(04/15/16) last night i had a dream and it was fffucking wild !
basically, i don't remember everything but i remember most and some of this is actually rlly rlly fucked up lol sorry guys
but what i remember was walking into a shed/ house thingy on the beach near my school ( irl there is no beach near my school oh ) & basically i walk in and my white boy the only one in there dead ass & i'm like,
"are you my tutor?"
he goes,
"yeah."
and then i'm like,
"oh i'm zuzu."
and of course i'm all giggly and excited because the boy i have a big ass "crush" on is gonna be tutoring me and we're gonna have to be close together and !!
anyway, then he goes,
"quit playing i know you know who i am."
so he like knows i'm obsessed and i go,
"yeah, but it's not like that, i'm not in love with you or anything and i don't follow you" (and deadass i don't lmao it's always a coincidence) and he goes,
"yeah it's okay."
so it's kinda awkward at first but then we start working together and he's over here cracking jokes and stuff and we're tight as fuck!!! like we just click. anyway, then we stop w the tutoring and more people start comin in !! and yeah ik some minor situations happened and he said a lotta things tht i can't exactly remember. and then ofc carlos is there and then yo!! this is the weird ass mesSED up part.
so we're sitting together and i guess we're really close in the dream so we're sitting so close together !! and so basically, we're working on hw together and i was honestly worried that my white boy wouldn't approve ( in the dream his name waS SHERMAN AND I WAS SO UNCOMFORTABLE because it reminded me of nemo and in the dream i was tryna think of a cute nickname i could call him and i gave up i could not )
anyway back to this FUCKERY and when i say fuckery i mean fuckery. any idea why i dreamt this? no,,,
but anyways i was real close to carlos and thennnn
i put my hand on like his leg but in the dream i made the conscious decision NOT to like put my hand up too far because honestly i seem like the type of girl who would put a hand on your knee u know just to be cute whatever and then dead ass accidentally squeeze your thigh or graZE YOUR DICK OKAY IM SORRY.
SO the fucked up part is that ofc i start wandering w my hands totally by accident so by now my hand is right on his thigh and LITERALLY he goes,
"my cock, my cock."
in the most casual tone as if what he was saying was not odd in any sense ????
so i go, "oh sorry" and take my hand away .
and then the scene switches to math class and i'm at the back of the class and my friend say(who isn't even in that class smh smh), comes up to me and goes,
"have you heard about zherman?"
and i was like,
"oh my god that's actually a thing?"
zherman = zuzu + sherman (my white boy)
AND I WAS TRYING TO HIDE HOW EXCITED I WAS THAT PEOPLE THOUGHT WE WOULD GO WELL IN A RELATIONSHIP BUT AT THE SAME TIME I WAS WORRIED BECAUSE after the tutoring session, sherman and i were like bEST FRIENDs it was like he was my older brother that i clearly had a fucKIHNDG CRUSH ON and he knew it but he didn't care bc that's my big bro back tf up hoe.
and yeah i still had feelings for sherman buT people shipping me with a senior would be SO PROBLEMATIC AKDLHJIK DF so i didn't want ppl thinking i was hoein around and in addition to that, i was in a relationship w carlos !! but once i realized that i actually had a chance with sherman i was like "man wtf ion even like carlos no more! 😫"
buttt yeah the dream ended soon after that we went into math class but nothin interesting happened
i pRAY that my white boy and i become as close as i imagined in the dream because he's graduating in a few weeks and holy shitballs on a kabob i am not emoTIONALLY READY to build up the courage to be like my friends and just straight up be like "aye whats up fam how u doin asl whats ya name nationality you cute hmu u got kik"
like that is an accurate representation of my friends ( except they're less harassy )
& usually dreams mean something so lets find out.
but omg near the beginning of the week maybe on monday i dreamt that i had a dream where i was a little bit older and i had a pretty friend who i have never seen in my life before but we were best friends in the dream. anyway, we were pouring water on the ground in my driveway and nobody was home but us.
and then we realized it was gasoline and then a fire started in my driveway and we tried to put it out like i remember running inside and having my friend get something inside the house while i ran water in a pot.
and i walked out of the door and attempted to open the door that actually leads to outside and the fire was RIGHT at my feet so my illiterate ass threw water on it and it just sizzled and kept going eventually blocking me ?? and literally my face in the dream was SO terrified i was scared as fuck but i woke up right after that knowing i was dreaming n i wasn't scared.
ima have to calculate the meanings of these dreams hmmm.
#zuzaf
