The Book Of Females

Been A While...

It's been some time sense I have been active on wattpad and I apologize for this. I have been so wrapped up in student life I just haven't had time to work on any of my stories...

Well todays topic anyway is this:

What if our life was insanity? Not the definition of repeating something over and over expecting different results. An insanity meaning that every single day that we have lived, touched, seen, loved, lusted, hated, experienced in the true meaning of being alive wasn't real? What if this life wad all in our heads or just a dream? What if you woke up one day strapped down to a bed with white sheets in a white padded room telling you that the life you lived, people you knew, didn't exist the way you remembered or at all? Terrifying isn't it? All these questions have been circling my mind...

I keep wondering if this actually happened to me how would it be? Would my best friends still be alive? Or would they have never existed? Would my life still be the living hell it is today or be a whole different type of hell? Would that child I repeatedly in my dreams see stolen from me actually exist or still be that horrifying nightmare that leaves me awakening on the night heart pounding and trembling with fear? What if?

This circles in my mind every waking moment and I wonder is my life that insanity that leaves you questioning if this life's real? This type of insanity leaves you questioning everything because if your experiencing it then you truly cant tell what is real from whats not...

Okay well not that I have likely disturbed you as much as I currently am about this topic I would like to blame books, fanfiction, and that one episode of Buffy that completely fuck around with this topic for truly terrifying me about this...

Well of to have some nightmares! See you next update my little throwing stars!

~Ninja