Stuck in : Fullmetal Alchemist

Chapter 29 : Loneliness

No one's POV

Jane was running. Far far away, in Dublith. Her, so happy at first to be Edward and Alphonse's friend, so happy to live in Amestris, so happy she left the "real world"... Disillusions. Now she understood why in the fantasy books the oracle was always hated, feared. Because he knew everything. And people never accepted the truth. So the oracle was suffering. Just like her. Jane was suffering, in her heart. So much. She thought a blade was piercing her organ, and thrusting always deeper in her chest. Her leg, her eye... All sacrificed and for what? It seemed nothing. For the first time since she was there, she felt regrets. The friends she thought she had made... All vanished in the air. This wasn't supposed to be like that. This wasn't supposed to be like that! She wanted to change it. She wanted to change the story, come back two hours ago, when she still was happy. But now she was so lonely... She sat on a small wall in a dark street and drew a transmutation circle. She wanted to learn alchemy. But was she really destined to be an alchemist? Was this really what she wanted?

-Ara, are you all alone small girl? a voice said behind her.

-I'm not alone. I have my friends and-

-Yes you are. You shouldn't be learning alchemy. Your place is not with the pipsqueak and his friends. He made you believe he liked you. All fake and masks, he hates you now!

-Don't say such a thing, Edward is not like this!

-Please, you are supposed to know the story. How does his friends call him?

She thought a little and her eyes widened painfully.

-Ed....

-And how do you call him?

-Edward....

-So are you a friend?

She didn't answer anything, just looking down and trembling slightly.

-See? Come on, you belong to us, the person said extending her hand.

Jane turned around and saw a familiar face.

Envy.

Edward's POV

I curse. Dammit, Hughes is dead? But why didn't she tell us earlier? Was she scared we might have been sad? I don't say that we are not... But... Wait maybe... Maybe she was scared we would have hated her?

-Brother.... Hughes is dead... Al mumbles still covered by blood.

-I know Al.... I know... And Jane is gone...

-She ran away! She doesn't want to assume the fact she knows and didn't tell us!! She was just scared we would be angry against her, but now we're way more!!

-Al wait. It's hard to know everything and boy being able to do anything you know....

-Even so!! She shouldn't have run away....

-I know Al... I know....

Where the damn hell is she now? She can't use alchemy very well to defend herself, and her leg isn't healed yet. She would be powerless if anything has to happen! I can't help but being worried. And guilty too. If I made her stay maybe... What can happen to her now?? Everything... Everything can happen and I won't even be here for my friend.

Jane's POV

I take his hand. Yes I do. Because a strange feelings take over my mind, I want to follow the homunculus. After all, Edward and Alphonse never considered me as a friend, I don't understand how I couldn't see that. It was clear, so clear... And yet I still doubt about my own choice. He grins and picks me up on his shoulder.

-Very great~ let's go~

-We're going to see Father?

-How would you know about Father?? Ah right, you know the story... Well yes, indeed.

-And what are you going to do with me?

-You're lonely no? Well strangely, our father felt like this those last times, maybe you could understand him?

I don't reply and just nod. He put me down and takes another form to travel. A cat.

-You take the first train to Central and pretend I'm your cat. That's all. I hope you won't do anything fishy.

-No... I'll do as you say.

I take him in my arms, holding him against my chest, as I begin to walk toward the train station. There, I take a ticket and climb in the first train to Central. I don't think I have regrets anyway, anywhere I go I'll be rejected so once more once less.... I prefer trying. I sit next to the window and look at the landscape defiling behind it, the hot south slowly fading away, as long as my new and already ended friendship...

***

I arrive in Central during the night. It's cold and I have goosebumps. I put Envy on the ground and he takes his normal form again.

-You should take that, he says handing me a coat.

I grab it, not really knowing where he found it.

-It's colder under the town.

I nod and quickly wear it as I follow him toward the usual dark street with the door. We enter and walk down some stairs before crossing some dark corridors and arriving in front of Father. I look at him, a little scared, as he gives me an emotionless glare. Well...

-You're back Envy, my son.

-Yes Father. I brought you the girl.

He sighs and stands up from his chair to go toward a small table. He pierces his forehead as a red liquid falls from it, instead of blood. It turns into a perfect Philosopher's stone and I understand. I try to run away, but Envy quickly grabs me, holding me in place. Father cuts my wrist and drop the stone in, as the pain slowly spreads in my body. I shout.

-Raaah!! Remove that!!! I beg you!!!

The pain. The pain. Huge pain. Tears fall from my eyes and I hit the ground hardly, holding my head. Curiously, I arrive in front of the Gate of the Truth.

-All of the things you sacrificed.... Do you want them back now you'll share this body with someone else? it asks a little sadly.

-I keep them. I'll try to get rid of the homunculus.

-Good answer, it grins.

When I am conscious again, I stand up and grin, putting a hand on my waist.

-Welcome among us, Loneliness, Father says.

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