Nico Blake the unexpected {hollyoaks}

Fading away..

This moment

No one awake. No fear, no cancer

Three of us asleep as a family in the bedroom

Me and Alfie curled up together and Emmy in between, as soon as our baby cries we hit back to reality

Chemotherapy day.

I don't know how well get through this, it feels like a bad dream I can't get out of

Within the next few weeks Alfie will have no hair, something he'll miss

"Shh, before you wake your daddy" I told the crying baby

"Shh" I kept repeating over and over, my mum was home today at long last! This week feels like an eternity

I'd managed the settle Emmy as I looked into her sorrowful eyes, I turned the tele on and watched some American trash. With my daughter on my knees

Then I heard something from Alfie's room. A murmur

I got up and walked and listened through the door, I heard Alfie speaking

"Remember Emmy, if- if I don't make it this time, I love you and I love your mum- more than anything-" I started to cry through his words

"-whenever your sad and need cheering up watch this and think of me! I'm always here, love you lots my beautiful girls"

He'd given up hope! Why?

He was just fading away

I opened the door and stood there smiling through the tears, I walked over and put my free hand around Alfie in a hug

"Don't give up!" I say through my tears

He didn't reply just held me tighter.

-

"right Alfie, just relax here for a bit that wasn't too bad was it?" The nurse said puffing Alfie's pillow

"No" he stared into his shoes

"Thank you.." I said as the nurse left

  I turned back to Alfie, holding himself together

"What was it you were making this morning?" I asked him

He lifted his head to gave me.

"A vlog, so Emmy can see me if I yanno.. Blagh!" He laughed

I rolled my eyes

"When can we go?" He asked me looking at his phone to check the time

"In about an hour" I sighed back

-

"Well I don't think I'm watching frozen again!" I laughed down at my daughter who me and Alfie had decided to watch a film with (I know stupid idea when Emmy is only 3 weeks old)

I looked down at Alfie who was asleep in the bed, where we'd been watching a film.

I heard the door unlock mum is home!

I got out of bed and ran to the door

"Mum!" I cried into her arms with my sleeping daughter in mine

"Nico I've missed you so much" she said stroking my hair

"Mum I don't know what I'm going to do" she looked at me sadly

"Be strong" she took my baby off me

"Hello Emerald Sienna you've grown !" She cooed at her granddaughter

"Hey Ben" I smiled and gave him a warm hug as he entered with the bags

"Where is Alfie?" He asked scanning the room

"Asleep he's had chemo today"

My mum and her husband looked at each other sadly but my mum grabbed a bag and handed it me

"Here we brought you something" she smiled as we sat down

I pulled out a photo of a scan!

"Mum! Are you?!" I asked happily

"Your gonna be a big sis ni!" Ben shook my shoulders

My sad thoughts drifted out the window