The Only Hope For Me Is You (Gerard Way Fanfic)

Chapter 46

Gerard's P.O.V.

I posted on Twitter, something I haven't done since the night I got drunk. I know she had me on her notifications every time I tweeted, but she probably got annoyed as I posted about the girls and unborn baby boy, and so she probably unfollowed me. I miss her and those girls like crazy. I get a shower and get on my phone, check my notifications, and put a movie in to fall asleep too.  

I wake up and put on the news, to notice something weird. I don't know what is weird, but something just seems weird. I look at the time and date and notice that I slept for 3 days straight, and that's what seems so weird. I look at the calendar again- it is Valentines day, another reason its so weird. I've spent the last 5 years of this day with Brook, oh no. I spent the past 5 Valentines days with Brook. That hurts, my heart hurts. I begin to sob once again. My brother comes in and see me sitting in the corner crying my eyes out.

"Gee, are you um, okay?" He asks, walking over me. 

"No Micheal, I'm not o-fucking-kay! Trust me!" I quote our old song.

"What's wrong?" He asks.

"Its Valentines day, and I'm not with Brook, that's what's wrong. She wants nothing to do with me." I say.

"Okay, I was just checking in on you. Plus, do you have and pancake batter I can have?" He says.

"Yea in the cupboard." I say, before I know it, I'm singing a song, one that I've known for a long time. 

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You (x3)

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

I noticed that my brother recorded it, every last bit of it. I sang one of Brook's favorite songs, that wasn't one of my own. I began to sob once more.

"I love you bro." Mikey said.

"I love you too." I said, before he left. Before I know it, he posted it on Twitter, tagged Brook in it.

Brook's P.O.V.

I'm down in my room, eating some sort of chocolate that my brother got me, its Valentines day, and I'm not happy with myself. Just think March 31st I'm having a baby. I wish I had someone to spend my V-day with. I get on my Twitter, and I see a notification 'mikeyway mentioned you in a tweet'. I click on it, thinking what the fuck. It's a video, and it's one of my favorite songs. I click to watch the video, and I see a literal human ball in a corner of an apartment. The human ball starts singing The Reason by Hoobastank. I notice something about that human ball, and it's Gerard. Gerard is singing one of my favorite songs. I start crying and Tya walks down to my room and sees me.

"Mommy why are you crying?" She asks. "Is baby making pain?"

"No honey, mommy's just upset. Just go upstairs and play with the toys daddy got you." I say. She listens and goes back upstairs and I eventually cry myself back to sleep for a couple of hours. 

After I wake up from my little nap, I decide to tweet back at Mikey. 'mikeyway thanks you made me cry myself into a nap. thanks how nice of you'. I say to him and send it before putting my phone on the charger. I go upstairs and see dinner is ready, so I sit down with my family and eat hamburger helper, then give the girls their bath and get a shower myself, before settling the girls down and getting them to sleep. I watch the two movies Tangled and Grease and sob because Gee and I used to watch these movies together all the time and sing along to all the songs. I eventually cry myself to sleep.

Gerard's P.O.V.

I make myself some pizza rolls for dinner then watch two movies- Grease and Tangled. Then I cry and realize Brook and I watched those movies together all the time, and sang along to all the songs together. I scream into my pillow "COME BACK I LOVE YOU" then cry myself to sleep.

I wake up the next morning, and I see Frank, Mikey, and Ray sitting on my couch. Yea, all of us have decided to move to Cincinnati. It's a lot easier. "Hey, why are all of you guys here?" I ask them.

"We have no power at our houses, and your place is the only place that has power." Frank explained. Mikey got on his phone and checked his Twitter. He began chuckling a little bit.

"What's so funny?" I ask him.

"I tagged Brook in that tweet I posted of you singing her favorite song and it made her cry." He said. That makes me get on Twitter and stalk my ex fiance, to see she's always posting pictures of the girls, and of her baby belly. Her most recent post was both of the girls kissing her baby belly and she said 'March 1st Gerard Jr will be brought to the world'. I liked the tweet then got off my phone.