Thank You For Saving Me // Stauren

chapter thirty three

Lauren's P.O.V
"You know? This time I thought I wasn't gonna walk out of there" I chuckled, cutting the awkward silence as we step out of the hospital.

"Not even a little bit funny, Lauren." Steven replied, grouchily. What was wrong with him? Calling me Lauren? He hardly ever does that! It's Laur 99.9% of the time.

"Ok... Geez. Only trying to lighten the mood. Sorry for trying." I say quite annoyed at him. He was just acting off. And I hated it.

He didn't reply he just continued walking. I just put it on the fact he was stressed. Weren't we all?
He just sighed...
HE JUST SIGHED! What is wrong this this guy?! Usually, he's so sweet, kind, lovely and just generally amazing. But today? He was being quite the opposite. It felt like he didn't want me around. I felt dejected, unwanted, not needed...

"Lauren?!"

"Hmm? Yes, what?"

"Are we going or not?" He said quite dully which made me think that he just didn't care.

"Uh, yeah. Yeah. Let's go..." I felt horrible. I had a headache from the injury I got. It was hard to breath since I broke two of my ribs. I couldn't take it. Plus, I had a scan for the baby coming up anyway. I hadn't told Steve that, I think I'm gonna wait till he's calmer.

"Come on then, if we're leaving" he said slightly annoyed.
Yeah. I'm gonna wait.

"You want a drink?" I heard Steven shout from the kitchen.

"No thanks." I replied simply. I didn't really want to talk.

I just sat, in a ball. I felt like crying my eyes out. But I didn't. I just kept it inside. I bottled it up. It's like a fizzy drink, it gets shaken so many times until it just pops.

Steven's P.O.V
I couldn't do it. Every time I talk, every second that I'm near her, I just want to blurt it out.
I wasn't there for you!
That's all I want to say. With all the stress in my mind from that, I was overall annoyed at everything and everyone for no reason. I guess that's why I'm being a complete asshole to Lauren. I don't want to be, but this revolves around her. I don't want her to think that I didn't care, because I did. I just couldn't take it.

I sat down next to Lauren on the couch and rub my face and let out a sigh.

"Look... I'm sorry about earlier. I was just stressed."

"Yeah but so am I, and so is Emily but neither one of us talked like you did."  She replied obviously annoyed.

I waited for a moment before saying anything. "Okay. If I say something, please don't yell. You can get angry or upset but don't use words. Okay?"

"Okay I won't. So, what is it?"

"Umm. When you were 'out'..." I said using air quotes around the word out as I looked at Lauren with a look of wonder on her face to where this will lead. "I umm...  I left you. Not for the whole time but I did. I hate myself for it but I couldn't handle it, I couldn't handle you laying there helplessly. I'm sorry Laur. That's why I was acting off earlier. Because I felt so guilty for it. Emily didn't want me telling you since you only just came woke up but I couldn't face it any longer. You know how bad I am with keeping things like that. It's why I can never be trusted when it's someone's surprise birthday! Like you know when we all tried to throw Norman one? And I ruined it? Yeah, thats how bad I am at... Sorry." I finished after rambling on, waiting for an answer.

"I thought you hated me for something." She said with no tone of voice and her face had no emotion.

"No! What? No! I could never hate you Laur!" Then I saw a smile grow on her face as she leaned on my shoulder.

"Okay then." She said like nothing happened.

"Wait? So you're not angry?"

"Course not! I get it." She replied as she snaked her arms around me with her head still on my shoulder.

I kissed the top of her head and heard her quietly say...

"I'm glad I'm back home"

--A/N--

So I had my English exam today and I think I failed...
But anywho!!
Hope you enjoyed this chapter. It's kinda a filler but I did plan for this to be a fight but I thought I wouldn't make them suffer...
YET 😈
Peace out✌️