Don't Let Me Go

Chapter 34

My hair fell in my face as I danced with Grace but I didn't really mind. I was having such a good time and the slightly tipsy feeling all the Sex On The Beaches provided me with did no harm. Though when Harry asked me if I wanted to have 'a Sex On The Beach' I was a little bit caught off guard but regained my pride as he explained it was a drink, though he did say he could consider actually having sex on the beach but that was for another time. 

"I'm going to get some air." I yelled in to Grace's ear, trying to speak louder than the music. She nodded but kept on dancing, pulling Louis closer to her. He smiled, dancing along with the extremely attractive blond before I chuckled slightly, stepping out on the balcony. It was filled with people though it was massive and could easily fit another twenty. 

I leaned myself against the railing, looking at the people standing under us. I breathed in the air, allowing my lungs some fresh oxygen before walking inside again, filling them with the thin air inside. 

"Hey." I turned around at the sound of a voice, seeing Liam walk up next to me. I smiled at him, leaning against the railing again. "You look really good." He admitted, looking me up and down. I flushed, thanking him in a whisper as I tried to calm my feverish cheeks down. 

"Do you like them?" I wondered.

"You have some good friends. Naomi can't really get her eyes off me though." He winked, causing me to giggle at my embarrassing friend. 

"She likes you." I assured and iamL nodded slightly, looking out over London. 

"I moved here to make changes with my life, I think I have done a pretty good job this far. The city is amazing and so are you and your friends. I think this will be a good thing for me you know, doing all this." He murmured. 

"What happened?" I thought he just moved cause he got in to the school but I could tell he was hiding something.

Behind all these tattoos he was just as Harry, he had built a wall up to hide himself from any sort of affection and just kept on acting like everything was okay.

They are both so unlike me, they hide from everything they can't turn to their own. I saw so much of  Harry in Liam, just the small things he did made me think of Harry. If they don't get along it's probably cause they are too alike. 

"A lot." He murmured. Just by his voice I could tell flash backs went through his mind as he had this conversation with me.

I had no idea what he had been through and I never really considered something happening to him since he had both a strong attitude and a kind heart. 

"Tell me." I demanded but without any power in my voice, sounding not that strong. He nodded, leading me towards the chairs that just got empty by two girl getting up and leaving. Their cigarettes produced a tiny bit of smoke but didn't affect me. 

"Have you ever been cheated on?" His words caught me off guard. I shook my head, letting the horrible information sink in. He was one of the nicest guys I've met and knowing he has been cheated on made me feel horrible. 

"No, I haven't." I sighed. "I'm so sorry." I murmured, seeing him sigh deeply.

It was just something so horrible, I know love, real love, shouldn't be like that. You are supposed to dedicate your love to one person and to make that person smile should be your goal every day. Cheating is probably worse then being left out, stood up or anything like that. It's someone that you trusted, laid your love on, that just didn't care enough to think of you at all. 

"It's not your fault. I thought she loved me but she clearly didn't. We dated for almost six months and during that time I could have found the right one for me you know. The one that cared for me the way a person should care for another person. She was so wonderful and all so when everyone else told me that she was cheating I would just cuss them out. When I saw them kissing just outside a shop every feeling struck at once and it all ended with me kicking the shit out of him. Since then I started getting tattoos, this was my first one." Liam pointed at his bicep and in the whole sleeve you could see a big X as big as my hand. I had to admit that it did look good together with the other tattoos filling his arms up. "It's mostly to cross the shit out, if you know what I'm talking about." He murmured.  I got it, I got that it symbolized something to keep the bad stuff away. 

"Did you get over her?" I spoke. I needed to get that filter fixed, the one separating what I think from what I say. 

"I did actually, it still hurts so think about her." He said. "I found a girl after her, who I'm actually still in love with." He smiled but I could tell the smile wasn't real. 

"What happened?" I could tell by the tone of his voice that something was up. The way his brown eyes lost their sparkle, his voice got lower and he didn't meet my eyes just confirmed it. 

"We dated for almost two years. She was god damn perfect, we worked so well together. We even got a dog. She has him now though, I still see her and stuff but it's hard. We had it all worked out for us, we would stay together forever. You know when you are so fucking in love with someone and when they do something you just can't get over, you break in to pieces?" It was weird how he said that, I knew just what he was walking about. That feeling was the worst. 

"Yeah I know." I sighed.

"I felt like that for so long. She just left, telling me this was too good to be true and that I would be better off without her. She has such low selfesteem but she is really the prettiest girl I know. I hate knowing that their ain't a problem in our relationship, she just wants the best for me but can't see that she is actually the best for me. " He sighed. 

I felt so bad for him, first he got cheated on and then when he found the love of his life she leaves him just like that. I just wanted to see her and tell her that she is making a mistake but I can't, it's really none of my business but I hate to see Liam upset. 

"I promise you that if you two are meant to be you will find a way back to each other." It was a big promise to make but I could tell he loved her, she probably loved him back but was just to scared cause it was getting really serious after two years. 

"I really hope so." He murmured. "You are a really good person Ruby." He said, standing up and walked back to our previous position.

"Thank you. So are you." I smiled at him, pushing him on the shoulder. We both laughed for a second before calming ourselves down, looking at London at its beautiful light brightened the night up.

"I'm just so glad my life is turning towards the good again." He said, a smile placed in his lips.

"I am glad for you. You deserve the best and you will get it." I assured, placing a smile on my glossed lips as well. I looked over at Liam, meeting his brown eyes that had regained their sparkle.

He was really easy to talk to and we were probably going to have more of these deep talks if we got the chance. I felt like I could tell him about Harry and I, Ariel and Zayn since he trusted me enough to tell me his life story it wouldn't be polite not to trust him back. 

"I like you Liam." I smiled, looking over at him. He met my eyes, the brown looking black in the dark but he was still as pretty as before. He was no Harry, no one was, but I couldn't deny that I was taken away from the first moment I met him by his beauty. 

He had these eyes, they told me everything about his current emotion and right now they were glowing, loving and a bit nervous. I didn't understand the nervousness in his glare but didn't take my gaze away from the twenty year old in front of me. 

"I like you too." He promised, placing his hand on the small of my back. It was a little bit low but before I could tell him politely to move it upwards a little he did something I never in my whole life though he would do.

He kissed me.