Battle of Hearts: Two

Chapter 46

Chapter 46

"Let me photograph you in this light,
in case it is the last time.
That we might be exactly like we were
before we realized." ('When we were young' - Adele)

Cameron sat stunned, his mouth slightly parted in shock and the only sound came from the speeding cars on the freeway. I held the steering wheel tighter, thinking I should've controlled my mouth from blabbering. My heart began racing as I came to the conclusion that my revelation sounded desperate from his point of view. He was certainly thinking that I was not over him.

He took a loud breath in and said in a restrained voice, "I don't know what to say..."

"It's okay. Uh... I shouldn't have said that,"

"I had no idea you felt like that, Ally..." He seemed torn and confused. His eyes frantically roamed on the road ahead.

I turned to him with a smile of reassurance. "It's okay, Cameron..."

"No, it's not okay. You were a big part of my life, and I did everything I could to save us but it wasn't enough,"

His reckless words made me furious and my mouth lost its filter again. "This is what your problem is, you think only you tried to save our relationship but you know what, I tried too! But it was not meant to be like you said. Opposites just don't attract."

"Yeah, maybe you're right. Opposites don't attract. I'm sorry you felt like I was trying to blame you for everything. But really I wasn't blaming you or anything." He explained, and it felt surprisingly honest.

"Ugh... It's okay." I said. I was exhausted of these overwhelming emotions which ranged between love and hatred for him. I wanted to be free of his thoughts and the only way I could do that was by forgetting the past.

"We have both made mistakes, Ally. And I've forgiven them, you should too." He sounded mature and relaxed.

"You're right, we've both done things we regret but there's nothing that can change the past." A small smile spread on my face.

"So, I wanna say sorry from the bottom of my heart, that I annoyed you with my chatter. That's something I'm trying to improve, to control my mouth." I liked that he was honest with me.

"And you were more like the girl in the relationship."

"Hey, now you're pushing it. And, that is so sexist! Why can't a guy have feelings without being called a girl? Our society is so damn stereotypical." He crossed his arms over his chest as his nose flared. He looked so cute I wanted to pinch his cheeks.

"Relax, okay? You don't need to overreact."

"Overreact? People have said a lot of things just because I'm little sensitive than others. I can't believe you also thought that I wasn't enough of a man."

"Fine, I'm sorry. You're right, that is very sexist. I hate when people tell me to dress up just because I'm a girl." I hung my head lower as I understood his point. "And as we're on the subject of admitting our mistakes, I'm sorry that I pushed you away. I should've shared my problems with you. I have to work on my trust issues." Laying out all the suppressed feelings in the open, made the vibe around us more relaxed.

He nodded and smiled, acknowledging my apology. Then, we fell into a long comfortable silence. Suddenly, when I thought everything was fine, he decided to be even more honest, "Kenzie tried to hit on me after we broke up. You were right about her, she called me an asshole for not appreciating her feelings. And, we're not friend anymore..." He trailed off, staring into the distance.