Something Worth Living For

Chapter 36. Misleading

I stood there lookin at him waitin on him to start speaking, but he looked conflicted like he really didnt know what he wanted to say his damn self. My patients for dumb shit is very short as u all know by now so I started to unlocked my car door.

Yatta: It was nice talkin to u.(I said sarcastically gettin in the car)
Nick: Wait.(he said grabbin my arm)

I looked at his hands on my arm, and then back up at him. He got my hint because he let go of me before he apologized.

Nick: My bad, but I just wanted to say thank u.
Yatta: For what?(I asked confused)
Nick: For not puttin me on blast in front of Darry.
Yatta: Darry?.....Oh u mean L?
Nick: Yea dont tell him I said that in front of u.(he laughed)
Yatta: I wont, but if thats all I really gotta get goin. All my teachers are assholes, and I got a lot of work to do.
Nick: Why didnt u do it?(he asked lookin in my eyes)
Yatta: Do what?
Nick: Tell L that I was tryna talk to Tae. I mean I never thought u would be nice to me after the shit I pulled.
Yatta: I wasnt being nice to u I was being nice to L. Besides me tellin him that prolly wouldve hurt his feelings because it seems like he's really into u.
Nick: He do?(he smiled as his face lit up) 
Yatta: Yea.
Nick: Why do u care though? After all the times I tried to get wit Tae knowin he was wit u. Why wouldnt u take the oppurtunity to get me back?
Yatta: Because I care about L's feelings, and me makin yo life miserable wouldnt benefit me in any kind of way. For me to tell him would be messy on my part, and im not a female so all the catty shit aint me. I still got Tae, and trust me when I tell u he aint stuntin yo ass. Dont mistake u not being an important factor for me being nice to u. I dont hate u, but we damn show aint cool. That and youve never personally done anything to me that I know of so as long as u stay in yo lane I'll stay in mine.  

He looked at me for a while stunned by how blunt I was, and then he managed to speak.

Nick: Thats cool.
Yatta: Yup. Anything else?
Nick: Oh nah. Well just one more thing. I...Im sorry...For everything.
Yatta: U good, but I gotta go I'll see u around.(I said gettin in the car)

As I pulled out of the parkin lot I saw him still standin there stuck on stupid from our conversation. Growin up I learned ways to deal wit different people, and some u gotta kill wit kindness. Thats one of the perks of being so quiet, and just observing your surroundings more. U learn a lot about people that u probably wouldnt notice if u were always the center of attention. Nick was the kind of person that responds to confrontations better than people who act like adults which is why he was so stuck. On my way home I stopped by walmart to get some more fruit that I could snack on. I really hate the way they just sit all this shit out here for people to poke and touch every fuckin thing. As I was pickin through it all gettin more disgusted, and nauseated by the second I had accidently bumped into somebody.

Yatta: Oh im sorry.
Lloyd: U good shawty.(he smiled)
Yatta: Wussup Lloyd.
Lloyd: What it look like.(he laughed) What u doin in here?
Yatta: I was lookin for some fruit, but im startin to change my mind.(I said frownin my face up lookin back down at the fruit)
Lloyd: Yea that shit nasty dont eat none of that, but dont tell them I told u.
Yatta: I wont.(I laughed)
Lloyd: So where ole dude at that u was here wit last time?
Yatta: My boyfriend is at practice.
Lloyd: Aw ok, and u aint have to throw in the boyfriend part.(he laughed)
Yatta: Just makin it known.
Lloyd: Well for yo information I got one of my own.
Yatta: Is that why u was smilin all in my face last time I was here?
Lloyd: I wasnt smilin in yo face I was just doin my job.(he said smilin)
Yatta: Yea right, but anyway how long yall been goin out.
Lloyd: For almost two years.(he said dryly)
Yatta: Its good to see your so happy about it.(I laughed)
Lloyd: I mean dont get me wrong I love him, but lately shit just been different. Like we been driftin apart more and more each day. Maybe its time for us to take a break or somethin.
Yatta: So yall been together for a while, and u hittin a rough patch so what. Do u really wanna just give up, and throw in the towel?
Lloyd: Of course I dont, but shit im tired of his fuckin attitude an- Just forget about it I know u dont wanna hear about my problems.
Yatta: I might be able to give u some advice.(I laughed) 
Lloyd: How long u and yo dude been together?
Yatta: Goin on five months, but that dont mean nothin.
Lloyd: Yall prolly aint even had a real fight yet.(he laughed)
Yatta: We've had our share of problems along the way, but we always work em out especially since....uhh never mind.
Lloyd: Thats cool and all shawty, but sometimes talkin just lead to more arguin.
Yatta: Ok well argue, and then talk.   All im sayin is if yall spent more time talkin instead of resentin eachother maybe things could go back to normal. If he loves u like u love him im sure he feelin, and thinkin the same way u are. It gotta be something yall doin right I mean people dont just stick around two years for nothin.
Lloyd: Ok so what if u are right then what?
Yatta: I dont know he yo damn boyfriend not mine.(I laughed) Do all the stuff u use to do when yall first started datin. Make him remember why yall been together this long instead of tryna find somebody else.
Lloyd: Why I gotta be the one to kiss his ass?(he said wit an attitude)
Yatta: U dont have to do nothin. Thats the difference between being in love wit somebody, and just being in a relationship. U dont do stuff because u feel like u have to, but because u want to.
Lloyd: What if I dont want to then what?
Yatta: Then I guess u were right, and yall do need a break. 
Lloyd: Damn thats it doctor Phil?(he laughed)
Yatta: Nigga please u aint payin me.(I laughed)
Lloyd: U not gone keep tryna convince me though? What happened to all the pep talk.
Yatta: Im not gone give u a reason to wanna make shit right wit yo dude. The fact that u "love" him should be enough of a reason. I gave u all the advice I could now what u do wit it is on u.(I said walkin off)
Lloyd: U got a smart ass mouth, but thanks.(he laughed)
Yatta: Aye hold up I got a question.
Lloyd: Wussup shawty?
Yatta: Are yall hiring?

