Something Worth Living For

Chapter 19. Old Habits

The next few weeks had come and gone like the wind. Me and Tae were still doin good minus a little distance that started to grow between us. I place the blame for that on my self though because lately im always wit Quan looking for everything that I need for his birthday. Tae is always sayin how he wants to spend more time with me, but I really want him to feel special tomorrow. I just hope he can hold out a little longer before he just goes off completely. Right now im at the mall wit Quan buyin Tae a couple things, but what im really tryna find is a fuckin fitted hat that he'll like.

Quan: Lil bit we been in here all damn day and u still cant make up yo mind.
Yatta: I know, I know I thought once I found his outfits it would be easier to pick a hat. U suppose to be helpin me though instead u just been walkin around bitchin.
Quan: Thats cuz I dont see why u goin through all this shit just for a birthday. U act like this nigga a king or somethin.
Yatta: Thats cuz he is a king, MY king. He been good to me, and I just want him to know I appreciate him. So shut yo ass up and help me pick out a hat.
Quan: What teams do he like?
Yatta: I think his favortie team is the bulls.
Quan: Its figures his wack ass would like the bulls.(he laughed) Yatta: Dont talk about my baby nigga! Oh what about this one?

I picked up an all white snap back wit a red tounge, and had a bull on the front. Now im not into hats, but this one in particular was cold as hell. I held it up to juice and he took it, and put it on then start checkin his self out in the mirror

Yatta: So do u think he'll like it?
Quan: Yea this shit raw lil bit.(he said still lookin in the mirror) Yatta: Ok well take it off nigga before u mess it up.(I said snatchin it off his head)
Quan: Aye u should buy me one of those.
Yatta: I thought the bulls were wack.(I said laughin)
Quan: They are wack, but that hat is tight as fuck.
Yatta: Then buy one.
Quan: Oh so u cant buy it for me?
Yatta: Hell naw this damn thing is $60.
Quan: So he worth it, but im not?
Yatta: What the fuck is wrong wit u Quan u been in yo feelings all damn day? Tae is my boyfriend, and this is for his birthday. Quan: U bought this nigga hella levi's, some shirts, a pair of j's, a watch, some ear rings, and a fuckin rosary. I cant get a hat!?
Yatta: Is it yo birthday nigga!?
Quan: Iight bet I aint gettin u shit for yo birthday.
Yatta: Oh my god just get the damn hat and stop whining!!(i said irritated throwin my hand up)

I dont know what the hell been wrong wit him lately, but its like he jealous of Tae or somethin. Usually I would blush at the fact, but honestly I dont even look at Quan like that no more. Tae has been the only dude on my mind for a while now, and I think Im even startin to love him. I know my actions show it and he says it to me all the time, but I've never verbally expressed it to him. I dont even know how I've been avoiding to say it back for so long, but whenever he says it to me I just kiss him...is that wrong? Once I paid for the hats we started to make our way to his truck until I saw a familiar face. Quan had stopped to talk to some girl as usual so I didnt see the harm in having a conversation of my own.

Aakil: Wussup wit u long time no see
Yatta: I know right. Actually the last time I saw u was at the mall.(i laughed)
Aakil: Yea and u was wit yo boyfriend, but I see u by yo self this time.(he said lickin his lip)
Yatta: He wasnt my boyfriend then, but he is now.
Aakil: Oh ok thats wussup though. Are u happy?
Yatta: Happier than I've been in a long time
Aakil: So that mean I aint got a chance then huh?
Yatta: Nah not really, sorry.(i said laughin)
Aakil: Thats cool I can respect that. I like a challenge anyway.(he smiled)
Yatta: U cant challenge somebody over something their not at risk of losing
Aakil: U really down for dude then huh. Can I be yo sideline.(he smiled)
Yatta: Thanks but no thanks.(i chuckled)
Aakil: Iight then at least let me be a friend, and get yo number.
Yatta: Will that make u stop houndin me?
Aakil: Maybe.(he smiled)

Right after he had programed a fake number I gave him into his phone Quan walked up.

Quan: My fault lil bit u ready to-

He froze in his tracks when he saw Aakil, and they both shared this awkward stare for a minute. Aakil was lookin at him as if he was tryna figure out in his head where he knew him from, but I was puzzled as to how they knew eachother at all.

