Dark

Chapter 33

Camila

Day by day, I can see how happy Shawn to be right here with me. He was my very very best boyfriend and probably I'm the luckiest to have him in my life.

I never thought that I would met him in social media and never thought he would be like this.

Shawn really can't walk or stand anymore, he just laying or sitting in his bed or sitting in his wheel chair for a walk. I always cried in the night because I can't believe he will leave me soon and he will never come back to my life.

"Camila," he said,

That words means a lot for me, the way he calls me, the way he always caress my hair and comfort me when I'm panic or sad.

"Yeah, what do you need?" I asked him, but he just smiled at me.

"Why are you smiling like that?" I asked him again, waiting for his response,

"Just nothing, I like your face," he said,

"Shawn, stop doing things like that, okay? You need to get a rest," I said,

"What? No, I just want to stare at you all day, because I might never be seeing you anymore," he said,

"No, stop saying it, you will always seeing me anytime you want, you are not dying," I said to strength myself,

"I am, Mila. I will not seeing you anymore," he said,

"I'm so sorry," he said again after he seeing me crying a little bit,

"No worries, it's okay," I said as I wiped my tears in my cheek,

"Do you want to eat or something?" I offered,

"No, I just want you, I just want you, Camila. I just want to love you until the day I die, just don't leave me," he said slowly while his voice cracking,

"I will not leaving you, Shawn, shh," I said as I caress his cheek and he smiled to me,

If I could take his illness, I would take it away from him and I will be him at least he's happy but sadly I can't.

I looked at his eyes very deeply, he looks very sad and very painful and hurt. That's all I can see from his eyes.

"Camila, please forgive me for all the things that I made you cry, mad or depressed. Please, forgive me. Just remember, if you missed me just look up to the sky in the night and find the brighter star and that's me. I'm always watching you," he said and his words totally made me cry, like I cried a lot.

"Shawn, please, I can't hear you saying things like that, anymore. I just can't believe you'll leaving soon. My parents left me and now you left me. I just can't live like this anymore, Shawn," I said as I sobbed,

"I can't tell you how my bad day anymore, no one will caress my hair anymore and no one will take care of myself or even my sister," I continued, but he only smiled at me. I know he's crying inside, I know him. He smiled through his pain, he always did that.

"My parents will always be yours, too. Just remember that, okay? I just really need to go right now," he said,

"What? No! You can't leave, Shawn. You just can't leave me like this! I need you," I said as I panicked and sobbed,

"I should leave, Mila. You wouldn't need me anymore, you can find your happiness now. Let me sleep peacefully. Just go to my parents and live with them. They are gonna be your parents, too. Remember my parents are yours too," he said,

"No, Shawn. Please don't! I still need you," I said,

He closed his eyes slowly as he smiled to me. What, it's just can't be happening right now. I still need him, oh my God!

"Shawn, wake up, please! Wake up, my Shawny boy," I said as I moved his body but I got no response. Then suddenly, that hearbeat machine makes a straight line with a very long beep sound. I can't believe he is leaving now.

I called the doctor and Shawn's parents directly. The doctor checked him and what can he say, Shawn is totally leaving the world.

"Karen, Manuel, I'm so sorry, my prayers and thoughts are with him," I said as I smiled to them even though I'm hurting inside,

"Camila, forgive all the things he ever did to you. I'm so sorry too, and thank you so much for making my son very happy before he leaving us. Thank you so much, Camila," Shawn's dad said,

"My very great pleasure to having your son happy with me, I already forgive him. He always treats me very good, he is too good for the world, yeah, God just made a perfect decision," I said,

"Thank you so much, Camila. You and your sister can live with us, that doesn't matter. You are one of our family too, Shawn always said that to me. Even if you're having a bad day, you can talk to me or us," Shawn's mom said,

"You're welcome, Karen. And thank you so much, I'd really appreciate that," I said.

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Today is Shawn's funeral. I can't believe this day is coming. I can't believe he's already there. I know he's smiling now up there. His illness already cured.

I came home to Shawn's home because I lived there now. I passed to his room because the door is opened. I walked in and I rememberd when we met in omegle. His wall still looks the same.

Those posters of Ed Sheeran, those guitars, I looked at the bed, I remembered when he teached me a bit of playing guitar, thanks to him I can now play a guitar. I looked at those frames with me and Shawn's picture on it.

I always remember what he said before he's leaving me. Just look up at the sky in the night, and find the brighter star and that's me. He said. Yeah, you're my brighter star in my darkness. I'm already out from the dark because I found you, Shawn.

Thanks for everything, thanks for the laugh, for the happiness, for the things you gave me in the world. You're the best person, best boyfriend, best friend of me and you will always be here in my heart.

I hope you're happy there. Thank you so much again for taking me out from my dark.

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i am finished this second book! wow look how far we've come yay! i am totally cried when i wrote this chapter, seriously. i am not lying.

first of all, i want to thank everyone who supports me for this story. i love you all so much.

and yeah, i didn't mean to wanting shawn to die, it's just a story. i love you guys so much and thanks for supporting me in this book.

i hope you like this chapter and probably cry as much as me hahahaha. don't forget to comment and vote if you think this chapter made you cry!

goodbye, see you on another book 😊😊😊