Supernatural Death Note

Chapter Ninety-Eight: Lisa Learns About Dean and Ruby.

Dean and Sam watched the sky slowly grow dark, as the sun set. Sam knew it was late and that Dean was tired but not giving in. He figured his brother would drop soon. He watched this happen often during his healing from the shoulder injuries. He had something on his mind he wanted to ask him and thought now was as good a time as any, since they were pretty much alone.

"Dean? I know you plan to marry Lisa. I watched you ask her. Does she know about your past? The other women? The pool hall? Ruby?"

Dean stared at him like he'd never seen him before.

"Dean, think about it. These are things that affect your relationship with women. She needs to know."

Dean kept staring. "She knows there's been other women, and why. She knows about the pool hall, but I'll be damned if I'm gonna tell her about Ruby. You tell Sarah about Madison and Ruby, Sam?"

His voice was soft. "I have actually."

"Yeah? How'd she handle you wanting it with them?"

"She understood Madison but smacked the hell out of me for being stupid on Ruby," he admitted.

"Tell me this. I told her about those men and how Dad treated me. It was hard to tell a woman you want to respect you and believe you are strong enough to protect her and your son. How do you tell her that you got raped by a demon? That's twice, Sammy. I can't protect myself from it. How do I protect her?"

"By trusting the rest of your family to help," he pointed out to him.

"So, you're saying I need to tell her? Does Sarah know that happened to me? Either time?"

"I haven't told her because you've not said I could or not. I respect your privacy, Dean."

"Do you think she needs to know these things, Sam?"

"I don't know.. unless you're alone with her and have a reaction of some kind?"

"Why would I need to be alone with Sarah?" Dean grew quiet for a moment, and then, spoke softly, "I guess you're right, I do need to tell Lisa. Hell! This is just not fair, Sam. I didn't ask for this."

"No you didn't, Dean, but as much as we'd love to change it, it did happen. Now all we can do is help you through it."

"If you think Sarah needs to know, you tell her and you let me know. I don't want something popping off without me knowing first. Okay? I guess I need to go get Lisa. I'm tired and I'm not gonna be able to sleep with this up in the air. I don't guess you guys could kinda ask Ben to spend the night?"

"Not a problem or I could see if Matt can arrange a gaming night for them."

"If Lisa would allow it that would be great. Let me know what is decided before I go get her."

"I'll go ask Matt," he said and then went to find the teenager.

Dean felt almost as sick and nervous as he did when he faced Sam, only this time he had no audio. He was starting to tremble, and damn it, he needed to be in control. He had had a hard time talking about those men at the pool hall but he'd been a teen at the time. This was different...so different.

Sam came back and nodded. Matt would entertain Ben tonight.

"That's an all-nighter, Sam. Did Lisa say okay?"

"She did; Ben's collecting his stuff now, and will be here to put it up and get what he needs for this evening."

"I'm getting light headed and I think I'm about to throw up." Dean got to his feet much too quickly. He leaned against the wall, closing his eyes for a minute. "Oh, god. Out of the way, Sammy." He rushed to the bathroom and fell to his knees, losing his entire meal. The whole room was swimming. He knew it was fear and stress, but he didn't know what to do about it."