Too far gone

Abandoned once again

--- Jimmy's POV ---

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I've been thinking....

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I said I'm a secret, right?

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Doesn't that mean then.. that anyone who knows about me... knows my secret...?

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I'm justified in kill anyone who sees me if that's true..

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But is it?

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It must be. Box friend, Mom, Greg, Katrina.. they all knew about me. But... that's not the reason they died though... so it's not true... right...?

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Right... I wish I had someone to talk to about this junk. Someone to tell me if I'm right or wrong. But no one would listen. No one would understand.

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No one would care...

But still...

I have to try. I need some stability. I can't be completely alone, that's not right. No one should be alone. I need someone to hel- "Johnny, wake up." ...... someone to stop interrupting my thinking... sharing a body can be annoying sometimes...

"Johnny dear, your friend is here to see you..." Wait, FRIEND?! This kid doesn't have any friends! He can't! He's pathetic!! How come he had friends and I don't!? "Uggghhh... who, grandma...?" "That Toast boy." Oh. That traitor. How could I forget.... I wonder though... he's pretty smart... maybe he can help me. He can tell me if it's a worthy secret, right? But... then he'd know the secret. And if it is a worthy one, he'd have to die... so... maybe I'll make that kid an exception. No killing Toaster, whether he knows my secret or not. Yeah, that sounds good. And if he's always around, I can ask him stuff whenever I want! Perfect! I'll ask that kid and not kill him. Do your magic innocent thing, kid. I need to ask your "friend" a question or two.

--- Ghost's POV ---

Johnny? He's here...? "Oh... o-okay..." I pulled the covers down and sat up as my grandmother walked out of my room. I swung my legs off the bed and got up, walking over to the door. Toast had reached the door at the same time I had. He looked fine at first glance, but after seeing the look in his eyes, I could tell that he was just as hurt as I was. We sat in the middle of my room, in silence for the longest time, before finally speaking up. Well. Almost. Johnny hugged me first, we both needed that. No one besides my grandparents had even bothered to ty and comfort me. I mean, I don't mean to sound self-centered, but geez. I am only a kid...

"... so you found her then...?" Toast asked as he pulled away. I nodded, being reminded of the sight of her laying on the ground "Y-Yeah..." I hope he doesn't ask anything more than that... I don't want to talk about that part... "... Are you okay? I mean, sad, of course, but... you two seemed like close friends..." Okay, maybe it's the entire subject I don't want to talk about then. All of this is just getting me more and more worked up, and he's only ask two questions! I shot him an annoyed and sad look and he put his hands up, sort of apologizing and defending himself. "I'll take that as a no..." I sighed and looked down.

"Say, uh... I know this timing is horrible, but uh... my time is up... to be in America, I mean. I have to go back to Britain until Summer..." Wait, wait, wait, "What??" He nodded and looked down, "Mother says I have to live there so I can have 'proper education'..." "Oh... you'll be back over the summer, right??" He nodded and I sighed. "I'm leaving in an hour or so..." Oh gosh, that's really short notice..! Thanks for that! Then again, we haven't known each other for a while, so I doubt he ever though to tell me.. I'm just a dumb kid, right? "Okay..." he sighed and stood up, "I should go finish packing then..." I waited a few moments before standing up too, "Can I come?" "To my house?" I nodded. For some reason, I feel like going with him... "... I would let you, but... my mother doesn't like, or trust you..." I looked down, slightly disappointed and hurt. Toast sighed and patted my shoulder, "I'm sorry..." "It's not your fault, Toast..." he nodded once again and said goodbye to my grandparents before leaving.

Leaving. Yup. Didn't it's just say I didn't want to lose anyone else? Welp. There he goes. He's gone. Toast is gone, my only friend left alive will now be across the... sea..? Ocean...? Lake? Pond..? I don't know, some body of water. Either way, he's gone. And I can't get him back.

So let's see: Dad, Mom, my brother, Katrina, Toast... and if the list keeps going as I predicted, my grandparents will be next. And... and then... me...