Don't Let Me Go

Chapter 47

"No, you don't get to do that!" He screamed, not hiding his anger. 

"Guess what! I don't care." I yelled back, surely not sounding more polite back. 

"We made rules for this trip and I expect you both to follow them." He wasn't yelling now, just speaking in a very low voice that scared me.

"I didn't even break any of the ridiculous rules. We talked and that's it, Harry." I was sharp in my voice but didn't yell either. I was just annoyed how he can go crazy after mentioning I had a chat with Zayn in the bar whilst in the club. He saw me walk to dance floor with him so I don't understand a thing.

"I was outside fighting for you and you go and dance with him. You loved his hands on your body, didn't you?" He was looking in to my eyes, evil spread all over him. 

"Harry if you really love me you believe me when I tell you that we never did something more than talking alone in the bar. We danced, yes, but with the others and with you. Stop confusing me like this." I begged, looking in to his deep green eyes opening and closing.

"I'm going for a walk, probably a swim too. When I get back I don't want you to be here, okay?" He said, no emotion breaking lose from his voice. I nodded in response, watching him take a towel and walk out through the door. 

Sitting down on the bed I wiped my eyes. I cried too much these days, way too much. I looked myself in the mirror, puffy face and red eyes but nothing I couldn't make go away with a bit of makeup. Throwing on the lightest amount that still covered the redness under my eyes and a floral dress together with flip-flops I walked away and over to Tony and Kayla's place. I knocked, twice, before the door opened. My brother stood in a t-shirt and shorts with his hair undone and tired eyes. 

"Sorry if I waked you but we are going for breakfast." I said, letting myself inside the house. 

"Sure. I'm just telling Kayla." He smiled as I took a seat in their couch, waiting for my brother. "Let's go then." He said after walking out of the bedroom with a changed t-shirt and flip-flops on his feet. 

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"I hate Harry." I said between bites. "I really don't though but he is just so jealous I can't stand it! I mean, I talked to Zayn in the bar yesterday and he went crazy even though I know he knew I only talked to him since we walked over to the dance floor together and he stood there dancing with you guys. He is so confusing, all you boys are." I sighed, finishing off my vegetarian pizza slice.  

"We boys?" Tony chuckled. "Try handling a girl. You never make up your mind, take forever to do anything and think we guys understand your secret language like 'I like you so I'm gonna ignore you and assume you understand that I like you by me doing that'!" He spoke between bites, raising his eyebrows at me while I just laughed at him.

"We don't take ages to do stuff, you just complain too much. Who just wanted to stay friends but still act like a couple? Oh yeah, you." I giggled, making my brother look down at his food. "Told you boys are more confusing than girls." I smirked for myself.

"Just eat your food, okay Rub?" He smiled at me and I nodded, taking another slice of the pizza. 

"What are we going to do today then?" I asked. "Since my boyfriend kicked me out of my own place I don't really have much of a plan." I said while I tightened my pony tail. 

"I bet the others want to go clubbing again, it was practically everything Niall talked about on our way home." He took a sip of his sprite. "I however want to do some walking around the island first." He smiled the cheeky smirk of his. I had bad memories with this smirk, it always involved me ending up with doing something I normally would never do. Like that time Tony took me swimming but he forgot to tell me it was with dolphins. 

"What to you have already planned that I don't know about and probably wont find out?" I sighed.

"Oh, nothing special. You, me and Kayla are just going to do some climbing." He smiled.

"Just climbing?" I wondered, raising my eyebrows at him this time.

"I guess you could say that." 

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"Tony, this is not just climbing!" I yelled from the top of the enormous mountain we just had walked up. 

"Well, we did climb up the mountain first." He smiled.

"No, we just walked up it, no climbing." I muttered. Kayla stood besides me, watching the steep cliff from  afar. I was not going to do this crazy bungee jumping thing Tony tried to convince me in to.

"Not doing it, Tony." Kayla murmured, still with her eyes on the cliff. 

"Same here. You go, we stay here." I muttered. My brother just nodded after looking at both of us one last time. Stepping out to the people on charge on the bungee jumping he got connected to a harness and a long rope and looked at us one more time and started walking out on the device that he would jump from. I looked scared at him as he just threw himself out in the air with a smile on his face. His whole life was just depending on the rope holding on to him, maybe bursting, maybe not. 

"He is crazy." Kayla spoke, no real emotion in her voice other than concern and I did understand her to the fullest. My brother was crazy, no doubt about it, but it was a part of him and I wouldn't change him for anything. 

After waiting for him to return to safe ground, if I even can call this mountain safe, he explain how I needed to do this or I was too much of a pussy to be called his sister. 

"I know we are not really siblings, but you must have gotten some braveness from  me. I mean, you always do everything I set up for us so why not this?" He smiled, that innocent smile we all loved and hated at the same time cause it was not a smile you said no to. Feeling deep down that he was just going to make me do this for another couple of minutes until I, as always, did what he said I stepped away from him and to the men on Tony just came back from, went through the same process as him with the rope and harness and just as quickly as Tony had convinced me to do it I was doing it. I looked down, it was endless and then the ocean. It was scary just looking down but without hesitation I closed my eyes and jumped.

Flowing in the air made every little nerve tingle and the adrenalin was pumping around in my body like never before. This was life. I wanted Harry to be here. I wanted him to see me smile like this cause this was a genuine smile cause I felt happy. I wanted him to see that I can be happy without him and that he can't treat me like I'm a toy without a will. If I wanted to I would've stayed but I want him more so I just do what he says. 

"How was it?" Kayla asked, looking horrified at me as I stepped towards them. Tony had that smirk on his face again, like 'I told you you would do it', that kind of look. Kayla just looked at me and observed me like I was some unknown animal no one had ever seen before. I guess she is just happy I'm alive. "How was it?" She repeated.

"Wonderful."