I'm Not Sorry: A Justin Bieber Fan Fiction

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Chapter 43

After a good hour of explanation, Justin finally understood the whole situation. And thank goodness Selena's left with Cameron, so Justin could tell me about what he thought about this, directly, without me having to find excuses to leave Selena and Cameron just so I could hear his thoughts.

"So, she's just gonna give up like that? Why didn't she fucking give it up a month ago, since she started going out with Cameron?" Justin ran his fingers through his hair roughly, before turning to me. "How did you know I was going to forbid this friendship between the both of you?" He asked, his expression suddenly softening.

I shrugged my shoulders with a sheepish grin that made him burst out laughing. "Instinctively, I suppose...or maybe I know you too well to know that you would probably do that...yeah, I think I know you too well, yup."

Suddenly, he pulled out is retainer and put them on his teeth, so I shot him a confused look. "Why'd you put on your retainers for?"

He shrugged his shoulders. "I missed the time when I wore 'em. So troublesome...yet so weird and uncomfortable," he chuckled at something he remembered. "not to mention it was hard to kiss Caitlin at that time." He sighed and turned to me with a smile. A smile that meant; I hope you understood it was past.

I smiled back. "Don't worry, I completely understand." then I sighed instantly, without thinking. Justin frowned a little, but let it go, while I started thinking about Jaitlin. I never really knew what made them break-up. Yes, I knew the both of them, then. But I just... I wasn't bothered with his life at that time. All I knew was that, Caitlin kept trying to be my friend, but I rejected her and walked away. Since then, she wasn't seen with Justin anymore, then a pang of guilt hit me for being such a lousy person. Then I asked my Mom, and she went like, "Jaitlin is over. They've broken up. But don't mention this in front of Justin or Caitlin. They're both devastated about being forced to break up. Believe it or not, they're crying really hard in separate rooms right now." Then it hit me, that the both of them was actually madly in love, then I went to Scooter and asked him what happened, and he answered me with, "I had no choice but to break them up due to Justin's music career, because it's either a girlfriend or career. If he had a girlfriend, he wouldn't be able to concentrate on making music properly, so he sacrificed. I'm guilty and I'm sorry, but I was forced to. By Usher and L.A. Reid. There, I said it. But you know they had no choice too..." I ran into the bathroom and bawled my eyes out. Do you know how old I was when that happened? Nine. God fucking damn four letters; NINE. I don't know what came over me, why I cried, but I just felt sad for them. I, in some way understood how they felt... Then I talked to Ryan Good, "Kiddo, don't ask me why you're crying too. Maybe because you loved Caitlin and Justin together as Jaitlin and maybe because you were in love with Justin and that seeing him cry broke your heart that's why you cried, or because you were friends with Caitlin, which I highly doubt so, and that she cried soooo hard, you couldn't help but look at her with sympathy and break down." Yeah... That's Goodie's forever retarded thinking.

I shook my head and gasped loudly. Alfredo and Justin was kneeling in front of me with squinted eyes and questioning looks like are you okay? So I laughed. "Don't worry, I'm fine, just thought about...something."

"Ohh, something so mysterious," Alfredo teased, but instantly went back to seriousness when I shot him a glare.

"Alfredo, you were in the Bieber Crew ever since Justin was found, right?" I asked, trying to avoid Justin's eye contact.

He shook his head. "I'm afraid not, bub. I was, only when Never Say Never was decided to be produced."

I sighed. I guess I'll ask Kenny, then. Or maybe not. I'll ask Justin. Tonight.

"Hey, we're done packing. Leaving for the hotel now. Grab your things, we're heading back," Mom came in to notify us. Alfredo stood up and jogged his way towards the door, but Justin's eyes bored through me.

"We have to talk when we're back in the hotel." He said and grabbed my hand, pulling me up to join the rest of the crew who was waiting for us.

"Okay, what's up with you? I mentioned about Caitlin, and the next minute, you zoned out and went into your own world. What happened? I thought you understood," he sighed quietly and sat down next to me.

I looked down at my lap, because tears started welling up in my eyes. Steady your tears, Justine Kaye. You don't cry. You never did. Okay, then tell me what's making me cry. Jealousy. Jealousy? What?

Justin," I said firmly, in order to not allow him to go suspicious. "Were you in love with Caitlin when the both of you were going out?" Thank goodness it came out firm, too.

"I... We... I... Yes... I was... And so was Caitlin..." He slowly said.

I nodded. "Was Never Let You Go, Common Denominator and," I swallowed hard. "Stuck In The Moment written for her?" A quiet sob left my mouth, but I still didn't look up. I don't know what came over me. I must be insane, or something. I've never done this, I'm never like that. I am not the kind of girl who starts crying over jealousy. This isn't me, I'm not me! What on Earth is happening to me? What?

I heard a gulp from Justin. "Yes... I- " I cut him off.

I wiped my tears away and smiled. "Nah, don't continue. It's okay. But I just need to know one thing before I do something, in hope I won't regret..." I swallowed hard again. "Are you still in love with Caitlin?" I quietly asked, clutching my scarf. And the tightest I could go was when Justin answered.

"Yes, I am." He answered quietly. I smiled up at him and released the tight grip on my scarf. "Good to know...Uh, well, I'll catch you tomorrow." I leaned in and gave him a small, yet tight hug. You're never catching me again, Justin, because I'm not letting you and I'm not gonna risk my heart for love anymore. See you soon, Justin. Have a great life.

He sighed. "See you tomorrow, babe...but wait, is something the matter? Something wrong?" He asked, observing my expression.

I shook my head with a smile and walked out of the door, then I heard him scream. "But I love you!"

I smiled to myself knowing that, and I ran down the stairs, dialing my Mom's number.

"Hey, Mom?... Yeah, uh, I was just wondering if you could book air tickets home?... No, I didn't have a fight with Justin... Yup... I'm just a little homesick and was wondering whether I could go back... Yeah, great idea! Invite Jenny to stay over.... But please, keep this from Justin and everyone else. I don't want them to know... Uh, it's sorta like a surprise... Yup, wait, you'd help me pack my things?... Oh gosh, thanks Mom!.. Uh huh, love ya, too, Mother. Goodbye!" I hung up and made my way to the airport.

Start afresh, Justine.

Start your life, celebrity free.

Goodbye, celebrities.