE!(he yelled back)

Then a very pretty girl came into my room, and she looked almost identical to Kwantae. She started to speak until she saw that he wasnt alone.

Lora: What u doin in her-..Oh..Hey how u doin im lora.(she smiled and held out her hand)
Yatta: Kenyatta.(i said shakin her hand, but not returnin the smile)
Lora: U have some beautiful eyes oh my god are those real?
Yatta: Thanks and yea they are.(i said non-chalant)
Lora: Well we were about to go and check the campus out if u wanted to tag along.
Yatta: Nah im koo. Ima stay here and finish unpackin my stuff. Thanks for askin though.
Lora: Oh ok then I understand. Tae u ready...TAE!(she said pushing him)
Kwantae: Huh..Uh yea lets go.(he said breakin his gaze from me)

They finally both left out of my room, but kwantae made it his business to sneak a second look flashin me his pretty smile before closin my door. I shook my head after that thinkin that this was definately gonna be a hell of a year rooming wit him. I had finally finished unpacking later that night, and eventually laid down to fall asleep. Maybe it could actually turn out to be fun living here. Whatever happens im sure it'll be better than being back home.