I might as well start puttin in applications since Tae want us to get an apartment. After I hit up a few more places, and put in a couple more apps I finally made it back to the dorm. Tae's truck was already here lettin me know that he was back from practice. When I opened the door he was walkin around slammin almost every door he could.

Yatta: What the hell wrong wit u?(I asked lookin at him like he was crazy)
Tae: Nothin.(he said as he kept lookin through the refrigerator)

I went in my room to put all my stuff down then came back out. He was sittin on the couch eatin some cereal, and watchin tv when I came back out. I walked in front of him turnin the tv off first then looked back at him.

Yatta: Im gone ask u one more time. What...is...wrong?

He looked at me bitin his jaw as he took a deep breath, and looked away from me. When he turned his head I saw a red marks on his neck, but when I tried to look closer he rushed to cover it up.

Yatta: What happened to yo neck?
Tae: Nothin shawty.(he said gettin up tryna walk pass me)

The closer he got to me I stopped him and turned his head so I could examine his neck. He had all kind of scratches, and bruises. At first I was relieved because I first thought they were hickies, but now I was concerned about where the hell this shit came from.

Yatta: Bae what the fuck happened to u?(I asked wit a mixture of anger and concern)
Tae: I just got in a fight shawty im good though.
Yatta: A fight wit who?(I asked lookin in his eyes)
Tae: It dont matter bae I-
Yatta: I swear to god if u keep avoidin my questions.(I said through clenched teeth)

He took another deep breath and ran his hand over his face while I waited on his response.

Tae: It was Quan.
Yatta: WHAT!?(I yelled in anger)
Tae: Just let it go bae I dont want u in the middle of this shit.
Yatta: What u mean im already in the middle of it. Why was yall fuckin fightin anyway?
Tae: He was just talkin to me about random shit, and congradulatin me about the baby. Then he came outta no where talkin about u lyin and shit talkin about yall kissed. I kept tellin him to stop playin wit me, but his ass kept goin so I stuck him and we got to fightin.

I looked at him not knowin how to react to what he just said. Before he could get another word out I was walkin back to my room grabbin my coat, and car keys. As soon as I was walkin to the door he stopped me.

Tae: Where u goin shawty?
Yatta: Where the fuck u think im goin!?(I said opening the door but he grabbed me)
Tae: Why the fuck u goin over there u need to stop fuckin wit that nigga shawty!
Yatta: To find out why he said that shit.
Tae: What difference do it make he lyin right?
Yatta:.....
Tae: Bae..
Yatta: What!?
Tae: Did u kiss him?

I just couldnt find the courage to tell him that I in fact did kiss Quan. I never thought it would be anything that would come back up especially now. He continued to look into my eyes like he was readin my soul.

Yatta: Tae....
Tae: So u really did kiss that nigga!? All this time u been feedin me that friend bullshit, and u been fuckin around wit his ass the whole time!?
Yatta: No it wasnt like that it only happened once, but it didnt mean shit!
Tae: Then why u aint tell me about it!?
Yatta: Because it was a stupid mistake, and I didnt kiss him he kissed me!
Tae: Yea iight what else u do wit this nigga I dont know about?
Yatta: Nothin!
Tae: Did u fuck him?
Yatta: NO! How could u ask me somethin like that!?
Tae: The same fuckin way u kept this shit from me, and I had to find out from him!(he said walkin off)
Yatta: Bae I-

He slammed his door in my face cuttin me off. I figured it would be better to let him cool off first, but right now I got bigger fish to fry. I rushed out the house slammin the door makin my way to Quans dorms.