Yesterday, I Loved You

Chapter V • BIG BANG 17

/Maddie/

Head is aching, water needing, heavy feeling. That's what I am feeling right now. I can't open my eyes, did I cry? I can't remember...shish! What I have done? I am drunk, and then I am with Kelvin...and then Bea came, and the next thing is...Ow! did I confessed? I can't remember!

The sun's rays touches my face. I open my eyes, and then I saw the ceiling of my room. I can feel that there is something on my hand, a weird feeling. As I lift my hand, I saw another hand. The hand, owned by Bea De Leon, it caused a little bit smile on my cheeks. But, would ended up by worrying. She's still sleeping, while sitting on a chair and her head was on my bed. She'll definitely had a bad neck after this.

I moved my hand, trying to take it from her. Then it felt like, she's pulling it back. Slowly, she opened her eyes. Then she smiled at me and with her smiles, I'm trying to remember the happenings last night. Trying to bring back all the words that I've threw.

"Good morning Mads..."

Acting like we don't have any problem? Pretending that we're not OVER? What is happening to her? Will I take this opportunity to bring her back to me?

"Bea..."

"Hang over? Do you need something?"

May nangyari ba kagabing hindi ko alam? May nasabi ba ko? Bakit bigla nalang nabago ang ikot ng mundo? How can she afford to treat me like this? Tinaboy ko na siya at sinabihan pa ng masasakit na salita noon.

"No. I don't need anything. Just one question for you..."

She lifted her head. Then, she let go of my hand. Fidgeting now in her seat, she tried to bend her neck side by side, up and down just to relieve the pain from her neck.

"Aw..."

"Bakit ba kasi dito ka pa natulog?"

"Is that your question?"

"Bea, just answer."

She walked through my window that is near on my bed, then she lifted the windowpane to open it.

The wind is starting to blow, cool as the wind of the wintertime, I suddenly missed being in the US, the winter aconites, snowflakes, pine trees and everything. But also, the sun gave us the ambiance of autumn and the sunlight made us feel the warm feeling of summer. Summer? Last summer, everything in my life were very accurate, no problems, conflicts. Bea and I were just fine, happy and contented with each other. But now, were completely different than before, as in completely. And then my mind finally deals with our situation like a new bloomed springbeauty as she tapped my shoulder.

"Mads? Are you alright?"

"Ye-yes of course. Just hang over, I think."

"Coffee? Water? What do you want?"

Yes, I missed her so bad. But it's very confusingly, I can't accept all of these things without knowing the reasons of why our unsolvable situation turned into, like this...

"Bea, what happened last night? Bakit ka na ganyan sakin? A-ano ba talaga?"

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/Bea/

"Bea, pasok na ko sa loob. Mag-iingat kayo ni Maddie ha. Past 11 na pala, sige na. Goodnight!"

"Sige Jho. Salamat ha, ingat ka din. Goodnight."

Nilipat ko si Maddie sa upuan na katabi ng driver's seat. Malayo pa bahay nila, sobrang madilim na din. Humiwalay narin ng daan samin si Kelvin kanina pa, magkaiba kasi yung way papunta kila Mads at sakanila. I started driving again, para makauwi na si Mads. Hang over aabutin neto bukas, sasamaan to ng katawan. Sinong babae ba naman ang iinom ng eight cans of beer, na hindi naman talaga sanay uminom? Nagsama pa ng lalaki, alam ko namang matagal na silang magkakilala, but that's not enough reason para pagkatiwalaan niya si Kelvin ng ganun-ganun nalang, lalaki parin yun.