Yesterday, I Loved You

Chapter XXVI • Three Words From You

/Jhoana/

"I can't just..."

My mind was empty right now, I just can't react in a nice way with my surroundings. My heart was pumping abnormally, and I don't know how to handle it rightly...

Plus this feeling, that I don't even know if my tears were flowing out or what? I'm totally numbed. My knees were deep freeze and my hands were shaking obviously...

"You can't just what, Jho? Please tell me now, I'm worrying for the two of you..."

My head is aching and I don't know what to do now... I'm so nervous of what will happen next between her family and my own family... I'm too scared to face them all now...

"Please, sorry Sabrina...ayoko munang magsalita sa ngayon, Bea and I were so confused right now, sorry talaga..."

Then I immediately ended the call without waiting for her reaction...

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/Bea/

(Flashback)

"Mom, You don't own my life anymore! When I turned 20 It's already mine! You can't tell me what's next to do, it's my decision now!"

*pak!

She slapped me.

She slapped me hard.

She slapped me for the first time.

"Sorry..." She whispered.

My tears flowed out of my eyes again. My gaze dropped on the floor and madness really filled me after that slap...

"You slapped me? Yes, you finally did..." I whispered while lifting my gaze to meet hers. And as my eyes met her gaze, I chuckled silently. "Mom, you slapped your daughter for the first time and I know na iniisip mo na dapat ginawa mo na yon noon pa man...to build my path way through my goals, right? To be perfect in all aspects?"

I hardly wiped my tears to show my mom that I'm strong enough to face her, to face my fears, the challenges in life. That I'm not a girl anymore, I'm a lady now, a strong woman. That no one can dictate me what's right and wrong in life...

"I just want you to put some respect in this conversation!" My mom was also crying right now, I know she's in pain din naman...

But, I got so much pain from her hard slap lately, right? So she deserved that pain from my words?

I know I'm getting too selfish now, I didn't respect her already as my mom, my mother. But I think, that's what you call LOVE. You'll fight for that person you love, even with your family. I just can't afford to loose Jhoana one more time, just because of the words of other people. I'll choose her over anyone from now on...over the first people in my life.

"You want me to put some respect in this conversation, right? To respect you, mom? Then okay fine, expect my respect for you RIGHT NOW, mom..." I gave her a fake smile while pointing my finger at the floor...

"Beatriz..." She whispered again, holding my other hand while eyes were firmly closed.

"But surely, after this..." I slowly get my hand from her hands. "Don't you ever expect me here inside this house anymore! This is my last night being here with my own family..."

I cried like a child, like it's my first time to cry...

"Don't worry, diba Jho was my everything? I can live without you, dad, or kuya! I can live just by myself, with just Jhoana Louisse!"

I immediately ran downstairs after saying that harsh goodbye message. Jho and I ran away from them, away from MY own house and family, with just my car, phone, and wallet...

We're both crying and shocked inside my car. We're helpless and confused...

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/Bea/

"Bea, I'm so sorry..." She cried again, then she turned to look at me when Sabrina's call ended.

It hurts, seeing her tears flowing out of her eyes just because of my decision. That I can't do something to make her feel my care and love now. It's hurting me, that she was trapped inside my dangerous type of love, that she became the only victim of my murdered heart...

Yes. I'm too selfish to have her in my arms right now, but I'm too scared and in love to let her go. I love her so much and I'll admit it, I am loving her without any clear explanation.

"Please, don't be sorry. Babe, I want to be with you, that's why we're here...that's why I chose to ran away from them..." I whispered while squeezing her left hand and staring at my car hood.

"I'm sorry Bea, because I love you that much para iwan ka ulit at isuko sakanila. Nalayo ka pa tuloy sa family mo, just because of me..." She whispered as she looked afar, still betraying by her tears.

I'm hurting her, just because I want to be with her. Just because I love her and I need her...no one can take her away from me now, no one...

"Hey, I love you too Jho. I can fight with anyone just for you, for our love. I'll choose you over and over again, promise..."

Intertwined hands were left, line of tears on our both cheeks were dried, the both of us fell asleep inside my car that was parked on nowhere...

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/Jhoana/

(Flashback)

"Hija. Do you really love my daughter?"

I slowly lift my head to look at the person who broke the silence, it's tito Elmer.

He's looking at my eyes directly. Melting me by his gaze, pressuring me to say the truth. I'm drowning, I'm scared.

"Yes po, I love Beatriz so much..." And then the truth came out automatically.

"Then, why did you left my sister? Helpless  and changed?" Kuya Loel asked me with his humorless voice while looking at my eyes directly.

I can't say anything, my mind was black. No word can defend myself...

"See? You don't even know why? You just left her because you want to. Hindi mo nga talaga siya mahal..." He said, as he continue eating his dinner.

"Mahal ko po talaga siya..."

Hindi ko na napigilan pa. My tears revealed myself again, finally my tears showed them my deep feelings...my love for Beatriz...

How? Paano ko naman sila papaniwalain? Paano ko naman ipaglalaban si Bea sa harap ng dad and kuya niya? E, I am just a girl, mahina, walang lakas ng loob...

"Then, willing ka bang makipaghiwalay sakanya ngayon, Jhoana?" Tito Elmer asked me seriously.

Seriously? Ngayon pa talaga? No. Masaya na kami ni Bea ngayon, everything was now in place. We can't just break what's new. We can't just stay away from each other again...

"No po, hindi ko po kaya..." I muttered in between my sobs...

I'm scared. I'm drowned with my own tears now, I don't know what to say...

*Bogshh! (Door closed)

"Bea!" It's tita Det chasing Bea.

"No one can stop us now!" Bea was wiping her tears repeatedly while running down their stairs.

And as she saw me sitting across her dad and kuya, she immediately grabbed my hand and pulled me, we ran outside their house, until we found her car parked on the dark...

Then, it just happened, we ran away from her family because of our love...

"Jho, I'm so sorry. Mahal kita sobra..."

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