Aakil: Wussup bruh.
Quan: Whats good. Come on lil bit.(he said pushin me to the truck)
Yatta: Quan what's wrong?
Quan: Nothin.
Aakil: Aye bro correct me if im wrong, but u look familiar do I know u?
Quan: Nah I aint never seen u before.
Aakil: Aw ok I was just askin cuz u looked like one of the suppliers at my party. My bad though.
Quan: Nah bruh not me, and u good.

He pushed me all the way to the truck, and shoved me inside as if he were tryna kidnap me then pulled off.

Yatta: Juice what was that about, and what he mean by supplier?
Quan: Nothin.
Yatta: How do u know him?
Quan: Dont worry about all that.
Yatta: Nah nigga dont do that who is he to u?
Quan: Nobody now stop questionin me!
Yatta: U sellin weed again?

He looked at me shocked that I had actually guessed the answer. The fact the he didnt say nothin let me know I was right.

Yatta: Are u fuckin serious!
Quan: Calm down it was just a one time thing.
Yatta: Thats bullshit and u know it is. Why would u start doin that shit again didnt u learn from the last time.
Quan: I dont need a fuckin lecture from yo ass Yatta so calm down I told u it was a one time thing just chill out.
Yatta: U know if they catch u doin that shit they gone kick u off the team, and out of school.
Quan: It was just a way for me to get my mind off of the Jeniece bullshit so stop sweatin me lil bit damn.
Yatta: Aint playin ball a way to get yo mind off of shit too!? Aint that why yo ass started playin in the first place!?
Quan:....
Yatta: Exactly. I should smack yo dumb ass whats wrong wit u?

All he could do was sigh as I kept goin off on him. Eventually I sat there tryin not to hit him in his face for being so stupid, and just be cool about it. I decided to call Tae to calm my nerves because this shit was to mind blowin.

Tae: Hello.
Yatta: Hey bae.
Tae: Wussup shawty. Where u at?
Yatta: Im wit Quan right now we just left the mall.
Tae: That aint nothin new.(he said smackin his lips)
Yatta: Tae dont act like that u know I miss u.
Tae: U couldve fooled me cuz u dont never be actin like it since u always wit that nigga.
Yatta: Bae im gone make it up to u promise dont be mad at me ok.
Tae: Whatever shawty.(he said low)
Yatta: Please.
Tae: Im not mad bae.
Yatta: Good I cant have u being mad at me birthday boy. U know u gettin old bae.(i laughed)
Tae: U got jokes and shit huh?(he laughed)
Yatta: But im gone call u later ok
Tae: Iight shawty what time u comin back to the dorm?
Yatta: Prolly later on today.
Tae: Ok bae.

As soon as we got to Quan dorm I was puttin all my stuff in my car, and was about to leave until he stopped me.

Quan: Where u goin?
Yatta: Home.
Quan: Lil bit why u trippin man I told u I aint gone do the shit no more.
Yatta: Because u fuckin lyin.
Quan: On my life im not now stop trippin. U suppose to help me write my paper anyway u cant just leave.
Yatta: Watch me.(i said walkin to my car)
Quan: Come lil bit please.(he said grabbin me)
Yatta: Iight man but I swear let me find out u still doin that dumb shit.
Quan: Yo lil ass know u be tryna punk me and shit right.(he laughed)
Yatta: I dont be tryin fool I do.
Quan: I betta get a "A" on this paper or ima punk yo ass.
Yatta: I aint gotta help u nigga I can still leave.(i laughed)

We went up stairs so I could help him wit his thesis statement, cover page, and references. Then I proof read what he already had making corrections where ever they were needed. This fool even had me doin research on his topic to add a little more. He had fallen to sleep in the process us finishing up because it had gotten late as hell. I dont know where the time went, but I found my self not to far behind him though cuz I was knocked out. I woke up a couple hours later or so I thought wit arms wrapped around me. I started to go back to sleep until I realized it was light outside again, and the arm didnt belong to Tae. I jumped up out the bed wakin Quan to look at the time, and it was almost 3 o'clock in the evening.

Yatta: Oh shit!(i yelled)
Quan: Whats wrong?
Yatta: I gotta go Tae gone fuckin kill me.(i said rushin to leave out the door)

I started to say somethin about him holdin me, but I didnt have time for that conversation. I called Tae to apologize, but I got the voicemail.

Yatta: Bae im SO sorry I fell to sleep helpin Quan lastnight. Please dont be mad im on my way to the dorm, and Happy Birthday.

Damn I know he pissed wit me because he always answer my calls and this my 6th time tryin. I hope he not home though so I can set everything up, but if he is im definately gettin cursed out.