Yesterday, I Loved You

Chapter XXI • OUR Yesterday.

/Sabrina/

"Ate Louisse! What happened to her?! Please tell me! Bakit siya biglang tumakbo?!" I shouted between my sobs while making my way back to Louisse. And as I reached her space, I grasped on her shirt immediately.

"Calm down...Sabrina..." She's still standing there, in front of her door. She's like frozen on her last position, the exact time when Bea left us here. She's just staring on nothing outside her door, like tulala.

I don't know but, something inside me wanted to be free. Parang alam ko na agad to, parang may kutob nako...

"Ate, calm down?! Bea's tears flowed out of her eyes, right after she saw you! Then you want me to, CALM DOWN?!" Ouch. I felt stab in my heart after saying those words..."I know, there's a problem between the two of you! Tell me!" I shouted again.

And obviously, I think they have PAST... It's like, they've been together already, like they have known each other for a long time. That thought came inside my mind because of the ambiance Bea brought here lately...

Gahd. No please. Hindi pwede...

Is there a possibility that, the "Beatriz" of ate Louisse and my "Bea" was just the same? And the lady called "Jho" of Bea, was just my "ate Louisse"?

No. This is a big world, it couldn't be. Marami namang "Jho" sa mundo diba? Marame rin namang "Bea" and "Beatriz", so hindi naman siguro mangyayari na pareho lang pala yung taong tinutukoy namin ni ate Louisse tuwing mag-uusap kami.

Ate Louisse loves her "Beatriz" so much, and it's not the "Bea" that I love...

Curiosity kills.
Condolence, Sab...

"Please Sab...you don't know what happened to us..." Her voice was shaky, like anytime she'll going to cry also.

"US?! Ate, I can't understand it. I can't get it! Ano ba?!" I was shaking, hindi ko na alam, pero parang ang sakit lang talaga para sakin.

"Siya ba si Beatriz?" My eyes were suffering now, I don't know but it just flowed out of my eyes automatically...

Help. Help...

I just wanted to hear it from her right now, even if it will hurt me, or it will kill me when I heard it already...I want to clear everything about Bea... Her past and her present situations...

Is Beatriz and Bea was just the same person?

"Yes, she's...Beatriz..."

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/Bea/

Flashback.

"Bea?" She muttered with her creased forehead while holding a tray. She's obviously shock as she saw me.

Me? I was just staring at her eyes... I'm not shock, but I was actually surprised because... she's here.

I'm happy, to see her again. To hear her voice for another time and to stare at her eyes this close...I'm really happy because she's here in front of me...

Her face didn't changed, also her voice was still the same. Jho was still the first person, who stole my heart and did not bring it back. She's still the reason of my heart aches and the cause of my tears every night. But still, the reason of my happiness everyday... 

"Bea? What are you doing here?" Sab asked me right after she saw me.

I did not answer her, it's my tears who answered her question, it's my tears making their way downward my face now...

I need to be brave, to be strong. Moving on stage na diba? So, I need to be happy when she's around, to show her that I'm done suffering na...

But, iba yung pinapakita ko sakanya ngayon. I'm so stupid, bat di ko kayang mag-pretend sa harap niya? San ba may acting workshop dito? Pa-enroll naman...