the summer (a Mikey Fusco Love Story)

Chapter 19

A/N: Short I know but the next chapter is full of drama(: xoxo

"I'm fine Vin, really." I begged him to leave, because honestly I just wanted alone time. I moved from my bed to my windowsil to look out at Mikey's house. Everything in the world just felt silent.

"Okay, but I really just don't want you to sit here and cry on your birthday." He said trying to cheer me up but nothing was going to cheer me up because I wasn't sad I was mad, and at myself mainly.

"Vinny, will you please just go back to my birthday party and pretend like nothing happened, just tell everybody that I was feeling sick, please" I could hear my mom's footsteps coming up the hall, and I shooed Vinny down the hall.

I quietly heard Vinny tell my mom that I was sleeping and that I wasn't feeling great. I quickly layed down and closed my eyes so that I could pass my mom's test. She came and not so quickly left.

She sat down on the edge of my bed so that she was facing the wall. "I remember when you were just a baby, crying and sleeping, but now you are 16 years old, a young woman. " I kept my eyes shut but could still sense that she was crying. "I am so proud of you and what you have become. I love you baby, and I just want you to know that you coming home is the best for you." She shut my door behind her after she left, leaving me to go back to the window. It was raining but I could still clearly see Mikey sitting on his porch in the rain.

I clicked my music on and let it shuffle.

Summertime Sadness by Lana Del Ray clicked on and perfectly desrcibed my life. I watched Mikey quietly

as the rain teemed from above like the tears from my eyes.

I think I'll miss you forever
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky
Later's better than never
Even if you're gone I'm gonna drive

Lana sang the words to my life as I watched a tear roll down Mikey's face. What had I done and why now? God how I wish I could just start this whole day over. Oh My God, why?

no, no, but It wasn't my fault it was all his.

The tears fell from my eyes, as I cried myself to sleep.

　

"Kalen, Kalen, wake up." I felt Alexis' hand on my wrist as she tried to wake me up.

"Hi." I weakly said.

"What happened" She softly asked

"Oh God Alexis, it was all my fault and he didn't deserve it." I started crying again, I just couldn't help myself. I had made a terrible mistake.

"What happened?" She asked again handing me a glass of water.

"I went to his house yesterday, and " I took a drink of water trying to find the strength to talk about it. "and He was being a complete asshole, he didn't even care about my birthday. So I-" I swallowed my words. "I told him that I was done with him."

"Kalen." Alexis hugged me "I feel so bad." She pulled back from our hug. "Now are you coming to dance today?"

"Dance?" I asked stunned. "Yes."

"I think you should go talk to Mikey first."

"I will later."

I quickly grabbed my stuff realizing that it was already 9 in the morning. Alexis drove my car down to the studio because I couldn't keep my eyes focused on the road.

"hey" Sarah said holding out the Y.

"You know?" I asked her because her hey was questionable.

"Ya, how are you?" Sarah asked as we took a seat on a bench.

"I honestly don't know, I'm mad at him, but I'm mad at myself."

"hey." Madison joined the conversation.

"god, does everyone know?" I looked at Alexis and Vinny.

"Pretty much." Sarah answered for them.

"hello Madison." I pulled a smile.

"Do you need a dance partner?" He asked getting down to business. I had switched partners so many times I couldn't keep track, but at least we were done with the one dance, we were starting new dances today.

"Good Morning." GEO came into the room gathering all the voices.

"Good Morning." Everyone mumbled.

"Are we ready to learn some new dances? Of course we are." GEO said answering his own question.

We quickly learned the beginning of two new dances, and in one I had to be lifted up like a cheerleader, which I was not, and carried around whilst doing the splits.

Alexis and Sarah were going back to my house, because honestly I didn't feel like crying all by myself today. Oh and what about McKay? Ya she has better things to do now like make out with some boy she met at my party.

"You should go talk to him right now." Alexis said as we pulled into my driveway.

"I will later." I ignored the thought because honestly it was too hard to think about and I just didn't have the strength to talk to him even though I needed to.

"No, you will now." Sarah said pushing me towards Mikey's house, I just couldn't do this.

Sarah and Alexis pushed me up to his front door and Sarah softly knocked before runnning away.

"Hi Mikey." I softly said as he slowly opened the door.

　

He nodded softly and I could see a tear roll down his cheek.

"I..am.so. sorry" I admitted letting a tear drop. He wiped the tear off my cheek with his thumb. His hand rested on my jaw holding me still.

"I think you did the right thing." He softly said

"The right thing Mikey, are you crazy, that was not the right thing." I moved his hand off my cheek and shut the door behind us.

"No, it's best." His hand slid around me and onto the doorknob. "I don't think that I should really be involved with anyone right now." His brown eyes filled with water as he tried so hard to hold it back. I didn't know what to do.

What was I supposed to do? say?

I stared into his eyes as he opened the door behind me.

"Mikey." I quietly said trying to avoid leaving. He came closer to me trying to get me to leave. I was on the porch and he was going to shut the door.

"I love you." I said for the first time as I walked back to my house. He hadn't shut the door yet, and I knew that he was watching but I didn't care anymore. I stood in the middle of the street as the rain poured down, hiding my tears. I fell to my knees and just cried.

The rain caressed around me, it blocked all life out, in fact he was my life.